Love,hugs,support for strawberry.cola (sammie)

[[LittleMonster]]

I hope it's going okay
Keep fighting Sammie
xxxx

[Cacoethes]

hope your ok sammie
keep strong
*love and hugs*
xxx

[Cryptic.]

She text me earlier saying she just had lunch & is on rest, so she is still there and still doing amazingly! :)

[UnanimousAnonymous]

Thankyou for the update sarah! sounds like sammie is doing great. Well done hun! keep going, we are all here for you. Sending lots of love xxx

[[LittleMonster]]

I'm glad Sammie is doing well, keep going!
xxx

[Revival]

Keep fighting Sammi, you're in my thoughts xx

[Sleepless123]

Well done Sammi.Keep fighting!

Thanks Sarah for update.

xx xx

[I am a cat]

Hi my lovelies

Thank you so much for your continued support - and I am so sorry I havent been online for a while, I have just been trying to settle into the ward, and felt I needed to stay away from RYL for a few weeks whilst I did that.

I hope you all understand - but I will be around every now and then.

I have been here 2 weeks now and I am struggling a lot, all the nurses keep saying that I am being quite hard on myself etc, and all I seem to keep doing is crying and getting upset and just wanting to hide away.

The other day I ran away and took an overdose and got found and was taken to A&E and now I am back on the unit. I have been finding it hard to talk to the nurses about how I am feeling - because I dont even know where to start so have been bottling things up and then acting quite drastically, obviouslly.

But the ward manager came to speak to me, and she has made me 2 cards, one is red and one is yellow, when I am feeling extremly distressed and in need of support at that moment I just have to show someone my red card, and when I need a chat with someone I just show them the yellow card, so I am hoping that is going to work.

My meal plan is very low, according to them, because I am severely underweight etc but it feels like so much food its unreal and I just want to cry and scream, the amount of times I have sat there and cried over my food is incredible, but we do have nurses that sit next to us to support us - although I keep getting moaned at every now and then because some of the things I do with food are anorexic behaviours and obviously they want to stop that.

It was my birthday the other day!

But anyway apart from that I am here, I am struggling A LOT, but I am fighting.

[Sleepless123]

Just a quick post as i have to walk to my parents or will be late for lunch.

im so glad to see you online.i understand you needing to have a break from here whilst you are in hosp and will not be around so much.im sure everyone else will understand that too and that they know you need to make the most of the support you are getting.

i really hope the system with the cards works.It sounds a really cool idea.

i can understand you bottling things up but as you say this really isnt healthy and hopefully as you settle in more and can use your new systems more to help you to you might be able to trust and talk more.Please try not to take another OD or do anything else to harm yourself.i know it must be hard but your body must be struggling so much already.

Also the meal plan will sound a lot to you and must be really scary as you have been barely eating but please try and trust the nurses when they say it is probably still far less than normal that you are having and so your body really does need that at least.

Well done for staying.Really proud of you.i know your still really struggling.You havent been forgotten.

i love you and am sending loads of love and hugs.Sorry this has been such a rushed reply.i have to go but saw this and wanted to reply!

xx xx

PS A late happy birthday and hope it wasnt too bad.xx xx

[fragile as glass]

I know I don't often post on your threads - you have so many friends I feel my input isn't worth much. But I just wanted to say keep going and it will get easier. You have done the hardest part which was walking through the door and having that ''first meal''.

Good luck, you can get through this and come out the other side stronger.

Taking OD's just interrupts the treatment and care that you are recieving and when in general hospital there isn't as high a level of support which you badly need which you get at the unit.

I think the cards idea is a good one - I've never heard of it before.

Love and hugs,

Liddy x

[Uglyducklin]

Keep going Sammie you are so brave.I really hope using the cards help.Take baby stepsxx

[MissAnonymous]

The traffic light/warning cards are really useful to people who I have known being given/shown to use them. I had a traffic light thingy on my door when I was in an adolescent unit and it was useful to me.

