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Frail Existence · 11-05-2011, 04:00 AM

i dont know if i would use the word intense but... jswuifdhjuioeswjpsodbhcduiaqhjuf!!!!!!

dawnie · 11-05-2011, 11:33 AM

i'm not doing ok , no body seems to believe me about the way im feeling , im at lowest i m begaining to lose the will to keep fighting

dawnie · 11-05-2011, 11:49 AM

thats excatly how i feel ,

dawnie · 11-05-2011, 02:31 PM

*hugs* the quite one

dontwantyoutoknow · 11-05-2011, 02:46 PM

*hugs everyone*

Please keep fighting. PM me or add me on Facebook if you need a friend.

shadowedsoul · 12-05-2011, 07:03 PM

crap feeling so suicidal right now. cant deal with this right now.

K.Luna · 12-05-2011, 09:49 PM

For the first time in my life I feel like killing myself. I can't look after myself or anyone else anymore.

Mum24 · 13-05-2011, 12:15 AM

Shadowedsoul. Hugs. Please keep fighting

K Luna I've soooo been there. What's happening that's led up to this? Do you have support? A doctor? Family? Please don't try to stand alone. Please try to get help. Hugs.

Mum24 · 14-05-2011, 01:47 AM

Agh school is overwhelming me and choking me at the moment. I took extra courses on top of my full time load and I'm freaking out. It's too much. My mood is declining and anxiety is high and I'm miserable. I'm in a panic. I was feeling so well for once and now this. Ugh. I hate my life. Well, my school life. Boo hoo.

Mum24 · 14-05-2011, 01:49 AM

Hugs the quiet one. I've been there. I understand. It sucks. Do you have support??

[LittleMonster] · 14-05-2011, 02:59 AM

I want to die.
*sigh*
I wish I were & everything would be fine..

*HUGS Mum24 and everyone else*
Mum, do you think you could drop those extras if it's causing so much misery? x

Frail Existence · 14-05-2011, 03:20 AM

*hugs for both mum24 and smokeandmirrors*
everything would not be fine.
it would hurt a lot of people whether or not you see or believe it.
mum24 - same as ^^ said. That is if its not too late to.
(been feeling this wat all day tbh though)

talaiporia · 14-05-2011, 08:43 PM

*huggles everyone* Please be careful. You can do this.
Tell someone what's going on.

ahhhhbisto · 14-05-2011, 09:44 PM

I can't take this, I can't do this anymore, I'm sick of it all. Sick of pretending, sick of smiling, sick of college and the people in it, sick of the days wasted sitting in the dark, unwashed and crying. it's ridiculous I'm sitting here typing this out, and nobody around me has a clue.
I don't want to die specifically, I just don't want to be here. I just want to be anything but alive right now.
Sorry for posting all this, I'm not sure what I expect..
But I'm hoping all of you are doing okay *Hugs to everyone*

Mum24 · 14-05-2011, 11:33 PM

I want to cry cry cry. I can't handle life. I just can't seem to cope with life. I'm a failure. It's too much. I'm overwhelmed. As usual, again, as always. I want things to go smoothly just for a little while. Please.

talaiporia · 15-05-2011, 12:01 AM

*hugs for Mum 24 and ahhbisto*

Mum24 · 15-05-2011, 02:09 PM

Thanks Talaiporia. And yes hugs to ahhhbisto.
I have to reduce the dose of my medication again tonight. I'm afraid to tell them how stressed I've been or they might tell me to go back on. I don't think it's cuz of meds but just cuz of school. I don't know. I have to go in early and try to find someone, anyone at the school who can talk to me tomorrow. I'm lost ad to what to do with my extra course. If to keep it and try to bear up or to drop it and delay graduation. :(. I feel like shit. Thanks for being supportive guys.
Libz how you doing?

Frail Existence · 15-05-2011, 02:59 PM

*hugs mum24 (and everyone else)*
not good. bad thoughts since Thursday night. cut bad last night. is okay now though. thought about od'ing this morning. anna (teardownoldwalls) had me make a plan for when im (really) unsafe and back up plans last night. slept for less than four hours last night. seems like i havent been doing well at all lately, im sorry.

Should maybe go back on meds, that is if they helped you before hand? May not want to but could help. Definitaly should talk to someone about your classes before you become dead beat fried :) Wouldnt want that to happen! Sorry you feel bad. Just remember that tomorrow is a brand new day :)

Mum24 · 15-05-2011, 05:34 PM

Libz and Isabelle hugs. Libz I'm glad you didn't od. Did your backup plan help? Do u maybe need to get some extra support now to help while things are really hard and you are really struggling? I'd hate for anything bad to happen to you. What else can you do to get some extra help? Hugs.
Isabelle (love that name) I'm sorry you feel so alone. That's soooo hard. I've been there. But given how you're feeling I'd encourage you to talk to your psychologist anyway even if you're embarrassed. It's important! You need the support. Please be completely open about everything. You are important and it's an imortant step in keeping you safe. Hugs
Thanks for the support guys. Ill try to figure out what to do tomorrow. :(

Frail Existence · 15-05-2011, 06:10 PM

i came on here and just wrote/posted things in different spots like safe room, my thread, my r/v thread. Did it help? I dont know. I emailed somebody. She said she had to go and be gone for a while but will get back to me when she gets home. Been on here otherwise or helping around the house. Really dont know what else to do.

Dont you have some leader or counselor type person or thing you could contact or talk to?