- cinnamon latte.
- doing something vaguely productive after copping out of yoga session istead of going into a shame spiral, thus freeing up time to reattempt another thing tomorrow.
- cooking my first meal from scratch in a pretty long time and doing ok at it.
- GBBO.
Organised seeing Florence tomorrow which I'm getting super excited about!
My mum was super helpful in the planning which helped because of my usual navigation woes! I didn't have a serious notebook to plan it in and that was probably why :P
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
So I haven't been on here in ages as I've been away but I wanted to share my super awesome achievement because I am amazing and am really proud of myself :P I also wasn't sure where to put this, but this thread is awesome so I thought I'd pop it here! (Hope you all don't mind!)
It wasn't actually today (forgive me) but yesterday I came back from working at an American special needs Camp for 3 months, which was incredibly tough and exhausting and wasn't exactly well planned with lots of MH stuff going on, but I totally completed it without (major) disaster and still lived to tell the tale! (I also only ended up in hospital once, which I am also pretty chuffed with!). Sorry I just wanted to share hope that is okay with everyone :)
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
My mum was super helpful in the planning which helped because of my usual navigation woes! I didn't have a serious notebook to plan it in and that was probably why :P
I do find a serious notebook makes all the difference between good planning and award-winning planning :P
Well done everyone on their fabulous achievements and successes. Hannah, I'm so pleased your trip went well and you definitely don't need to apologise for sharing it here!
Yesterday:
- the small humans in my classes were all very nice and made me smile. One child even brought chocolates for me as a birthday gift- who even does that???
- my tap class was good and my practice paid off as I was able to do the step which had completely baffled me last week.
It wasn't actually today (forgive me) but yesterday I came back from working at an American special needs Camp for 3 months, which was incredibly tough and exhausting and wasn't exactly well planned with lots of MH stuff going on, but I totally completed it without (major) disaster and still lived to tell the tale! (I also only ended up in hospital once, which I am also pretty chuffed with!). Sorry I just wanted to share hope that is okay with everyone :)
Well done, that is amazing and you should be so proud of yourself! I have been wondering how you're getting on, so I'm really pleased to hear that you got through it so well! :)
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
- I went to the art community despite anxieties, and enjoyed it.
- rewarded myself with first ever pumpkin spice latte (diabeetus).
- bought a pretty craft book from The Works.
- had some positive realisations.
- my dad is okay after hurting his back and I love him.
- talked honestly and openly with psych and benefited from it. They were super helpful, all of them.
- made sure I got food when I was overlooked because I was NBM most of the day and could easily have fasted all day - but didn't!
Today I bought new bed linen. My sister is staying over on Saturday, so I want my flat nice for her. I also bought a new cafetière since I spectacularly smashed my old one, so yay, yummy coffee for me!
- I went to a meet-up at a group I used to go to and found out that one of the girls is now pregnant and saw two others who I haven't seen in around 4 years when they were 14 or 15. Now they're grown ups and it was so strange but so nice to see them!
- I am snuggled up warm and cosy in bed
- I picked up my prescription and feel safe with them
- I bought my Jenna a nice dress from a charity shop. I hope she likes it!
- I managed to work the crutches in a way that makes me look less comical.
Enjoyed a lovely blackberry and raspberry cooler today from Costa with accompanying gingerbread.
Having a very loud, raucous, tuneless singalong while I have the house to myself.
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
- I wrote a 2000 word essay in a day and submitted it (Still not entirely sure how the hell I did it!)
- I managed to fill in my '10 things that make me happy' labels
- I made a check list to go by the door because my memory is rather questionable at the moment.
- I spoke to my module director for support when he asked me to instead hiding from him.
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
The cmht are referring me to a build-a-bike workshop. I went to the workshop for a visit and to meet the man who runs it. I was anxious, but I've agreed and if it goes well, it should start in around 6 weeks. The workshop is for people with mental health problems and it's only 4 people per class, but they do a few classes.
Some lovely charity shop finds that makes my shiny new room feel all cosy and homely and ME.
Having lovely Flatmates makes all the difference.
Comparing this time around with 6 years ago and finding l have so much more life and enthusiasm embarking on this. Having 'made it through' to the other side (saying that is scary as it cements and makes me worry l'll get overly enthusiastic and jinx myaelf. But hey ho, what's the use in living in fear of being too celebratory in case things go tits up? Might aswell enjoy it now before they do {might, not inevitable})
Acting on reminders to NOT berate myself and anytime that voice pops up & panic kicks in that l'm a horses hair away from fuxking up successfully naviagting away from it in a healthy way rather than shutting it up via bad harmful means.
Sorry for the length and rambleness, l only came in to write that first line!
'What came first, the phoenix or the flame?'
'I think the answer is that a circle has no beginning'
I'm out of bed at this time in the morning!!!! I cleaned out my now sparkling bathroom and getting ready to meet friends for coffee. Meeting sister afterwards and she's staying over.
I also did a lot of tidying up.
Just had a shower in my shiny bathroom.
I have a new black jumper to wear.
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