Keep going with the treatment, you need to be there to get the specialist care, so please don't divert the treatment offered with OD's.

If you can learn to catch your emotions winding up, frustration, anger, whatever you find precipitates acting out, try and learnt to prevent the pressure from building as much and you may have a better chance at not acting on the built up pressure. Its hard work to always be alert and act appropriately to building emotions, when your ED has been probably trying to block it all, but with better nutrition you'll get mentally stronger and more in tune with the thoughts so you can fight.

You're strong, you're this far, you CAN get better. We all believe in you. Take care. xx

PS, its good to take a break from RYL at times, the most important thing is your mental health here, so take as long as you need to focus on the important stuff. Time at CH is precious and your doing the best thing to focus on your issues there rather than on RYL, however, we'll always be here x

[Cryptic.]

I can't really say more than what the others have said, which is all extremely useful and helpful, I just thought I'd send you my love and voice my opinion, and that you can always text me whenever, I know I'm crud at advice but I will always listen to you and try to support you Sammi.

The card thing sounds really good too, I know how difficult it can be to communicate, but this way, you can learn to reach out and talk about how you're feeling and reaching out to people for help/support or just to talk, be with someone, not be alone, etc.

It's positive, so I hope you use the cards and try and learn to communicate more healthily and easily rather than acting out from emotions/thoughts by for example ODing - as said, that just diverts the treatment and general hospitals aren't nearly as supportive as where you are now, and you need to keep going with this treatment, it's for the best, which deep down I'm sure you know.

Use the time you have to focus on getting better(both within yourself and physically ofc), gaining skills, and being cooperative as well as communicating with them as much as you can - as Miss said, time at CH is precious and they only want to help you and support you with recovering and becoming more stable in general, and living life with a better level of happiness/freedom and such.

I understand how hard it is to communicate with people though, esp professionals, but try to work on it every day, the cards will help greatly imo, so stick with it lovely.

Keep going with your meal plan, too. You NEED food just to survive darling, so please keep going and keep strong, you have people there for you to support you during meal times too so take advantage of that *nods*

Keep going you can do this.
xxxx

[I am a cat]

Why is this so hard

[fragile as glass]

Anything which can give you a better quality of life / recover will be hard. Nothing in life that is worthwhile comes easily especially at first.

Think of the good things - you got a place at CH, most get turned away. Therefore you need the help and support they offer and they were willing to put a bet on you so you need to bet on yourself too that you are helpable, saveable, whatever words you wanna use...

[Sleepless123]

Hey Sammi

*Much love and massive hugs to you*.

Keep going girl.i know your finding this really hard but i know you knew it wouldnt be easy and you have done so well to stay and get this far.Dont give up now.

As Fragile says think of all the positives and all that you could have and do in life/how much better it would be without ED or with it at least greatly reduced.

Perhaps make a list and stick it up on the wall to remind yourself of all the things you want to do and all that you are fighting for?

Thinking of you and love you sweetheart.

Much love.

xx xx

[Sleepless123]

*bumps*

Sorry Sam you'll get sick of my posts but even if you cant come here right now [and theres no pressure to or to post - i think its great your having a break and in the right place focusing on recovery] i want you to know when you come back im still thinking of you lots and glad your alive and hope your making at least a little progress towards being medically stable.Glad you are in good hands.

And well done for staying and sticking this out!You are doing so brilliantly so far and im SO proud of you.You should be too.

Fight this ED!You can do it girl.Each day you stay there and each day you fight is a day further towards your freedom from this horrible illness.

xx xx

[NeverBetter]

*hugs*
hope ur doing okay sweetie , sorry low on words
keep strong chic

[MissAnonymous]

You're a star for sticking this out as Kath said.

Keep going, your a fighter and we all know you can succeed :) xx

[BridgesAndBalloons]

Thinking of you Sammie, I totally agree with Kath, you're doing so well to stick this out, you can keep going, you can do this x