no dont get cuddles. cuddles bad.
wanna go home but they keep makin me member stuff and i dont wanna anymore!! I dont wanna think bout it or member cus its bad and he did things and dont wanna talk bout it no more!
*sits outside Lexi's hiding spot* I'm sorry if you didn't like the cuddles. I know you don't want to remember things more but they're just trying to get it out to help you more. Remember how we talked about it? I know you're scared sweetheart, but it'll be okay. You will get out soon and I bet you can have more fun with Sissy playing at home and doing nice things.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
no. not ok. can feel him. feel funny. restless. i dunno. anna a bad person. deserve hurts. anna talk too much today. should never said some of those things. im a traitor. *paces faster*
i don ike talking either lexi
*shrugs*
hope you feel better
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
dont deserv cuddles cus bad. tride real hard and tride be good. i drawed stuff and talked bout stuff ut then they ask more stuff and i dont wanna say that stuff so i tride find hidey spot again but cot me and go real mad. i dont wanna be here no mre i wanna go home it just makes it more bad here then not
You do so deserve cuddles. You weren't bad you just got scared. *puts hand out* Come join me and Anna love. You were a good girl and talked and drew like you said! They just overwhelmed you and then you tried to hide. Did you tell them how much it scared you and that's why you hid?
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
i told them didnt wanna talk nor more but said just do and will feel beter but i cant and started cry but shudnt cus im not sposed be little. they said would try talk tomoro but i dont want to it hurts and dont wanna!
if i come out i wont have talk bout this no more?
*curls up*
*mumbles* sunflowers and daisies and wildflowers and ltsa blue flowers
theres butterflies and lots of birds and rabbits
*bangs head on knees*
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Honey crying isn't a baby thing, it's a pain thing. People of all ages cry when they're hurting inside or out. I cry a lot and I'm a grown up! Besides, you can be little there sometimes. Were you told you weren't allowed to? I know it hurts a lot and you don't want to. If you come out you don't have to talk about this stuff with us, but I can't control them. We can just cuddle and play here if you want.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
*lies Anna down gently and strokes her hair* That sounds like a very beautiful field honey. What would you do if you were in it? *holds your hands safe*
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
right now? find some thorns.
when in good mood?
watch the animals and pet the rabbits cause the rabbits would be nice and let me and catch a butterfly.
you hafta hold me hands?
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
i come out then
-snuggles close-
crying makes me sleepy and some times makes me feel less icky but he said not to.
just kinda wanna go sleep. sissys nice and sings to me and stuff but membering stuff again and member in sleep so not sleep good.
