More than you know it, i'm aware
Of this connection that we share
Yeah I know it seems like sometimes I don't care
But you are the colours that I wear
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This picture for my friend Joy Hubbard really, She is the best person ever and always knows what to say to bring me up. I'm lucky to have her in my life. So I think it's safe to say, she has managed to help put the colours in my life. Woop woop for Joy. :p
I'm back after this really short weekend, It was over before I knew it, I wish I could go back to Friday and repeat the whole thing again. But yes, I am sorry I missed 3 days of my 365. I'll make them up at the end I guess. But It was important for me to have gone. I have made strong realationships with a few people which is the best thing ever. :) But after this weekend and getting next to no sleep, I'm so so so so tried and need to collapse for awhile.
I'm slowly gaining more self confidence and not so much thinking i'm usless and crap. It's still there to an extent. But In the whole grand sceme of things, I'm not that bad.
Today I was thinking about how guys say 'I never cry' just to act like they are big. But surely it makes more of a person to admit they they do cry. I don't cry alot, but when I do, I find it such a realase and I enjoy it, not the tears part but being able to express my feelings because alot of the time I feel like they are all stuffed up somewhere inside. But I also believe the most strongest way of expressing happiness is through tears; it's real it's raw and it's beautiful, I've cried once over happiness and I won't forget it ever. :)
Today my little brother had to go to the hospital because he fell out of a tree in our back garden and fractured his writst. He was hurt but he was still happy. :) But he was there for 5 hours and he is petrified of hospitals, I thinks that to do with when he was younger. He must remember. But he enjoyed his x-rays but after he told the nurse that he didn't want to have his arm chopped off by her. Silly boy. But he's got his cast now so he can tell his friends how brave he was. :)
I also think. I need to shave, as my friend said she will make me marry a man with a really long beard If I don't. :D
Sorry to say, this wasn't my original idea I wasn't feeling so creative today. This first done by Aaron Nace. So thank you to him for being a massive inspiration to me. I could only dream being as good as him. But this did take me some time to get right. Not sure if I even like it.
Today was a strange day, Toby went back to the hospital for visit two from falling out of the tree, they wanted him back cause of the x-rays. They said he was VERY lucky his bone didn't go through the skin and that it's now deformed. We have two options; keep it in a cast for a VERY long time or let him undergo an operation. I'm not so keen on that idea, I think the Doctor wants one but we have to think whats best for Toby and we don't want him to be panic so I think we have to go for the cast option. He's petrified from hospitals as it is, as he was in there when he was 6 months old after his father put him in there. I don't think he was forgotten or at least something reminds him.
Tomorrow is time for some outside shots! finaly I'm getting a bit bored of having no time to take pictures outside. Really excited about that!
Not a self portrait people, my apoligies, but shes means alot to me so it's allowed on the odd ocassion and the ones me and her took for me turned out to be epic failures so I am going with this one today. :)
What I have been thinking about today is people and how one can never do to much for a person, it's far better to keep on giving than recieving. I prefer to do more for others than get things for myself. But theres the times where I am selfish, I'm only human. :) but also I think I really need to start appreciating this girl alot more, she is an incredible person, so much has happened to her, I don't want to lose her as a friend. I take her for granted as a friend. I really should stop that, so I thought I'd include her in my 365. to remind me how she does mean to me.
I hope everyone has had a good day for I have a massive bowl of cooked sausage rolls next to me. :D Yummmmmy
I know the title sounds slightly odd and depressing, but to me, It's not really a bad thing, I like being on my own; sometimes more so then being surrounded by people, just for the reason, I like to think and condemplate life. My friends call me a loner when I wander off, but I don't really mind, it's just me. But I also love spending time with people more than anything. Just the odd times you want to be by yourself. If you guys get me.
I have my bose headphones to drown out the world, but recently I have found myself not walkign to college with music but taking the long way through woods and just listening to the world, It's very interesting and I love it, everyone should try it, I miss so much just listening to my music all the time.
Also this is an old one, I'm at my friends we tired to take some for today but got distraced with chips. I'll do a small 10 facts about me after this rant I've been tagged 3 times and not done anything so this is a good time:
1. I perhaps love my headphones way to much
2. I have mild OCD and my room has to be spotless else I'm really aggitated.
3. I love the beach and everything about it.
4. Sometimes I pre judge people, bad habit I know.
5. When I wake up, I'm wide awake and can't go back to sleep.
6. I don't get ill I just drive myself into exhaustion.
7. I often don't like the way I look.
8. I don't have loads of money, I just save for a long time for the things I want.
9. When someone adds me as a contact I always try and look at their steams. :)
10. My sister managed to smash out my milk tooth when I was younger with a cuboard door. I remember it vividly.
35/ 365
Oh my mama told me
'Cause she say she learned the hard way
She say she wanna spare the children
She say don't give or sell your soul away
'Cause all that you have is your soul
So don't be tempted by the shiny apple
Don't you eat of a bitter fruit
Hunger only for a taste of justice
Hunger only for a world of truth
'Cause all that you have is your soul
Well I was a pretty young girl once
I had dreams I had high hopes
I married a man he stole my heart away
He gave his love but what a high price I paid
All that you have is your soul
It's now the June 6th and it's my birthday. :) I'm soon to be going out and watching the sun rise over the sea to ring in it in. I think it's going to be a great year full of change and suprises.
If your going to do somthing today Just listen to this song, written by an amazing woman. [ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u4hbQj8NK1g"]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u4hbQj8NK1g[/ame]" Listen
Have a great day everyone and I will as well, good deal, no?
I can make fun of myself everynow and again. Just a bit of fun really. I know it's a terrible edit. :D
I've been up for over 24 hours now, I had such an amzing brithday. My friend made me the best cup ever. It's got lots of pictures of me on it though the different eras of my life. From when I had no hair to now. :)
Not much to say today other than, I must got to sleep. Birthdays really take it out of you.
I love being out in the rain, but it makes my hair go down! It stays curly but very loos and it gets in my eyes more than it usualy does. Most people don't have the problem of their hair curling into their eyes. It's a big problem. Hair cut soon. Yes yes.
I spoke to this man in the part while I was taking it, he is there everyday. He goes and feeds the swans and pats them and is generaly friends with them, he even helped them make their nests, it's very odd. But he doesn't work; he can't. He has no stomach linning from alchohol abuse but he has given that up now and hasn't had any for 2 years and 11 days and he's not counting. :p But he is is a really interesting guy and quite genuine. Made me think alot about life. He helped in taking this. :)
But right now, I'm so stressed, It's one am, I neglected work that needs to be done for the morning. No sleep for tonight and I'm so dead tired and caffine is NOT working. . . Grrr. Okay time to plough on. Oh and I was thinking, I wonder if I'll ever be good enough to get on explore. :) and sorry for my rantings.
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