Thanks for clearing that up, sorry I can be oversensitive with things like that. Canneberge, no worries, it's not your fault and I'm sorry, I do hope you make friends on RYL, I also have problems with friendships, so I know where you're coming from. You're not alone here.
Thanks for clearing that up, sorry I can be oversensitive with things like that. Canneberge, no worries, it's not your fault and I'm sorry, I do hope you make friends on RYL, I also have problems with friendships, so I know where you're coming from. You're not alone here.
When I asked about colours I meant, I will not eat foods of a certain colour or touch things that are a certain colour. I have safe colours that I can touch or eat or whatever but there are some colours I will not go anywhere near.
I can't eat Smarties unless I count each colour and even then I can only eat the colours that are safe or that have an even number.
These are just some of my many issues with colours.
Only Distraction- I do the same thing. I have certain colors that are my lucky colors and then colors that I stay away from. I also do that with numbers. I don't like any odd number, except for one, 7. Sorry, I kind of rambled on there. But yes, I do the same thing with colors.
Thanks for clearing that up, sorry I can be oversensitive with things like that. Canneberge, no worries, it's not your fault and I'm sorry, I do hope you make friends on RYL, I also have problems with friendships, so I know where you're coming from. You're not alone here.
don't worry I wasn't about to flip out at you :P
I wanna be a Comquack-not that I like or even know what that is, but because I think it sounds like something I'd be good at!
Hi i was just wondering if im the only one too scared to get help?!I have to do so many checks to stop the bad things i fear happening, and i keep thinking that if i tell someone and try to get help then the bad things will happen.How do i convince myself to get help?OCD takes up so much of my time and i cant remember the last time i was able to relax n not worry about everything.Thanx for reading x
I understand what you mean sazzy, if you were able to ask for help you wouldn't be forced to change any of your compulsions. With time you would develop a good relationship with your therapist and would come to trust them if they asked you to challenge some of your compulsions. Taking the first step is hard but the thought of doing it is often worse. Good luck.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I spoke to someone who has OCD yesterday and on asking her if anyone can ever completely get over OCD she replied, 'the only way to stop doing all the things you do is to rationalise the irrational thoughts you have, consantly tell yourself that nothing bad is going to happen if you don't do whatever 'it' is. It's something you have to deal with inside you'.
i think i have OCD i seem to want to touch things over and over
am obsessed about the number 3
i think that am going to do dangerous things and i think about bad things are going to happen over and over
obsessed with buying post it notes and books
obsessed with being online all the time
I have a new psych who is really nice and is setting up some support for me. My anorexia had been really spiralling out of control and I think I was not far from being admitted to an EDU (the nearest one is a very long way away). I was eating pretty much nothing and exercising for hours and hours. I was obsessed with the numbers and calories and it all was very dangerous. Then at the weekend something just clicked and I've started eating again. Not in a normal way I have to admit, and I need a lot of psychological support to help me, but it's a massive step. It's made me realise a lot of things - one of the most important ones being that it IS possible to overcome things.
OCD wise it's been pretty constant in that it's the worst it's ever been. So much of my time is spent arranging and ordering and checking. But at the moment, as frustrating and horrible as it is, I'm just focusing on the fact that I can eat! It's amazing, it really is.
At my last family therapy session they were talking a lot about challenging my compulsions. It made me feel so anxious just thinking about it. Why don't they understand what terrible things would happen if I didn't keep up with everything?! I've had OCD my entire life and I can't imagine life without it. I have no idea how I would conquer it because it's always been there and part of my life.
Sorry for going on... I hope everyone is doing ok. Loves and hugs and support to everyone xxx
Banana89- I'm so glad to hear that you're eating again! That's a really big step. And it's good that you want to get help. Therapy will be hard at first, but you'll discover so much about yourself that you didn't know. I hope all goes well with that. As for the OCD, it is hard to picture life without it. Although, you can live with it, without it completely taking over your life. It just takes time. Positive thinking can do so much. Just believe that you can do it. (:
Thanks Chloe. I'm so proud of myself for eating, it's such a huge step. It has meant repercussions in terms of SH and stricter OCD but it's so worth it, I hadn't realised quite how much life the anorexia had sucked out of me. So far I'm only having family therapy, they're setting up proper therapy at the moment. It is going to be hard, you're right, especially with problems like OCD that I have had my whole life. I just can't imagine not spending so much time doing all my compulsions. And I dread to think what would happen if I didn't. Are you getting therapy for your OCD? xxx
*hugs* I know it's hard, but you can do it. Actually, I'm starting therapy for my OCD next week. It's true, though. It's hard to imagine life without it. So, we'll see how it goes. *crosses fingers*
I can't imagine what I will think about all the time! If I think about the amount of headspace that's constantly taken up with obsessive thoughts... I guess I might actually be able to pay full attention to things lol. Are you having CBT? Hope it goes well for you dear xx
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