You are who I run to for protection, you are who hugs me when I am upset. You show me that things can be okay. You teach me the handyness of a razor. You make me feel at peace. You are my best friend when everyone lets me down. You are my direction when I feel lost.
But, Self harm, you will not be my friend, ally, wall, comforter, talent, peace maker, GPS system forever. You will leave me one day, in a peaceful sleep. And when that happens, I will scream with joy and shake with fear. As for now, I love you. As for the future, I will betray you.
-hits arm- And look what you have done to my arm! My beautiful, untouched arm! You have ruined it. It is scarred forever, all because of YOU! And you can't fix it can you? NO!! Then why are you here now!! >.< Self-Harm, I hate the hell outta you and I always will.
I actually love you a ridiculous amount and I hate you for wrapping me around your little finger. What would I do without you? Right now, I would die. Back then, I would have maybe been someone nice, someone normal who could cope with everything and not some selfish bitch who doesn't deserve a positive dream.
you are the only consistant thing in my life.
you understand me.
and you always make me happy for a while.
but you make me hate myself when im not paying attention to you.
we have to break up your just too needy
if u need some 1 to rant at or just some 1 to talk then PM me im a nice guy really just a bit bloody and broken.
I promised I would stay away from you for this week. And maybe I need to for longer. You're making me weak, and right now I need all my strength.
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
I was doing so well without you. I had love and rid myself of you.
Now, my boyfriend is far away, in the Navy and I turn back to you for support.
Why can't I just support myself? Why do I need you so badly?
You may help when times are bad, you may be the only reason im here right now but why cant you **** off and leave me to live my life in peace instead of coming back everytime i think im finally rid of you.
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
**** off and leave me alone. i never want you in my head again. get lost, why are you doing this, what is it going to take for you to piss off for good, f off!!!
