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~flutterby~ · 07-02-2010, 02:56 AM

Thank you. We actually had a conversation.

~flutterby~ · 07-02-2010, 02:56 AM

I don't think i can do this anymore.

troubleshooter · 07-02-2010, 04:10 AM

Please stop hurting her
I have no energy left in me to even be angry or hateful toward you
Just please stop, leave her alone
Please leave my baby alone and stop hurting her
Please give her something to eat and drink, let her sleep
Let her rest and not have to deal with your evil
I would do anything if you just let her and **** go
Please let them go
I want her to live until she can come
Please stop

DestroyMe · 07-02-2010, 04:29 AM

please stop invading my thoughts and my dreams and my heart
please
I've broken ties to you, so why must you constantly torment me, remind me of what was?
just stop...please

gotta-breathe · 07-02-2010, 06:07 AM

i just wanted to tell you i like your story. because i thought it was beautiful and brilliant.

you actually responded.
now i wish i had more to say to you.

we havent talked in five months

Pinkster · 07-02-2010, 02:01 PM

Im so scared im going to lose you. I dont know what i will do if u go. I cant imagine you not being around and i pray somehow it wont happen. U know me better than all my other friends, i need you. Im sorry that its selfish to say that but its true.

~flutterby~ · 07-02-2010, 04:17 PM

I'm sick of having to hide in my own home.
If i just walk in one day with no sleeves could you please just say nothing.
I want you to know. I just don't want to talk about it. And i don't want to disappoint you.

ReticentRose · 07-02-2010, 05:54 PM

If that night really was 'wonderful... kinda magical, in a way' and 'fantastic', and if what we had was 'lovely', and if I 'didn't do anything wrong or get anything wrong' and I'm a 'wonderful, lovely, beautiful person'; what made you go back to her?
You could have me. You wouldn't have to be alone. You could have me, for whatever you wanted, whenever you wanted it; but you changed your mind. And I know that between being alone and being with me, you'd pick Option 1 every time. What sensible person wouldn't?
I'm lucky you even look at me, let alone talk to me.

Imaginary_friend · 07-02-2010, 06:29 PM

I feel physically sick everytime I think about you but I want you to talk to me. But I know you're not going to. and it's probably better that way because I can't do what we did the other night again. I can't feel it now, but when I do, it's gonna hurt. a lot.

Buttons. · 07-02-2010, 07:38 PM

I wish you would stop contemplating killing/destroying yourself. It's hurting me so much.

hirple. · 07-02-2010, 07:49 PM

You're pissing me off but I can't leave you in case you kill yourself. Is that selfish? I didn't want to go into town with you today because I couldn't bear to listen to your problems - I can't make them better.

*phantom* · 07-02-2010, 08:06 PM

I wish we didn't have to leave.
I wanted to stay there all night.

charcoal feathers · 07-02-2010, 09:27 PM

It's been 3years...I still think about you, i hope you're okay...I miss you.

DestroyMe · 07-02-2010, 09:42 PM

I can't handle you....yet you expect me to handle every little thing you throw at me
I'm not your keeper I'm not your wife anymore.
and it's killing me that, still that's the thing I miss most...is waking up next to you. She kept telling me that you'd come crawling back ring in hand, that you'd see how fucked up you were
I guess that only works if you were older then me
and now, she's happy with her first...and I have to live with you hating me
want to know the truth? baby, I couldn't hate you if I tried and that alone kills me.
you're not happy, I know you're not, I know you're scared, just fucking TALK to me, we never talk anymore becaus you always bitch about who I'm dating....what do you not like it? you don't have a say, just remember that YOU left ME so you can stop bitching about the person I'm with now.
and out of everyfuckingthing you put me through, I should hate you, I should hate you with everything that's in me, but how can I hate someone who I gave everything to? I don't have it in me to hate you.
"Ok for the millionth time i'm not fake and definitely a fucking boy!" if you were a guy I wouldn't of done the things with you that I did, what is WRONG with you
where did my Bella go? because this "caiden" bullshit is giving me a headache and breaking my heart
you know what I say when people ask about me and you? I say "oh Amanda died" because this ISNT you! your name is NOT Caiden, but if what you want is a fake life with a fake g/f and a fake penis go right a head
it's gunna hurt me to know that I lost you to some paranoid delusion but maybe it's for the best.

~I'm planning on slipping tonight..I'm sorry, I can't hold the pain in anymore....of course you understand, right?

XxXflowerfairyXxX · 07-02-2010, 11:46 PM

Who are you?
I thought I might actually miss you when I saw you were online, I almost got excited about talking to you.
But why? I don't even know you.
It's been to long and that gap is far too wide now.
I miss the old you... not the man you are now.

Pinkster · 08-02-2010, 12:21 AM

Im trying so hard not to be angry with you. Im split down the middle. Shit scared and angry. Im trying to keep one at bay.
Ive thought of a way i can stop you. I guess if i stop you you'll hate me but i might just have to step in and do something myself if it means saving your life. sigh. fuck.

Pinkster · 08-02-2010, 12:35 AM

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHH

im so failing. i really am trying not to be mad.

XxXflowerfairyXxX · 08-02-2010, 12:43 AM

I can't believe we're still talking.
Having a real conversation about real issues.
I might not know you on a superficial level but we still connect in other ways.
I shouldn't be talking to you should I?
We shouldn't connect.
I'll ruin your life again.
Or mine.
Or hers.
Or his.
I should've stayed away from you.
I was happy without you.

Pinkster · 08-02-2010, 01:20 AM

fuck now im crying. come on anger fight back

DestroyMe · 08-02-2010, 02:10 AM

I'm scared....of this he said "you can't be paranoid becaue you'll ruin it" I don't want to get too close to you because you'll lose it again when I die. and I don't want to be the second person to put you through that.
I promised you I wouldn't off myself and I've kept that promise but this si killing me
I haven't eaten in 24 hours because I can't, I don't deserve too
I deserve nothing, not even you, esecially not you so why do you love me so? what is it about me that you love?
I'm vain, I'm nurotic, I'm paranoid, I lie, I steal, I've been known to cheat
I'm disgusting, but yet you see all of this and still want me, and I've never once been unfaithful
WHY do you want me? why?

~I don't care how we do it next weekend but you are getting me drunk to the point where I do not care about my ex anymore, I mean it
shove vodka down my throat if you have to, I want to forget her, she's fucking me up