I've done a fair bit of my take home test, it wasn't so bad after I started getting into it, that, and after doing the maths, I realised I only need to get 33% on it in order to average a 2:1 in the module overall, but if I want a first, I have to get 67% or something like that. I'm not aiming for a first because I just think it would be one push too far, so yeah, I'm just spewing out the work and not worrying if it is mediocre, since I have more important things to focus on, such as my module which is 100% examination assessed. I need to stop being melodramatic over uni work, I'm doing fine.
Random radio ___________This spiral
Static on tv ____________Has worn a groove so deep
Losing count of _________Can’t climb out
All the days and weeks ___Pathetic, painful need
it feels a little strange to have time to do things again. today i've been cleaning my room for the past FIVE hours. i'm chucking out most of my uni stuff.
If anyone wants something to do then I have a questionnaire that needs feedback and comments. It's about international student experience and to do it you'd need to pretend you were from overseas and go to a uni in the UK. It shouldn't take too long though. If you want to do it then clicky but I'll be closing it either later tonight or tomorrow morning.
im not sure if im doing my exams... dr said not to go as im not stable enough? pretty sure i cant just not turn up. student support woman not got back to me. its all a mess gah.
Couldn't concentrate in house. Walked to library. People talking there. They left. More people arrived and started chatting. So have given up on library, dragged a mountain of books the half hour walk back to my house and am now trying to get myself set up for more revision. Sigh. Getting to the point where the tiniest thing tips me into tears!
Monday's exam is the worst one though I think. The other 3 there's at least one topic I know enough about already to blag the exam question. Monday's exam all the topics I know about were involved in my extended essay so I can't do the question on them in the exam. So I'm having to completely learn three topics. I've actually decided to learn two topics well then another two enough to waffle my way through the exam question.
Can't wait till all this is over.
Spoons (sorry I can't remember your name), contact them first thing Monday morning. Might even be best to go in and talk to them so any questions etc can be dealt with straight away.
7th July 2007
Hope is the feeling you have, that the feeling you have isn't permanent. (Jean Kerr)
I'm reading through cue cards. Speaking aloud to try and make it all flow into some sort of sense rather than disjointed phrases. My housemates must think I'm mad - practising presentation last week, now this. Lol!
Have to keep making the rational part of me 'step outside' the panicking me and tell myself to calm down, there's no point panicking now. I feel like I'm talking to a child! Lol!
Back to gays and the class system. Joy. Actually, quite enjoyed reading about the gay movement. And I've finally learnt properly about the class system (as a final year social science student I should probably have looked into it earlier!) so it's all good. I just need to not panic and it'll be fine. Then after exam tomorrow I can start revising for Friday, then Monday, then Wednesday, then deadline Friday. But the end is in sight!
Good luck with work/assignments/sleeping/relaxing everyone.
7th July 2007
Hope is the feeling you have, that the feeling you have isn't permanent. (Jean Kerr)
Never left an exam in tears before. I've just failed, completely. All I want to do is get into bed and cry but I need to start revision for Friday's exam.
*sobs*
7th July 2007
Hope is the feeling you have, that the feeling you have isn't permanent. (Jean Kerr)
My first exam is on Wednesday. I got the take home test done ok in the end, I handed it at 9am, I think I may have been the first one there this morning, things are holding together (just). But then, it is always two steps forward one step back, looking back at the last year of uni, I have kinda thrown my free time down the drain, I've given up on most of the things I'd been doing outside of my course, and even that was sketchy at times, back in the autumn term I seriously thought I wouldn't get through this academic year, but my marks have come up and I'm hitting deadlines, just, I need to keep this up.
Random radio ___________This spiral
Static on tv ____________Has worn a groove so deep
Losing count of _________Can’t climb out
All the days and weeks ___Pathetic, painful need
I know what you mean about having wasted free time. I keep thinking of whole days I've spent doing absolutely nothing when I could (should) have been working. Or at least doing something other than sitting in bed smoking and watching rubbish.
Speaking of wasting time, I need to get on with some work. I need to learn 6 topics to make sure that I can answer 2 questions (there are 9 topics, 6 questions, can't do the same topic as my essay). 3 days. Then 2 days to revise for Monday. Then one full day to revise for Wednesday. Then one full day to finish my research write up. Gah!!!
7th July 2007
Hope is the feeling you have, that the feeling you have isn't permanent. (Jean Kerr)
Never left an exam in tears before. I've just failed, completely. All I want to do is get into bed and cry but I need to start revision for Friday's exam.
*sobs*
oh man :(
i hope you didn't do as bad as you think. you may surprise yourself. everybody always thinks they do terribley after exams.
I answered the 1st question alright I think. It was the one on the gay movement which interested me so I remembered the stuff. Then I did two questions on class. Badly. Wrote 5 pages on gays, 1 page on working class resistance, one page on comtemporary social class. Neither of the class ones were really essays - they were facts regurgitated onto the page, and not many facts to be honest.
I haven't even got back the essay mark for that unit so I don't know how badly I can afford to do in the exam. I need a good 2:1 to even be considered for the doctorate I want to do. I need to get 63% in everything I do to get 67 overall. Unless I do fantastically in another unit this unit could drag my grade down substantially. Sigh. I keep telling myself there's nothing I can do about it now.
Thankfully it's been a bit of a kick up the arse in terms of revising for my next exams. And I'm (once again! Lol!) acting as a bad example to my friends - they're all getting panicked that they haven't done enough revision now as well.
7th July 2007
Hope is the feeling you have, that the feeling you have isn't permanent. (Jean Kerr)
