Pembe. Hugs. I'm sorry. That's hard. How long were you together?
Darkofday. I would like to encourage you to definitely tell your counsellor about her. She will probably have words that will help and make you feel safe. Maybe she can help you think clearly about the situation. I'm sorry you are struggling so much right now. This must be really hard. Don't give up. Keep reaching out. Hugs
I've been trying to suss things out, figuring how to go about telling her. But every time I do I end up getting shouted at for being so... everything. I wanted to show a drawing/written piece to someone I trust, but whenever I even think about it they start screaming again...
I don't know what to do, I just want this all to end, but I know part of me doesn't want to follow through the plan. But I don't know what else I can do without telling someone about it. And that's apparently what I'm not allowed to do.
Hope you're keeping well yourself, Mum24, and everyone else who's been having a hard time.
I'm so frightened and anxious and panicked. I've SI'd a lot today. It's going to get dark soon - I'm scared of being alone at the moment. I'm scared to go away from the computer because I might do something.
I'm sitting here, trying to hang on to 9pm and then I can take my pill and go to sleep. If I'm asleep, I can't do anything. It's 7.43pm here, so not too much longer to hold on.
dontwantyoutoknow: I'm sorry I've not got much words, but keep holding on, you can do it :) (Sorry if that sounded a bit cheesy) *hugs*
Mum24: I don't know, if I told someone then I'm pretty sure they'd have to tell my parents, and last time that happened everything went downhill. I don't even know if any of this is happening - maybe I'm so deranged that I've just started imagining these voices.
I also don't know who I'd give the note to. I have three amazing teachers who I can trust, but one of them only recently found out the most basic thing and the other two I think I've bothered more than enough...
I'm stuck for what to do, I'm scared of what I might do but I don't know how to ask for help :/
Mum24, it's really hard to answer that question lol. We've been friends since I was 13 and it was always on/off but I lost my virginity to him and everything so it was quite serious, even though we weren't exactly childhood sweethearts or anything.
three hundred and twenty four days of hospitalisation and i feel worse. fighting suicide since year seven (4 years ago). I think of suicide every day. i wish i'd done it at the very beginning, now i'm nothing but a failure.
they don't get it i wanna scream
i wanna breathe again
i wanna dream
Jess, you're not a failure. It's crap that the places that are supposed to help you do exactly the opposite but you've managed to fight, you're strong.
Unsafe. Unsafe. Unsafe. Unsafe. Unsafe. Unsafe. Unsafe. Just want it all to stop. I feel like crap and all that I hear is fighting downstairs. Its not my fault they fight no matter what they say. Im done with it all. I wanna be done. May I be done? Family life sucks and doesnt feel like family, school is going down the drain for the most part, pushed just about everybody away now, always on the down side, just finding people more and more irritating and annoying! I NEED... I dont know what I need except for everything to stop. Still unsafe. Unsafe. Wanna sh too! Just cant think. Wanna cry. Need to cry. Too much :( My head hurts. Im sorry.
These kicks take me far away my dear; Far away from myself Far away from my troubles
Far away from heaven
I hope that everyone is okay! I am not feeling ok, I really just want to end it, but I am still afraid, I just don't know what to do. I have no one to talk to, and I just don't know.
I just want you to know that you are special, and although I don't know you, I love you
Thankds MJ!
hate myself. hate my life.
feels like nobody really cares.
This is just a waste.
I waste too much time and space.
I write and post too much.
Im sorry.
Feel really really useless and worthless.
Feel like crying to.
These kicks take me far away my dear; Far away from myself Far away from my troubles
Far away from heaven
Libz, hugs! Thanks for asking about me. You are definitely not a waste of anything... You always make me feel good with your posts when you ask about me and care how I'm doing. Even when you are suffering you take the time. You are a special person. Not everyone is like that. It's something you have about you that you bring to the world that we would miss if you weren't here. And there's so much more about you too that's good and unique and special. I really hope you can come to believe that. I'm so sorry you are feeling really down. Sending you big hugs. Hoping things can improve soon. Wondering what you've been up to lately and what is in store for the weekend? Any good distractions? Hug
It's going to get dark soon - I'm scared of being alone at the moment. I'm scared to go away from the computer because I might do something.
