i'm scared becuase i know i could just kill myself and i'd be with you, and you wouldn't need to waste your time watching over me, and feeling appalled for all the things i'm doing to myself.
And i wish i'd told you that i love you.
Ralph wept for the end of innocence, the darkness of man's heart, and the fall through the air of a true, wise friend called Piggy.
If we dont get home soon, we'll be barmy..
I should've told you that you're my hero while you were still alive. I don't quite know what was stopping me. Perhaps in telling you, I felt that I acknowledged we were going to lose you, and I didn't want to do that - I still had faith up until that night. And yet we lost you anyway. And I'm not dealing so great.
Kitsch, I don't know you but I read your post and it made me cry. It was just so honest and I found that honesty beautiful. I have a very good feeling the person you are referring to in your post knew and knows exactly what that they meant to you. Sometimes things don't need to be said to be communicated. Please take care, I know that's exactly what they would want.
For some stupid reason, people care about me
But every step along the road, I try and convince myself that they don't
Because I am not worth that
And in a way that scares me the most
Because it proves that this is all real
I hate asking for help
I feel like such a burden
I am a burden
Kitsch, I don't know you but I read your post and it made me cry. It was just so honest and I found that honesty beautiful. I have a very good feeling the person you are referring to in your post knew and knows exactly what that they meant to you. Sometimes things don't need to be said to be communicated. Please take care, I know that's exactly what they would want.
I didn't mean to make you cry, but thank you. Perhaps she did know. I hope she did. In all these years of looking up to her, I never did tell her just how much she'd done for me and how much respect I had for her. I hope you're right and that she knew.
Thank you for the comment. That last sentence helped me repress the urge to SI. I hope you're doing okay yourself.
#1 your gone i have to let go but i guess i never will let you go you will always be there
I GeT Lei'd In Vets
~An Angel Or A Charlatan?~
"i'd rather hate you for everything you are, than ever love you for something you are not, i'd rather you hate me for everything i am than have you love me love me for something i can't BE!"
I told the ER doctor, the crisis worker, my head of program and my friend that I was okay. That I wasn't going to try to go home and kill myself. That I felt okay.
I lied.
I wanted to cut more than anything but was scared to tell the truth.
I really wish I had because then I wouldn't be here right now, trying to fight my myself over whether to OD and cut, or not.
Stupid, stupid Emily
It's the children the world almost breaks that grow up to save it.
-Frank Warren
You gave me those pills today, just to cure my migrane.
Is it bad i took all of them?
I want to come and tell you i'm triggered. But i'm scared you'll run a mile.
=(
"I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay"
