stroopwafels... <3 I found a place I can get them here in the US, but it's not quite the same. It still made my week when I found 'em, though! I haven't heard of hagelslag, what's that?
I was pretty hesitant about the meds at first, but after trying to deal with depression on my own for nearly 5 months, I was ready to try anything that might make me feel better. I think they're starting to work - along with going to therapy every week. I'm still kinda skeptical, but I'm going to try and enjoy feeling okay while it lasts. :)
shygirleiana, I hope it works for you, really. When the MHT rang me they said they'd discuss going on antideps, but I'm not keen.
Thats my main worry, I have an MHT assessment on Tuesday. I was referred without being told about it and I'm angry (and terrified) :( also problems in the flat at uni.
Grrrr.
my candle burns at both ends
it will not last the night
but ah my foes
and oh my friends
it gives a lovely light!
Thanks, I hope it works too. I wasn't all that excited about 'em either - I was on antideps a few years ago and they didn't seem to do anything. When the depression came back, I resisted going back on them for quite a while, but I finally gave in and decided to give them a try.
I hope everything goes well with your assessment. I'd be angry if I was referred without being told too! And terrified...yeah. I was terrified when I went to see my doctor about my depression, and that was my choice! It all turne dout okay though, I hope it will for you too. *hugs*
Oh, and you can call me Eiana if you want - less to type =)
Eiana =) I'm just Grey.
Thanks.
I've resisted help for years. But then I messed up in Feb and various people have made me get help. Then the doc referred me. It's all terrifying, so thanks for reassuring me a little. They're coming to college cos I can't get to them. So that's slightly easier. I'll try a few things, but I'm also skint so don't know if I can afford (or want to try) meds. If I have to I will I guess.
How are you anyway?
my candle burns at both ends
it will not last the night
but ah my foes
and oh my friends
it gives a lovely light!
That's good that they can come to your college since you can't get to them. Even though it's scary, getting help is really worth it - something I have to keep reminding myself as well. As for being able to afford meds, I'm in the same boat there...no money. So I know that's rough. I'll be starting a seasonal job within the next month, but until then I've gotta dip into my college savings. Which is not very much as it is.
Anyway. I am...hm...well, I'm hanging in there. How about you?
i like the bouncy castle...safe place to sleep. no worrying. no feeling unsafe. protected in my little corner. away from them. away from them i can sleep. safe...just like with my wwc family. no one to hurt me. just good people who care. safe with them...safe in the bouncy castle.
*sings softly* eiana is safe...safe in the bouncy castle...
What's the wvc family? West Virginia Care family or something? lol Anyway getting help is all well and good but I'd protest if ppl would refer me without letting me know and all, that isn't a good start. Many free mental health care providers are very unclear and mix up appointments and all, perhaps they could do with a few meds themselves? lol
Anyway there's no way I'm gonna talk to a dr or therapist about anything, I've done so in the past and it hasn't helped me one bit, on the contrary it only made things worse and besides I'm doing well really. I was just wondering because nowadays it seems I'm the only one not taking any medication, lol.
What's the wvc family? West Virginia Care family or something? lol
Nah, WWC is Wisconsin Wilderness Campus - my college. Really small one year Bible college program - 30 students, 6 staff my year. So we got to be pretty close. It was my first time living away from my emotionally abusive (biological) family...it was amazing. Just such a safe, healthy environment. I really started to heal while I was there. Of course, then I graduated, and I've been back living at "home" for nearly 2 years now. Kinda undid most of the progress I made. Anyway, I like to call my WWC class my family, because they're more of a family to me than my biological one. I feel so safe when I'm with them. And happy. But safe is a huge thing to me, because I never really feel safe here at "home." It always amazes me how well I sleep when I go to visit any of them...I can just totally relax and let my guard down, because I feel so safe and protected. Sorry, I have a tendency to go on and on once I start talking about WWC.
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Sorry I went Eiana. I hope you're ok.
Aw, don't worry about it, Grey. *hugs* I'm ok. I was just kinda emotional last night - but that's good, because it means I'm starting to let my walls down a bit. I block my feelings a lot. I have to be strong and independent and I can't let myself be vulnerable. It's the way I've learned to deal with stuff at home. It's something I'm working on...like I wrote above, I made a lot of progress when I was away at college, but coming back home kinda undid it. So, I figured this would be a good place to start letting my walls down a bit. Safe in the bouncy castle, away from my family.
Agh, I really ramble when I write, don't I? Maybe I should just bounce instead.
I was just wondering because nowadays it seems I'm the only one not taking any medication, lol.
Maybe I should just bounce instead.