If you are feeling suicidal, post here... - Page 59

MayhemBee · 23-05-2011, 08:36 AM

Wow, why do i even bother to pretend when i cant cope?

Mum24 · 23-05-2011, 02:32 PM

Icecreampop. I'm so sorry things are so bad. Please don't try again. Did you go to the hospital? Do you have support? If not, can you go to the hospital? Please try and get some help and attention. Hugs.

Mayhem, hugs. What's happening?

Uglyducklin · 23-05-2011, 06:21 PM

Hugs Rach Sorry everyone is hurting so much. Im scared I have a plan forming in my head sorry. I cant take the FAT anymore eitherxx

MayhemBee · 23-05-2011, 06:31 PM

Exams, ambush of cakes, going away and for meals out. I feel so useless and stupid and i'm sure i did really badyly in my physics test. I just feel like there is nothing good i do for anyone.

Mum24 · 24-05-2011, 12:16 PM

Mayhem.... School is stressing me out too ... Big time. I hope you did ok. When do you find out? Even if you didn't, you aren't useless... You are precious and special. Life is about more than school. You are valuable and are worth so much! I'm so sorry you are so discouraged! Hugs

MayhemBee · 24-05-2011, 01:32 PM

I found out today, and i did do crappily. Made my go from a huge wow i cant belive it high from an english result to kill me low. But exams are over now, which is so much of a relief. I'm finding it so hard to talk to people about my stuff...

Mum24 · 24-05-2011, 06:50 PM

Hugs mayhem. I'm glad your stuff is over though. I wish mine was. My third semester just started and I have a test tomorrow. Ugh. I hate it. I'm feeling so much pressure. Are you done now or do you have more schooling to go? I don't graduate till December (if I can pass everything)
Hugs and way to go on finishing.

Frail Existence · 24-05-2011, 11:11 PM

Nobody fucking understands and it is pissing me off lots. I am sitting here in tears and just dont waana care anymore! Wanna and probably gonna cut tonight. Don't care! Nothing matters! I dont! Dont wanna hear I do cause I dont! Nobody listens to me, ever! I wanna be fucking done and say over. Though about od'ing again earlier. And all that I ever hear is fucking bitching and arguing ALL the time!!! They dont know how to shut the hell up! I am sick of it! Sick of them,sick of the yelling, sick of all the hurt, sick of myself, sick of life! Sick of everything!

Sorry for the language. Just really angry and I really dont care. Not good mood atm either I guess. I am a fucking stupid fat ass retard!!!!! (feel a tiny tad bit betterish) Should just grow up, shut up, and leave everyone the fuck alone!!! I am sorry everyone.

talaiporia · 25-05-2011, 12:56 AM

Oh dear. We understand.
Please be careful and look after yourself.
How are you feeling?

Frail Existence · 25-05-2011, 02:26 AM

i know people on here understand., extremely greatful for it to. Its the people I see on daily/regular basis who dont understand. Feeling better than when i posted that. Not sure atm if I wanna sh or not now though. Still feel suidialish though. Hate admitting that. Thanks Talai :)

talaiporia · 25-05-2011, 02:48 AM

Could you ring someone? Like HopeLine?

Frail Existence · 25-05-2011, 03:17 AM

i am fine though. wont do anything. I have used hopeline before and like it. anna had me make a plan though and so i use it and depending on how bad i am feeling or thinking, i go to which ever one i need/want.

Mum24 · 25-05-2011, 03:31 AM

Libz big hugs. We're here for you. Glad you are feeling a teensy bit better. Please hold on and keep fighting. We need you here!! You are valuable to us/me. Pm me if you want. I'm always here if you want to talk.
R

Frail Existence · 25-05-2011, 03:48 AM

Let a few things out this evening which has helped quite a bit. Thanks mum24. Its nice to hear I feel woth something to somebody. Thats all i need to hear sometimes. *hugs mum24* here for you guys to! how you doing today?

shadowedsoul · 25-05-2011, 03:41 PM

hmm doesn't matter, im okay

Bluerev · 25-05-2011, 04:35 PM

I feel like no one cares for me, and everything is out of control. I want to stop it all.

Frail Existence · 25-05-2011, 04:53 PM

*hugs everyone*
even though you feel nobody cares, i know i do as does almost everyone else on ryl.
can talk to us about whats going on bluerey or can pm or anyone else.
you all can do it
call someonr ot email or talk ot write out wha you feel
stay safe and take care everyone!
can always pm me if you ever want or need to talk!
<3

shadowedsoul · 25-05-2011, 08:20 PM

hugs teardownoldwalls please stay safe sweetie, is there anything there to keep your mind off wanting to hurt yourself, would hate anything to happen to you. squishes gently.
blue, please stay safe hon. i care about you, would hate to see anything happen to you. squishes

Mum24 · 25-05-2011, 09:28 PM

I feel like the biggest loser on the planet. Can't make decisions and I have to make a huge one about the direction of my life tonight. Do I take time off school for the summer? I feel arrows coming at me from every direction. I hate it. I hate my life right now. Why am I alive? Argh. I know why but I hate this stress! I want out!!!!

Frail Existence · 25-05-2011, 09:33 PM

*hugs anna and mum24* Dont do anything please. As you always tell me anna, call someone/distrat yourself... Same with you Mum. Curse though administrators though!