I was 17 and you were 18 when we met. It's been more than 3 years, you're almost 22. Everything in my life has changed since then - the way that i think, feel, and live. Nothing is the same except the way i feel about you.
Of course it changes in little ways, depending on your comings and goings.
lately of course there have been neither, i don't think you've ever stayed gone this long. I'm managing, I'm changing.
I wish there were words i haven;t already said to you, places i haven't touched, things you haven't seen me feel. you know everything - i have no tricks up my sleeve, no more surprises. if i'm not what you want, there isn't some new facet of myself i can divulge for your pleasure. thats it, thats all i am. all i have. and i just continue to want you so bad.
Blessing all the birds that died so I could live
be a woman, be a woman
I really don't think i could carry on without you in my life
I love Alcohol Induced Altruism(Laura) I still say a church steeple with a lightning rod on top shows a lack of confidence - Doug McLeod Those who believe in absurdities will commit atrocities - Voltaire
It's happening again. I'm staring out windows not really looking at anything. I'm on the verge of crying most days. The smallest things bother me. I can't seem to get happy. I miss you. Why did you hurt me? Why?
I don't know how much longer I can keep pretending that everything is fine. I just want to break down and become a classic Greek tragedy again. It was so much easier.
I broke. I can't find all the pieces. But apparently you're finding them. Can you put me back together?
I may only seem to be a drunken,
vice-ridden gnome whose friends are just pimps and girls from the brothels.
But I know about art and love,
if only because I long for it with every fiber of my being.
I wish you were my parents, I wish they were my brothers and sisters. I wish I lived with you, I wish I had never been here. I wish you would love me. I wish you would have adopted me, why didn't you in the end? What made you change your mind? You could have saved my life, now it's too late and the damage is done...and I just wanted a family, like you guys. You guys are normal, not like these insane bastards. They're not my parents, they told me so. I want to leave but I can't and I can't help but think this all could have been prevented if you had taken me in like you promised you would...you broke my heart, you lied, you lied...but I love you becaue no one ever made me feel loved and welcomed but you, no one else. I admire you lot...at first you cared, I know you did but then you forgot or didn't care anymore. You forgot about me.
I want a family, I want a family, I want a family. Take me in, take me in, take me in. Take me.
I don't belong here, I'm dying here. I'm so dead now. You could have saved me, why didn't you save me? Why am I not worth saving?
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
Thank you.
thank you so much.
You cant imagine how happy you have made me.
I have wanted this for so long, but you have always been just out of reach.
I can finally have what i want.
I can finally have you.
****ing hell! Im sick of the way you jump from one relationship to another. You need to grow the **** up. You go on and on about wanting someone to love and who loves you and needing an emotional connection more than a physical relationship but you dont give anyone a chance. Its been less than a month and already youve discared the latest boy saying you didnt love him "how the **** would you know, you barely know him at all" and already youre out with other guys, Im sick of it. I hate the way you treat them, you say your looking for love well guess what its not going to jump out and scream at you on the second date. You need to stop wallowing in self pitty about not being able to have a relationship and grow up enough to realise thats the problem is you. If you got to know them as a person, as a friend first rather than jumping straight to sex and fetish talk you might and I mean MIGHT just stand a chance with someone, but bloody oath they will have to someone ****ing speacil, extreemly patient to be able to teach you.
Im sorry, I know its harsh, but youll never find love if you cant look past the first few weeks.
A little bit possessive, little miss obsessive, can’t get over it....
♥ Davo
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Why are you making this so hard for me?
you dont want to speend ant time with your kids anymore do you not care about us?
i need you but you cant see what your doing to me.
My hero wears Combat boots and Camos!
I love that boy!! xxxxx
People walk in and out of our lives everyday, But those special people leave footprints in our hearts and minds.
