3 days ago I had something to hope for. 2 days ago, I had something to hope for. Yesterday it was smashed. Today it has been rekindled. I keep hoping and falling. Which one will overcome?
I believed you were a true friend, someone I could turn to when things got rough, someone I could trust but it was all a lie to me wasnt it, you didnt care, you dont care, if you did you would have asked if I was feeling any better, you would ask whats wrong , how you could help. BUT I got fuck all. I believed you and you let me down, of course I would never tell you this because I dont like the conflict if I trusted myself a bit more maybe I would say something
If u want the Rainbow,u gotta put up with the Rain
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: London
I am currently:
I went today because I feel disgusting, i feel dirty, i feel just horrible...i thought it would make me feel better...but being in that kind of place...i just felt more disgusted with myself
i know what im doing but i cant stop.
im scared but part of me doesnt want to stop.
all i can think of is how to lose more weight.
i just want it to go away
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
I hate him so much. But why do I? I should have expected it to turn out like this. I knew I wasn't good enough for him. I shouldn't have let him kiss me. I shouldn't have let myself fall for him. I feel so stupid. Why is that he makes me feel like this? Why do I even care? I have other things to worry about. But still I keep thinking what if?
I shouldn't have let you go. I'm sorry. You didn't deserve that and you certainly didn't deserve me. I took up over 4 months of your life, wasted it and now you'll never get it back.
i dont know if you will really want me after you meet me
truthfully i worry that your gonna meet someone 100x better than me who doesnt come bundled with ll these obbessions sorry
I GeT Lei'd In Vets
~An Angel Or A Charlatan?~
"i'd rather hate you for everything you are, than ever love you for something you are not, i'd rather you hate me for everything i am than have you love me love me for something i can't BE!"
I want to eat and eat and eat and eat until i puke because I'm so hungry. I won't though because I want this anorexia to kill me and any extra morsel that enters my mouth will keep me alive just that little bit longer. I'm tired of fighting, I'm tired of being me and I'm tired of living.
i talked about letting go...because i thought you would want me to, so you can be free and do your own thing...lets not think about it, not now, tuesday was perfect, we were happy, blissfully happy, and that feeling is so unbelievably precious to us both, we must hang on to it, so that we both see that life is worth fighting for?
SEE THROUGH MY LIES!!!! PLEASE SEE THROUGH MY PATHETIC LIES
I love being such a good liar...it will be the death of me
I'm not text book smart but I'm street smart....well sesame street smart anyway :p
I <3 you Lozza- my beautiful twin and care bear! Keep holding on. 'Whorejay'- u are my gorgeous partner in crime, who I will never give up. They can't seperate us! loooove you. I <3 Frizzly forever!!! ur my nite light R.I.P my beautiful angel Kat, you will always be in my heart. 27/03/91-31/08/09 xxx Sweetdreams baby girl xxx
R.I.P my beautiful angel Kat, you will always be in my heart. 27/03/91-31/08/09 xxx Sweetdreams baby girl xxx
