I want to be surrounded by people who i once had when my dog was alive, but i pushed them all away, making amends is hard as it is. Make it easy and forgive me. I don't want a relationship just the fun stuff, keep me safe?
They have been gone for 2 days... feels like forever
I need her back...
I need to talk to him... I can't keep hiding from this forever... can I?
I am not perfect and I don't claim to be. And if that's what you wanted, well I am so sorry... So mighty, so hegemonic, so hating, so desecrating, so there, so nowhere, so hurting, we fall between indifference, rejection...
~*forever_lost*~; my RYL cousin. Hells; my RYL niece. Katch; my RYL big sister. Voice Of Reason; my everything.
You do stupid things when someone tells you they love you.
Stupid stupid things.
And I'm sorry that you're going to have to help me pick up the pieces.
"Watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it."
I am not perfect and I don't claim to be. And if that's what you wanted, well I am so sorry... So mighty, so hegemonic, so hating, so desecrating, so there, so nowhere, so hurting, we fall between indifference, rejection...
~*forever_lost*~; my RYL cousin. Hells; my RYL niece. Katch; my RYL big sister. Voice Of Reason; my everything.
I am not perfect and I don't claim to be. And if that's what you wanted, well I am so sorry... So mighty, so hegemonic, so hating, so desecrating, so there, so nowhere, so hurting, we fall between indifference, rejection...
~*forever_lost*~; my RYL cousin. Hells; my RYL niece. Katch; my RYL big sister. Voice Of Reason; my everything.
"Hey kid you know what I just realized?"
"Hm?"
"You've got Jewish eyes. See I've got these German ones which is wierd because I'm the Jewish one of us two."
"Hun, what are you getting at?"
"At least my sideburns are starting to curl."
"You're crazy."
"You're so pretty."
For some reason this conversation you had with me changed my life and I want to share it with someone.
I'm glad that both of you are happy. I'm glad I could help. But I still don't think I can ever trust either of you again.
I may only seem to be a drunken,
vice-ridden gnome whose friends are just pimps and girls from the brothels.
But I know about art and love,
if only because I long for it with every fiber of my being.
I hope with all my heart that you are ok. I know something happened to you, did you try to take your life? What happened? I know you were depressed but why was I told you had gone insane? You're not insane, no one's insane. I really, really, really hope you are well. The thought of you not being alright drives me crazy, I can't stand it. Please be alright, please be the same old you. PLEASE! I want to see you but I'm afraid they won't let me. I want to see you so bad but what if you're not yourself anymore? I heard you weren't even speaking, how did that happen? If I saw you would you even recognize me or remember me? Would you talk to me? Would you still love me? Would you remember me? I'll never forget you. It's just too sad to even think you're not alright. It makes me cry so much. I want to return the favor, I want to make you feel loved. Make you feel special, like you did with me. I want to be there. Gods, I even want to take care of you. If thinking about you in a bad state makes me this sad and desperate, that means I love you, right? Yes. I do, I do.
Please, please please be ok, please be normal, please. You have to be alright, you just do. What happened to you?! Please be ok.
I'm silently wishing all the best in the world for you, I honestly believe you deserve it and if you are/were depressed, I know how that feels and I would never judge you or look down on you for that. I would never be disappointed for that. I can even understand wanting to leave and I would never hold it against you for trying or thinking about it.
Wishing I was one of yours so I could be there for you,
Me.
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
I love Alcohol Induced Altruism(Laura) I still say a church steeple with a lightning rod on top shows a lack of confidence - Doug McLeod Those who believe in absurdities will commit atrocities - Voltaire
