I love Alcohol Induced Altruism(Laura) I still say a church steeple with a lightning rod on top shows a lack of confidence - Doug McLeod Those who believe in absurdities will commit atrocities - Voltaire
i'm sorry for pushing you away and i know i will i can't stop my self from creating conflict between us i wish i could end it and save you from me but i love you too much
It is easier to fight for principles than to live up to them.
You don't have to apologize, I'm not really that angry. Let's just forget it, it was only a joke. Thanks for cheering me up, it worked, as always. Hope I'll see you tomorrow
If only I were a bit braver, I'd be able to tell you that I need help...
What scares me is what you might say...
I am not perfect and I don't claim to be. And if that's what you wanted, well I am so sorry... So mighty, so hegemonic, so hating, so desecrating, so there, so nowhere, so hurting, we fall between indifference, rejection...
~*forever_lost*~; my RYL cousin. Hells; my RYL niece. Katch; my RYL big sister. Voice Of Reason; my everything.
I am not perfect and I don't claim to be. And if that's what you wanted, well I am so sorry... So mighty, so hegemonic, so hating, so desecrating, so there, so nowhere, so hurting, we fall between indifference, rejection...
~*forever_lost*~; my RYL cousin. Hells; my RYL niece. Katch; my RYL big sister. Voice Of Reason; my everything.
I am not half as strong as you think
You have broke me down and now this...
Do you really want to see me like this?
You've done this.
I am not perfect and I don't claim to be. And if that's what you wanted, well I am so sorry... So mighty, so hegemonic, so hating, so desecrating, so there, so nowhere, so hurting, we fall between indifference, rejection...
~*forever_lost*~; my RYL cousin. Hells; my RYL niece. Katch; my RYL big sister. Voice Of Reason; my everything.
I wish it was real.
I wish I was real.
Make me real.
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
I bottled it again.
I can't do this.
I can't let you in...
I am not perfect and I don't claim to be. And if that's what you wanted, well I am so sorry... So mighty, so hegemonic, so hating, so desecrating, so there, so nowhere, so hurting, we fall between indifference, rejection...
~*forever_lost*~; my RYL cousin. Hells; my RYL niece. Katch; my RYL big sister. Voice Of Reason; my everything.
you made me a promise, that one day we would be together
and now every time i see you with her it's like my heart is being torn out and i feel sick, im so jealous
yeah, i'm trying to move on, but nothing compares to the way i feel about you, i love you so much, sometimes i cry myself to sleep thinking about the way things could have been...
Change has a considerable psychological impact on the human mind.
To the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse.
To the confident it is inspiring because the challenge exists to make things better.
To the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get better.
i feel like im losing touch with everything and you.
we never just hang out for the sake of hanging out anymore.
im always the one to make the plans and then when i do make them you often change them or cancel them and make plans with other people over them and it really hurts because it makes me feel like you just dont care and no matter how many times you say you do im just not going to believe it because you dont act like it.
i understand that you have tohave other friends aswell as me but i have come to grips with the fact that i know no matter what i do im never going to be on the same level as your other friend, even the friends youve known for the same length or time as me. and i cant tell you how much it pisses me off because i cant do anything about it.
all of the people i "hang" around with only talk to me because im friends with you. ive come to grips with that and i guess i have to be ok with it because i know its never going to change because i guess im just not that likable, i mean clearly at college i have one friend who is acturly chosing to my friend. although i guess your only chosing to be my friend because you feel sorry for me. thats normally how i get friends people feel sorry for me so they talk to me and then they dont want to let me down but suddenly not being there.
and every time i try to say any of this you turn it around to how much of a **** friend you are and it makes it impossible for me to say anything because then i feel bad because ive made you feel like a bad friend. when in actural fact it isnt about you its about me. you make me feel so incapable of doing everything because your perfect at everything, your good at everything, art, music, writing, photography EVERYTHING. and no matter what i do im never going to be as good as you. your so smart, so beautiful, so talented in everything you do and you make it all look so easy. you get amazing grades grades i cant even dream about getting. and then theres me i try hard in the things i do and im still crap. and theres me thinking i could acturlly make it as a photographer we all know i can i mean even other people at college say my work is rubbish (not saying names).
im never ever going to be as good as you and your perfect friends... so i give up. you want to hang around with me YOU make the plans YOU do the work and if i decide to change those plans you can be the one who feels **** because of it.
Fuk it im done i just care anymore
!!!!!!!!!
I'm sorry but I don't love you, I barely even like you in that way. We won't last long. I donh't want to hurt you but it's going to happen.
You helped me realise why I don't believe people when they are nice to me though and for that I'm grateful.
I miss you, I miss how we used to be.
I lied when I said you shouldn't worry.
See I cannot feel this, not matter how you try and in the real world, there's no goodbyes.
I love Alcohol Induced Altruism(Laura) I still say a church steeple with a lightning rod on top shows a lack of confidence - Doug McLeod Those who believe in absurdities will commit atrocities - Voltaire
