Vanessa you need to grow up, you're a spolit little bitch. No one actually likes you, even your so called best friend bitches about you behind your back. The only reason anyone is nice to you because it's so much easier than putting put with your little bitch fits. I know you have problems at home, but so do I, so does anyone, and I don't go around treating my friends like something I picked off the bottom of my shoe.
You can be so nice sometimes, you can be the funniest most charming person in the room when you want to be, but this duel personality of yours just messes with my head. I want to help and I know you need to vent but you need to find another way of doing it because if you keep using your friends like this, when we all go to different unis in a few years time, not many of us are going to stay in touch.
I'm sorry for what i did to you,i thought we were the perfect couple.But i cheated and now i realise how much of a bitch i was.
You meant everything to me.Now you mean nothing.
I REALLY like this guy,i hope you find someone to look after you like i have.
The other night when you were wanting my advice and I said ultimately you have to decide for yourself i meant I hate him and I don't want you to get back with him. I noticed by your myspace that you are back together and in my opinion it's the wrong decision.
I love you, you're so fantastic and I know your fears, I KNOW them because I have the same. What if you met someone new and they didn't accept it when you admit to self-harming or admit to not being "normal" what the hell is normal anyway? You're such a beautiful, wonderful, insightful woman. You've been through a lot of **** and felt a lot of emotions which I wouldn't wish on anyone. But look at who you are, look how strong you are.
You shouldn't have gone back; he's a tosser really. He doesn't deserve you honey.
It’s not always that easy to distinguish the good guys from the bad guys,
Sinners can surprise you and the same is true for saints.
Why do we try to define people with simply good or simply evil?
Because no one wants to admit that compassion and cruelty can live side by side in one heart and that anyone is capable of anything.
I know it won't be happening any time soon. Today was a distraction from it all. What excuse is going to come next?
I believe you when you say you're ready and want to but why back out? I know you're scared about it and I know it's not the easiest thing to get into but please don't say we'll do this and back out. I can't handle that.
Please just be honest with me tomorrow and tell me it's not the time. Whatever you do please don't mess me around.
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I'm scared, alone well Claire's here so that's not really alone..ouch.
Nothing can stop this feeling flowing through me at the moment.
Like standing on the edge of a cliff on a cold, breezy winters night. Waiting for that final something that's going to push me off.
I don't know when it's going to get here or if it will at all.
Maybe you will notice and pull me back.
I need your help.
Please help me.
Please.
why did you do that i was a kid i had nowhere you were my mother you were my mom but now i dream only of hate and painfull scars you left on my heart when you threw me out no one thinks i care but everyday my heart grows and sweals with hatred for you you threw me out at 16 mother why introduce me to something that i could not escape why throw me at the abyss called depression *whew thanks *
I still hate you so very much, actually.. I hate you more than I ever have.
Although I don't talk with you anymore, your memory still fills my soul with hatred and pure bitterness.
I hope you burn.. slowly and painfully.
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus, but he talks like a gentleman, like you imagined when you were young.
I want you to know that i love you, and im sorry for what i've become. I know you'll find out eventually. you're my mum, theres no way you wont notice. if you dont notice. you're not necessarily a bad mum, but you'd think you'd notice this............
