thankyou....im ordering them online as i dont get to go to the chemist on my own, hubby is always with me. I know i shouldnt....i guess its an impulse purchase..but it will be good to know that i have them there should i ever feel the need.......
I was saying this to holly, i just dont understand them. My parents have supported me since i was 16, and its not like because SAAS says they have to give me xxx amount of money that they will, my parents couldnt afford to. But the system is so unfair that you either have to be 25 or supported yourself for the last three years for them not to take your parents income into consideration.
Im nearly done but i just need my parents deatils which is going to be a nightmare to get, my dads already moaning he doesnt have his p60.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
To be honest, you'd think they would just keep the details from year to year and then get you to inform them of any changes. Not that many people would inform them if their pay went up I know. But still.
It is a really stupid system. You feeling ok rowie?
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And you're my obsession, I love you to the bones...
Oh yeh course, I haven't done it in a year, and don't have to this year cos it's allllll over very soon
Yeh defo be careful rowie, cos ODing is one thing, but ODing on something that may or may not be dodgy is another. I mean they could just be making the tablets up of washing powder or talcum powder as a cheap way of making them. You can't tell
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And you're my obsession, I love you to the bones...
how do u cope wih the feeling of people becoming more distant with u. me and my friend at uni have been inseparable this year but the last 2 weeks she has been quite distant i have put my foot in it a few time i dunno. im probably being paranoid sorry i just dont want to b abandoned
Just in from work, went to chemist on way home to save me trapsing back into town, get in and I hadnt taken my venlafaxine today so took them out and realised they had given me capsules, so fukkin raging as I can't swallow capsules, phoned the chemist she says she has tablets there so I need to go back now. I have just phoned my gp as I need a weekly script for next week since I'll be away, got an appt for 4.45, lucky cancellation...
I spilt some wine last night and now my digi cam isn't working, put it on and its just blutrry, you think the shop would take it back mmm dunno if I have the receipt though, my tyres going flat again and I am going to need to get the car valeted before i let my dad have it back for the week mmmmm
Sorry I know I've just moaned a whole lot there, oh well
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Im not hun, sorry.
I am desperate to find something to od on. I cant take para..i dont think ibupr is dangerous enough and not im looking online to but something. Ive never felt this determined to do anything
Hope you get things sorted Hollz...im on the pills rather than the capsules, the capsules are huge xx
Glad you didn't OD :) Hope you can keep your promise to your gf as well *hugs* stay strong hun
*hugs* to all of you.
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I will, promises always help me with urges, sorta to do with my other difficulties, guess that's a plus about them though.
I wish I did OD though.
I don't want to be inside my head anymore.
I need to be gone from it.
& I need to be gone from this reality.
There's too much BS spinning around in my head & in reality & it keeps flooding over.
& then we have the lovely depressive episode I'm in & I feel so depressed & numb & muddled & like things are going in slow motion & I just want to sleep for a very long time.
& then I feel like I've no heart & I fear a lot of crap revolving around that & get anxious & it's just, eurgh, out of control.
I know I cannae swallow capsules, just gonna chill for a bit here, maybe tidy my flat up a bit, who knows and go to doctors back to chem and then i dunno, i need to pack for spain, wanna book my room but i have no money and i waiting on my wee bro paying some into my account
ahhhhhhhhhhh
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I'm sorry so many people are struggling here my lovelies, we had a power cut last night so wasn't about and felt crap today so hidden away in my room.
Rowie please look after yourself lovely rememebr what we were saying on msn yesterday? how we care for each other here? xxx we do care we really do babe
I'm sorry I havent the energy to respond to everyone but im thinking of you x
Thankyou Claire......youre right we are like a family on this board and we do look out for each other. I think it is special.
I havent ordered anything online yet.
I dont know what has sparked all of this off...i will hurt myself tonight and see if that calms my emotions down.
I think it stems from my doctors appointment that i had yesterday
