Wow, i just read this for the first time. It made me cry. I have been in a place before when i didn't even care about others and attempted suicide many times, i wish i had read this then.
My family were always so angry with me when i attempted and it was really unhelpful, but i can see why they were so hurt now... because they love me really. I guess i'm very lucky to have them.
Life breaks most of us in the end, but afterwards some of us are strong in the broken places
~ Ernest Hemingway
Thank you, it made me cry so much but it stopped me from ending it xx
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thanks so much. ive been really close myself. Ive felt that my parents dont care: Im the youngest who cares?...sort of thing. Im still here because my best friend needs me. Because I know what it would do to her if i did go. but this made me realise. Its not just her i would be hurting. its everyone. including the girl who picked on me today. and yesterday. im still scared though. im never safe from my feelings.
i lost a very good friend and my drummer nearly two years ago,
he hung himself, and since that day i've seen dark days but living through a suicide makes you see everythin so differently.
what you've said is so true and everyone who wants to end it all should read what you've written.
it made me cry and i dont do crying!!
its hard to make me cry but what you've said is so so true. its what i want to say to everyone but you've put it so so much better than i ever could!!
keep going your amazing.
much love always
Jimbob
xXxXx
and btw Jim nearly 2 years mate and i still cry and miss you
you will never leave my heart!!!
xXxXx
Release the fear of my pain, In so much pain
Give me the will to fight, Every obstacle that I have inside, Release the fear and, Hear me now
Words I vow, No f*cking regrets, **** these chains
No god damn slave. I will be different,
I'll stand here defiantly, My middle finger raised
F*ck your prejudice
last cut 11th Jan 06
RIP JIM 2nd NOVEMBER 1988 - 11TH FEB 2006
Thankyou so much for that . i have wanted to kill myself so much recently but i never really fully Understood what that would mean to all the People who i would leave behind . :( .
maybe if i read it over another 15 times
sob for another 15 minutes
then it'll make sense
This opened my eyes it was great of you to post=]
but why do i get the feeling that all my hem hem "friends" won't care
That's so true.. Well written! My friend commited suicide when we were both 13 years old. His father found him. It was terrible, and has affected me greatly, even now, 7 years later I still mourn him, and wonder if he would have done the same if he had waited another day, or week? Things can, and will get better. That goes for all of us! <3
Think of it this way. There are people out there that have cancer or other diseases that they didn't want. It will kill them. Why do you get to choose to die when all they want to do is live?
my dad one time sat me down and told me if I really wanted to die I should just do it, and he wasn't saying it out of anger, just the realization that I really don't like being here. He said he would be sad for a few days but he would get over it, and so would everyone else. So he practically gave me permission to go off myself. that is quite possibly the most liberating feeling in the world when you hear that from your parents.
i dont know what to say apart from its true but i dont have anyone who i am close to or in contact that likes me so that doesnt really make any difference for me cos at least my dad wil be happier and i will be with my mum
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