hollz - i hope the home treatement went well.
and im glad you didnt do anything last night but you know the fact that you tried means your obviously still struggling a lot. and the fact that your not taking your meds as you should, your taking them how you want.. which isnt particaully right.
hope everyone else is ok . im back home with internet now so hopefully should be around a bit more
x
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
hi everyone.
how are you all?
I've got the baby today :) she is sooo cute i wanna keep her!
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
hi cheryl, mum has taken baby out for a little while to give me a break!
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Home Intervention team sent me to a/e, just because I had taken double my dose of night meds, which equated to more than someone should have ina day, as in on quite a high dose anyway. I am taking my meds normally, just had a days extra of those because I had passed out drunk last Sunday, know I probably shouldn't have but I wanted to sleep, as all I wanted to do was to harm in whatever way I could.
I'm back home now, they have made an appt for me to see a dr on pysch ward tomoz, different pysch to the one I see, randomly its the same one as David has mmmm, he was meant to be over tonight, I was meant to be cooking us dinner, but he changed his plans as I was in hospital, home now but he still aint coming up tonight, its his mums birthday dinner apparently.
I still feeling low, not really safe but I told the home intervention team I wouldn't do anything, and if I feel bad I have to phone someone.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
You know i'm always here for you anytime day or night hunny.
I'm glad you did get checked out it's better to be safe than sorry!
xxx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
I'm just going to take scarlett home so i'll be back in an hour or two!
xxx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Thanks, just sitting watching tv at the moment, trying to keep my mind occupied.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I know Mari, but if they don't want me to go inpatient, then how can I? They think I am better off with the home intervention team at the moment, I told them this morning about last night, how I was feeling and thats why I took a double dose of meds, coz as you said last night, go to bed and take your meds, so I did that and I told them, so I dunno... I have to go and see one of the HITTS pyschs tomorrow afternoon, who is meant to bew reviewing my meds and that.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Just wanted to say hi.
Lots going on...am trying to fight the urges to harm but theyre getting stronger and stronger so I know it will happen soon..and I feel like having stitches. I want that pain and the stinging sensation and the being cared for and the need to be in hospital....I want it all.
Ive started taking my new meds and the venlafaxine now comes in a different form to when I had it last and its something that I know i can od on and...well, I just need to but i have to wait until i have enough.
I know things arent right with me. I feel distant and dangerous xx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
i feel so jittery, im so sad that everyones struggling so very much lately, and i wish we could just all find that missing piece that we all so very much need :'(
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
