I'm so sorry please don't hate me. I want to do it - but I know I'll have to quit eventually. "have a nice life" hurts. Thank you for bringing it up but please don't hate me for doing it. Btw thanks for hanging out with me tonight. This is the second time I've been with any of my friends this summer.
i wish i could help you more, but i cant. i want you to be happy, although i think you are so selfish, but i love you.
i hate you, you have ruined everything for me, the amount of times i felt like just turning up at your door and hitting you is countless. maybe that makes me pathetic, but still not as pathetic as you, you are a waste of air, i wish you were dead. you dont, and never have deserved life, you are sick and twisted, that is all you will ever be.
i wish you paid a little more attention to me, because you are the first person i really trusted. even though i know you have let me down a million times, as much as you deny it, i still love you and i wish you would stop lying. i know you lie to everyone, but i dont care. and i wish you could see that i love you unconditionally, and as much as you tell me i matter most, i know i dont.
i forgive you for that, but i dont forgive you for not leaving him. im sorry, but i hate your way of life, i love you, but i hate him. always have and always will. i wish you could see.
i just cant get it right, where it is everything
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all of the feelings inside of me are dead and i want them to be alive again
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i dont want to go anymore...i want less to come back after
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why cant i give up...all i want is to give up...again
~nemisis
"I wasn't anything before, except different. But now it's like I'm different, but with a vengeance." - Rockets Redglare
I really wish that i could tell you how i feel inside and what i do as a result....i feel like a fake not telling you but i dont want you to worry or think its your fault cos its not and i luv you sooo much *hugs* Maybe this explains why i can be so quiet/tired/vague around you, im sorry
~I don't wanna fall apart today or ever, you're the one who said you will never leave, please dont loose your confidence in me, i wish i wasn't so fragile, cos i know that im not easy to handle~
I HATE YOU!
why are you doing this?
i leave in 2days and you wont see me for months
why are you being such a prick
you're my friend not my boyfriend why are you causing me so much drama.
i've been crying for the past hour over you and your horrible texts
I've done nothing wrong Mike!
why are you punishing me??
ive never been more triggered.
You were the first person there when me and sam broke up telling me how much i dont need him and how amazing i am and how much he will regret it, now look what you've done you ****ing bastard!!
it's fabulous to have someone to understand me...
to have someone that gets it...
everything...
but you're bad for me...
i know you are...
and it sucks...
but you tell me the truth...
but aaaah...
and i know all about what happened...
and it sucks how much you hate eachother...
argh.
x
I'm lieing to you..
I don't love you anymore..
Someone else has captured my heart...
Its your fault, you told me you didn't care whether I died..
You were joking.. but it was too much...
You made me cut.. And he picked me up..
I'm considering running away..
I'm sorry... I warned you I would hurt you..
But I love him.. He loves me..
What was I to do?..
You should go, and when I tell you I'm fine..
I'm not.. Look into my eyes, but I wont let you..
Sorry...
i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you
Dont go. dont leave me. i need you so much right now and you're going away forever where i wont know if you're dead or alive, where i dont be able to talk to you or hug you. You're a huge part of my life, i love you. Please i cant take it. if you go i dont know how long i'll last. please ...
I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared.
But no-one would listen, cos no-one else cared
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect but neither have you
S - I love you. You know I love you. I just don't think you know how much. One day soon Im going to show you. Just you wait.
Anon - You destroyed me yet I still talk to you. You hurt every single piece of me. I don't know if it was intentional or not. Im just glad I have someone who has bought me back up and who loves me for who I am.
gem (sorry i hope don't mind me calling you that...it sounds cute!)...
if you ever need to chat/share problems...
just pm me...
i'll try help you too...
xxx
