Messages.

[Catherine117]

I was at work today, chatting to one of the girls at the school, when she said, 'Do you reckon I'm tall for my age? I'm only seven y'see...'

In my mind, you're still so young, but you'd be her age now Al, you'd be in her year at school. Hell, you'd probably even be her friend, as you'd have gone to that school... Sometimes it seems like we've all moved on. But I haven't sweetheart. Last year was really hard for me, and I'm trying more not to get so upset about you, but think of the good things, as I did a lot of stuff last year that might've upset you to see baby sister. So i'm trying not to do those things any more.
I'm trying to make you proud Alice.

"I had a dream that you were with me, and it wasn't my fault..." - I know it wasn't my fault that you died Al. I felt guilty at the time, and for years afterwards, because I was so upset. But there was nothing I could've done to save you... I'm sorry, because I feel like as I'm you're older sister, I should have somehow been there to protect you, and that it should've been me instead. But I suppose I couldn't control nature. You're with God now.

I've decided that I believe in heaven Al. I know I've had my doubts in the past, but i've finally realised that I don't have to abide by all the Catholic laws in order to be entitled to a faith and my beliefs. I don't agree with the Catholic stance on homosexuality, or a lot of their other opinions, and for so long I felt that if I was gay, this meant I couldn't believe in God because I didn't belong in his heaven. But I reckon he'd be alright with me y'see. I'm not doing anything wrong. It's not wrong to fall in love with somebody, and that's all i'm doing. So after all these years, I've found my peace. I'm not sure exactly what happens when we die, where we go, what the rules are, but i'm pretty sure it's gonna be a judgment free place... The most important thing to me is that you'll be there, and we'll be together again.

I know people say that you're watching over us, and that you're there in my heart... but sometimes, it just isn't the same. Sometimes I wonder what it would've been like if you had been the 7 year old I was sitting talking to today... I can only imagine.

<3 Alice 31.10.02 - "God broke our hearts to prove to us, he only takes the best."

[All I'm Living For]

It's been almost 5 years.. It will be 5 years in a few days.. Oh god I miss you.. SO much... :'(

[IceBerg]

Ged. you were a wonderful man. well done.

Ross. i miss you. always.

[Rodolphus]

I hope that you're proud of me, both of you.
Uncle Martin, and Gad.
I think you both would be.
And that makes this whole sorry affair feel better.

[x-dying-inside-x]

I went to your grave in my break from college last week.
I hope you liked the flowers, mum done them for you.
I hope you heard me talking to you.
I can't believe how fast time is going, I know i always say when i come and vist you i won't cry but i just can't help it.
I know people im nuts because it was 7 years ago and i still cry but i guess it's just the way i am.
It was good to sit down next to your grave in the sun and just talk to you.
Did you like the little mirror with writing on that i left, I hope you do like it.
I was speaking to mum earlier and at xmas i'm going to get a best friend heart and i'm going to leave one half on your grave and i'm going to wear the other half and not take it off.
I do realy miss you Lucy words will never be able to express how much i hurt without you here.
I love you angel.
I'm going to go before a start crying.
I will try and get up to you this week in my break from college or friday morning before i go in.
shine bright angel.
xxxx

[shadowedsoul]

been thinking about you alot latley. i miss you so much, wish i had the chance to do all the stuff i wanted to do with you. damn i bet we would have had a blast fishing togther. damn it i would have loved that.

love you and miss you so much.

[Rhapsody]

I have a headache from crying. What on earth am I doing.

[lozza]

I am so sorry my babies, I have been struggling so bad I missed your anniversaries...

My baby girl jackie. How I miss you soooo much. Its been 5 months now since you left and you dont know how hard it is seeing axel and just wishing that he was you and I could cuddle you and sit outside with my best friend.

And Mr Martin, the passed month has been so hard. So much so that things right now are so out of control. I brought Lester some new play mates but we still miss you like crazy. I wish you were still here too.

I love you guys so much. You will forever be in my heart.

R.I.P babies xxxx

[lozza]

I miss you so much grandpa. Its been a whole 2 years now, I am sorry I havnt made you very proud.

I remember so well you always trying to force me to eat, I hated that. But now I can see it was cuz you cared so much about me and just wanted me to be ok.

I cannot stop remembering about your last day. We came to see you remember, it was so sad. You were always a fighter but your body just shut down in the end. You brain was very much switched on though as it willed your body to just get out of that hospital bed.

I miss you so much and not a day goes by that I dont think of you.

I love you grandpa. xxxx

[Keyboard Warrior]

I will never forget laughing & joking with you & us asking for countless hot chocolates from the nurses well into the early hours of the morning. I'm so sorry. You wanted to die & then you were starting to recover & then you left us. I don't even know what to say.

