The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

[Hollz]

ahhh ryt, i never know when our heating is on or not, the boiler confuses me, im just relieved i can get hot water working now, the heating comes on randomly but i dont think its on the now, got my blanket though

[x-dying-inside-x]

i've had my meds so imhoping im asleep soon, got a long day tomorrow!

[Left in the centre]

hollz becareful. they've talked about admiting you before so you know its on the cards if you need it. whilst they might think home treatment is better if its not helping you need to say so .

mari - double pairs of socks i think are needed.

daniella - hope you had a good day today sleep well.

rowie / grace - your sitting there planning that you can od on your meds. thats not sensible. you need to make sure you tell someone because an od isnt going to help anything.
please keep yourself safe.

me - ive had a good evening with friends back home , bit nervous because i dont have much planned tomorrow but will deal with that then.

[Tig]

Mari ~ I feel the cold really easily as well. I turned the heating off yesterday to test whether it would be warm enough, completely regret it! I'm on a storage heater as well so I have to wait a while now until it will heat again, oops.

Daniella - I love little ones! Hope you had a good day & hope you get some sleep.

Sarah - Glad you had a good evening with friends. Try not to worry too much about tomorrow. I'm sure you will find something to keep you occupied, even if you just set small goals.
x

[hellz]

hey guys sorry i havent posted in a while things have been really up and down of late. im not sure what happened but the other night i took far too many drugs and then had a 6 hour mental blank cant remember a thing that happened and came too really depressed and having total paranoia. i found about 20 sheets of ranting i must have wrote in that time havent quite been able to face reading it yet but i just cant figure out what happened. i really cant face going to the doctor, in fact i dont even realy want to leave the house but i've just run out of smoke and my thoughts are so mixed up that once the effects of not smoking have started to take effect i coud get really irrational and impulsive and thats when things start to get dangerous. but i dont know whether it would be best to get wasted which in the short term is the best sollution. or whether i should admit that im messed up and get help.

[Tig]

I think the best thing for you is to get help. From my outside view it sounds like you are struggling a lot and are in a very difficult place. By accepting help you have a chance to begin to feel better and not to rely on getting wasted or other self destructive behaviours. I know it's tempting to go with those things, they probably feel safe if you have used them as a coping mechanism for a long time but really they are incredibly dangerous. *Hugs*

[youngatheart]

Just popping in before i take little man to pre school. Sorry I havent been around, things havent been so good but wanted to let you all know im thinking of youxx

[jonikd]

Hugs Sam, hope all is OK
xx

[Tig]

*Hugs to all*

I've had a pretty bad night. Haven't managed to get any sleep yet which just makes everything feel a 100 x worse.

hugs chickwats made it bad night cud u maybe do something that will keep u calm and relaxed t help u sleep

[Tig]

I think I've just been a bit 'high' over the night so despite trying to sleep I couldn't, but now I've hit a 'low' again. My thoughts are quite strong which has made it difficult.
I've taken some PRN now though as the first lot didn't work but maybe this time it will and I'm just going to try and lie down, even if it's just to watch tv.

Hope you are ok x

gd idea chick
hugs
i will b soon x

[x-dying-inside-x]

morning everyone.
how are you all?
I'm meant to be going college but i feel so low.

y u feel low chick it might help c

[hellz]

i've just phoned my doctors and told them im not well and im suicidal and they told me no one could see me today, i just spent the last 3 hours to get the balls to phone them and im still at square one i dont know what else to do

[x-dying-inside-x]

You could go to the hospital hellz!

I don't know why i feel so low but i really wanna self harm aswell :(
I cant face college and people!

hugs hellz
cud u do some college work then it might distract u chick x

[x-dying-inside-x]

ive not got any here!
I might go out with my mum in an hour or so i'll see what she says!

ok chick aslong as ur safe chick

[x-dying-inside-x]

i really wanna hurt myself but i know i cant if you get what i mean.