*pokes head out from under blanket*
I've been awake for two hours and I feel absolutely awful... And nothing I do helps, not clutching my stuffed bear, not atempting to become one with the wall, not curling up in as tight a ball as I can manage, nothing...
I.Hate.This.
*burrows back under her blanket*
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
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*wakes up, cuts herself to bits, goes back to sleep.* if only i could. im having a **** day which is about to get worse and worse as is tomorrow and the weekend. i cant escape
"Its fine.. salvation was just a passing thought."
*hugs Caela*
I'm sorry hun I've got nothing for you. Please take care.
*returns to her corner taking her misery with her*
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
I totally slept throught the alarm. Didn't actually wake until the radio stopped playing. No worries though.
*hugs amanda, jess and ally*
Mark, thank you for the hugs. I'll stow one away for later also, for about 3 in the afternoon my time.
Brother dear, you hanging in there? *reaches up to hug Jeff*
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
You do not bring negativity. You do not drain the energy. You are giving all of us strength. You are sheltering us.
I have a resentment and am furious. I'm ready to start throwing punches and pulling hair and kick shins. I hate this service committment on Thursday mornings. I'm tired of being the responsible one.
Instead I will send the suv down the interstate and unlock a meeting and listen to someone note that there was something that I didn't put out, like the sugar. Or like last week, that we need more matches.
Jeff, if drawing you into my chaos helps, come on in. Let me help you by asking you to help me. *hugs Jeff*
Again, the strength of my back.
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My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
*hugs Auburn and then collapses on the floor in a heep and moans*
I am having a shitty ass day though...
and it just keeps getting worse :-/
All I want to do is lay in bed and sleep the freakin day away!!!
We're all in the same game;
Just different levels.
Dealing with the same hell;
Just different demons.
Feeling more ok then normal today (hugs indicate that maybe?) But i can feel pure rage just below my surface i just hope that my dad doesnt set it off.
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Memento Mori
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Live your dream? Or Dream your life?
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I can't hug people in real life and online it makes me feel like a lier.
