*hugs back*
thanks. yeah, it did go okay, and i feel like it might actually help me this time, i just have to get use to it. to talking about it and bringing it all back up...but i gotta admit u were right about me needing to go. wasnt able to just hide from it anymore
maybe its time to change
and leave it all behind
ive been the one to walk alone
ive always been scared to try
so why does it feel so wrong to reach for something more
to wanna live a better life
what am i waiting for?
maybe its time to change
Well luckily you're smart and strong enough to do what must be done. *holds your hand* I think after going to therapy for a while you'll be calmer and be able to put it to rest. After you work through it more I bet you can start feeling like you again. =)
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
yeah
one of the questions that worry me though is how much of the old me is left, and who am I going to be once I can finally put it to rest? :/ it worries me that i've changed so much I really dont know who i am anymore. it's like i have to get to know myself again, which just sounds weird...idk. just hope to get it all figured out.
but thanks, for everything, tracie :)
i owe you
maybe its time to change
and leave it all behind
ive been the one to walk alone
ive always been scared to try
so why does it feel so wrong to reach for something more
to wanna live a better life
what am i waiting for?
maybe its time to change
Well, really...people change all the time. Even if you change it might not be a bad thing. You're at a time in your life where most people are changing anyway. You won't completely lose yourself, but yes you'll be different. But don't think of that as a bad thing, just think of it as a new chapter in your life, and then make it a good one. :) *hugs* You're welcome honey.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
Feel bad considering this is my first time posting in months, and its negative, but..
Really scared. Dont wanna go to the hospital but gotta and am afraid they're gonna find out about my ED and everything thats wrong is gonna be because of that or something I did in the past and then theyre gonna commit me or something ...
Scared of going. Dont wanna go. Right now, all I wanna do is cut but if I do that, they'll see and they'll try to commit me anyways..
Dunno what to do...
Rhayven (20), Mae (23-24), Shadow (?), Kai (16-17)
SOPHIE! (I wanted a pretty blue but theres no blues :( They are all too lite!) I'm 6 :)
no mater what anyone say is still gon feel scary for you. i jus recently got out hospial and was scared to go in firs plce. itll be ok. try n tell yourself and reassure yourself that n even if you dont believe it. can only help. im here if you ever wanna talk or need to. PM is cool to :) *nice squish*
These kicks take me far away my dear; Far away from myself Far away from my troubles
Far away from heaven
I've been in the Psych center plenty of times. I just don't want to go back!
Most of the ones around here are horrible :/
I dont mind going to the ER and figuring out whats wrong. But its fairly obvious what I'm doing too. And have been threatened to be committed before...
Honestly, if it wasn't for my friends talking me into it, I'd just not go. I dont want to go...
Rhayven (20), Mae (23-24), Shadow (?), Kai (16-17)
SOPHIE! (I wanted a pretty blue but theres no blues :( They are all too lite!) I'm 6 :)
Respond wasn't bad, until Sharon quit. After then, it seems like it got flooded with ass holes who can't look past the fact that 'Oh, I'm a professional so I know MORE than you.'
Roanoke Memorial was just a damn joke, flat out.
Still. Don't need to go there, so they can bite my ass. I'm not going back there. I'm going to the Hospital for medical attention. Not letting them force me anywhere else.
Rhayven (20), Mae (23-24), Shadow (?), Kai (16-17)
SOPHIE! (I wanted a pretty blue but theres no blues :( They are all too lite!) I'm 6 :)
