I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I might just give in. You win. Five months of struggling and I just might stop fighting EVERY aspect of you tonight.
I think, this time, it's goodbye for good.
I'm turning my back and I will never see you again.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
**** you. **** what you do to me. **** the bullying I got for self harming. **** them shame.
And, in fact, **** off.
Let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough and move on when things are not like before. There is someone out there who will love you even more,
surely then, you will know true love.
I replaced you with alcohol.
Then bulimia.
Then alcohol.
Then smoking.
Then I came back to you.
Now I've replaced you with food, smoking and drinking.
Just go away and take your replacements with you
We’ve got obsessions
I want to erase every nasty thought that bugs me every day of every week
We’ve got obsessions
You never tell me what it is that makes you strong and what it is that makes you weak.
why can't you **** off and leave me to get with my life?! Why do you have to rule my every thought, my every word, my every action, I don't want you, I hate you...
...but I need you, I'm afraid if i let go, the fall will kill me.
~~I'm FINE...on the outside~~
~~Beneath the surface lies a shattered heart and an exhausted soul, simply longing... just longing to be whole~~
I have just had an epiphany... the song Leave me alone (im lonely) by P!nk explain perfectly my relationship with self harm:
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Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
I love you so
Much more when you're not here
Watchin all the bad shows
Drinking all of my beer
I don't believe Adam and Eve
Spent every goddamn day together
If you give me some room there will be room enough for two
Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely tonight
I don't wanna wake up with another
But I don't wanna always wake up with you either
No you can't hop into my shower
All I ask for is one ****in' hour
You taste so sweet
But I can't eat the same thing every day
Cuttin off the phone
Leave me the **** alone
Tomorrow I'll be beggin' you to come home
Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely tonight
Go away
Come back
Go away
Come back
Why can't I just have it both ways
Go away
Come back
Go away
Come back
I wish you knew the difference
Go away
Come back
Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely tonight
(Tonight)
Go away, give me a chance to miss you
(Leave me alone I'm lonely, alone I'm lonely)
(I'm tired)
Go away, give me a chance to miss you
(Leave me alone I'm lonely, alone I'm lonely)
Say goodbye, it'll make me want to kiss you
(Tonight!)
Go away, give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye, it'll make me want to kiss you
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
Seriously? **** off. I can't handle you right now too. I just got a new job you ************. Are you really trying to get me fired? Why the **** are you so ******* tempting? And that new thing? It is going to get me killed you ****.
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