[x-dying-inside-x]

I'm missing you sooo much my friend.
Well you were more than a friend, you were my best friend.
You were the first person in a long time who i could trust.
You were there for me when my great nan died.
You were always on the end of the phone for a random chat about anything.
We used to speak on the phone for at least an hour a nite.
We used to get the bus to and from school together.
Then on day that was all gone.
I can't tell you how much that hurt, one day you were here and next gone.
The pain is unreal, you were 11 when you died.
I just feel you were robbed of life, i know if you had surivied you might not have been the same and in a way it is selfish to wish you were here if you were going to suffer, that it unfair.
I just hope you are in heaven smileing down on us.
I hope you hear me when i come and sit by your grave, i hope you like the flowers and gifts i leave on your grave for you.
I told you before at christmas i am going to buy a best friend locket and put one half on your grave and the other i will wear forever.
I miss you so much Lucy.
I'm going to see your mum soon, it's been a long time but it will be really good to see her.
I just think everyday i'm on earth is a day i'm closer to you and Chris.
I love you angel.
Sleep tight until i see you one day again.
xxxxxxxx

[Masquerada]

I really miss you Mum,
I wish you were here so badly.
I'm sorry.
I love you so so much..
and it's weird right, how I have so much I want to tell you, yet I can't find the words?
So yeah, just please come home. Wait, no. You're happy now, at peace. But I still miss you more than you could possibly know. So does Sarah, but she tries to hide it.. still, I know she needs her mum more than anyone else. I try to look after her as best I can, but I'm not good enough. Not as good as you. She was crying today, she barely ever does though. I kind of felt better that she at least wasn't in denial about it, but it broke my heart. She misses you so much. I told her how much you loved her, but it really wasn't my voice she needed to hear.
It's been over six months now, doesn't feel it. Feels like a lifetime and yesterday all at once. Worst day of my life.
And now I'm ****ed up, and I know you didn't like me swearing but I can't help it. I need you to keep me safe Mum. Somedays I wish I was up there with you too.
I'm so sorry. I should've seen it coming..
I still can't get over how you thought we could possibly be okay without you..
I love you so so much.
Sweet dreams<3

[StillBroken]

I just learned you had another daughter! I wish you were still around, I have so many questions. I can't ask the rest of our family, they're all still pretending she didn't exist and they don't know that I know. How could you do that? How can you all pretend she didn't exist, she got 30 something age.

I miss you, and I know grandpa is too. He's at the hospital again if you didn't know.

[Tenji]

Its getting closer. Closer to the day you were taken from us. I can no longer say 'this time last year' and talk about you when you were still here. All the 'firsts' will be gone. It'll be the start of leaving you behind. I hope you've understood over the past year how much that i don't want that to happen. how much i didnt want you to go. how much that i wanted you to carry on with us. I feel like im leavin you behind. i just want to stop time. or go back. this time last year was when you got ill. they fought so hard for you and the hospital still didnt help. If i could go back i would make everyone try even harder.
visit me in another dream tonight. please. i need to know if you're actually there

[JaffaCake.]

You haven't technically passed away but it will always feel like you've gone.

I miss you so much that sometimes it hurts. I honestly don't know how I've managed these past few years without you because when you were there it seemed so easy. You were everything to me and I would've done anything for you. You know that don't you?

Weekends were like heaven with you and everything that happened, happened for a reason. I never blamed you, I always stuck up for you. You were my best friend and I knew I couldn't live without you.

I always wonder if you ever think of me but you're happy now. You have someone to take care of you so you don't need me anymore, do you?
I really hope you do well, I do. I want you to know that eventually, all your dreams will come true.

I still love you. I'll never stop. As long as my heart still beats, there's a place for you. Right in the middle where you left it.

[Heaven Knows]

...I miss you.
It's been a while since I've allowed myself to think about you properly.
I'm sorry. I really am.
I just know that at the moment...if I let myself think about you...about how you're not here with me anymore...if I let myself remember what it was like when you were here...I'd never get through any of this.
I do miss you though.
More than anything in the world.
I wish you were here...I've never felt more alone than I do right now.
I'd give anything to have you back.

[makedamnsure]

The world has lost another great guy.

You were always so generous and funny and genuine.
I remember when we were kids and you'd chase us round.
RIP.

[Kuwairo]

Pilot error.
I can't get that out of my head.
You knew the move was risky, you'd never done it before.
What were you thinking?
You killed not just yourself, but your son too.
Pilot error.
Jesus Bruce, I thought you had a sensible head on your shoulders.
Pilot error. Pilot error. Pilot error.

[Laura2.0]

Please come back, I miss you.

[Flawed Design]

I'm so sorry Katelyn.
We shouldn't have been there.
If anything was supposed to happen, it should of happened to me.
You should of been the one to survive and get to live, you had so much potential you were going to do geat things. I'm just going to fail.
I miss you so much.
I'm so sorry.

RIP Katelyn.
You were way too young to have to be taken from this world.