i cant stop crying!
i cant face this crap anymore.
i always said i would fight for chris but i wanna be with him soo much!
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Cheryl, you are not letting anyone down hunni, just keep talking, we are here for you.
Dani - I understand it is difficult, I really do, I have been there myself and I can totally relate, what did I say the other day, do something special for Chris, he knows you love him and are always thinking of him and thats a good positive thing - but he doesn't want you to be upset, he wants you to live your life hun and be happy - can you do that for him?
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
ive tired and i cant fight anymore i really cant take it anymore
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
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Im out of most meds til whenever i can get a docs appointment, cant say im too bothred tho. I have piano lessons tomrrow but i dont feel motivated to go, just like i dont feel motivated to do anything. I wonder if im getting depressed again but i cant tell if the ads work or not.[/quote]
I hope you manage to go to your piano lessons Mari...I think if you can motivate yourself to go you will enjoy it hun. Im sorry youre out of meds, if youre getting depressed again it will be important to get a docs appointment as soon as you can ie tuesday. Could you get an emergency dose from a and e or a walk in centre...I dont know? ((hugs))
I can't believe I am going to play badminton at 10am with a sw from the ihtt, then going to mums for lunch, picking up nikki, will drop her off at the flat, go to the football, will need to purchase stuff for our party tomoz night but just don't know when I am going to get a minute to do it :S
Got I am getting triggered by Corrie again :S
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I think it will be ok without them, ive been without them before and nothing happend, as long as i have the serequel im fine, but im going to make an appointment for next week anyway because i have to go for another reason.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
My sister is looking to be invited tomoz, but its not the type of gathering I want my sister or brothers at, you know...
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I really wish Gerald Butler would come home to Paisley, I'm watching PS I love you, David and I were going to after out first film but he had to go, I do have it on dvd but its on sky, I have taken my meds, just waiting to sleep I guess.
I said earlier I had washed all my bed covers, put them back on but didn't iron them, it looks bad but you just sleep in it don't you, what does it matter?
SW is coming at 10 - so need to get a kip in if I am going to kick her ass at badminton.
Night everyone - hope you all safe xxx
Cheryl - please text me back, I am worried about you petal xxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
i think i'm getting OCD when it comes to cleaning. but i struggled with hoarding before, so maybe the other end of the spectrum is good for a while? i find peace and it helps me.
oops i just got pulled over for doing 60 in a 20 zone, i guess that'll be my license gone. and all because the woman in the shop didnt believe that im 21 and didnt sell me a packet of smokes so i had to drive back to mine and get my passport so i was driving fast because i was annoyed
well i'm up and dont have a clue what im doing today!
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
I'm just up too, had a rubbish sleep, didn't want to get up but SW is coming round and we meant to be going to play badminton, dunno if I can be bothered in all honesty...
Gonnae have a cup of tea and get dressed, see how it goes.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
the girls are dragging me out so i better get ready!
hope your all ok and i'll talk to you all later!
xx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
I was pretty sure that sw was meant to be seeing me 10-12 which was okay, gave me time to get meds before chemist shuts at 1 and maybe bank and up to my mums for lunch, but its now 11.10 and no sign, I'm even dressed, well I say dressed footy strip on. I don't think we are going to have time to go play Badminton which is a shame coz it would have been a good start to the day, but I just don't see us having time now.
I think I have like 2-4 people coming round tonight that are my friends, be a bit small in comparison to Nikki. Nikki stayed with her mum last night but I am picking her up after I go to my mums for lunch, before I head to the football.
I have no idea what to wear tonight, not even bought any food or drink in yet, didn't wanna do that without Nikki like.
Anyhow, just going to stay in till 12 to wait for SW anyway to see if they show, might use time to wash all the laminate coz it should really be done before anyone comes round tonight, its not that bad though.
Anyway, I am rambling again - Dani hope you have a good day with your friends, and hope everyone else is doing okay.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
