wow i totally freaked out today. i had the perfect-ish opportunity to finally tell you the truth...but i got sooooooo scared. i just couldn't do it. i want to tell you the truth b/c you're my best friend and you deserve to to know the truth. i'll tell you soon. i promise. i'm just terrified of loosing you. <3
I'm sure you are starting to hate me...
I tried....
I tried so hard...
But I guess I let you down...
I'm sorry...
Please....just TELL me you hate me...
Please don't lie to me...
I'm sorry I dragged you through so much...
I told you that you deserved someone better...
People like me dont deserve people like you...
ive gotten myself into some more trouble havent i.
i think i like you because you except it.
because you know about me and still say that im cool, that you like me.
I feel so ****ing disgusting and you're the only one who can help solve that. As much as I hate you and enjoy having the house to myself - get your ****ing arse back here now and fix me!
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
"I'm losing you and it's effortless"
I am....
You can deny it all you want....but I'm losing you....what's the point anymore?
One day....I'm gonna wake up and you'll be gone...then what?
Nothing. that's what. I have nothing left. No reason....Nothing to fight for...Just nothing.
I can't stand this anymore....This uncertainty. You don't talk to me properly anymore....you don't...you seem different around me...i hate it....and it's my fault...I hate myself for it.
I'm sorry...I really let you down...but I did warn you...
I'm wishing, more than anything that I could talk to you
I'm wishing, more than anything that you'll be able to help me
I'm wishing, more than anything that I was closer to you...
I am not perfect and I don't claim to be. And if that's what you wanted, well I am so sorry... So mighty, so hegemonic, so hating, so desecrating, so there, so nowhere, so hurting, we fall between indifference, rejection...
~*forever_lost*~; my RYL cousin. Hells; my RYL niece. Katch; my RYL big sister. Voice Of Reason; my everything.
Id marry you tomorrow, when something is right, you just know it, ive never been so sure about anything before, ive never been so in love, ive never been treated this good before, i know i'll love you forever