I cut my arms and the top of my legs but when I first did it on my arms I only did a small area so it was easy to hide and as it got worse, the area I did it in got bigger without me meaning for it to. I just got used to doing it there, it bleeds better and it just feels better for some reason.
the first time i SI'd i cut my arm but it was passed off as a scratch as it wasnt deep!!
then for the next 5 years ive cut the top of my thigh to shreds, however i found it didnt bleed as much as i wanted! and it'd be when i was alone, with no chance of being disturbed, it was planned SI.
recently, the past year i went back to the top of my arms, as im back at home, its easier to cover if im disturbed, and also it feels better to me for some reason.
i sometimes look at the skin on my forearm and as its unscarred, it seems too pure and beautiful, and i have huge urges to destroy it, to see the blood on it! (feel really weird and embarrassed by this)
i still havent found anywhere that bleeds enough for me, but for some reason i cant bring myself to do my stomach.
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Tired of Trying
Yeah, im Smiling,
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"i sometimes look at the skin on my forearm and as its unscarred, it seems too pure and beautiful, and i have huge urges to destroy it, to see the blood on it! (feel really weird and embarrassed by this)"
I know exactly what you mean by that.
I used to cut my xtomach but I just didn't get the satisfaction I suppose you could call it, from it.
It just feels better...although I started on my thighs and stomach when people noticed, but then I carried on with cutting them and started on my arms again aswell...
and there she goes with her head in the clouds again, ignoring the drama and chasing her dreams. because to her, reality is a stranger.
Tbh, I think alot of us do it because you hear about other people doing it. In fact, my therapist said that alot of people would probably never have even tried self harming if they hadn't heard about it from somewhere else first (that was just about the only useful thing she ever said really)
Also, it's a completely different feeling (for me) than anywhere else on your body, and some people just prefer that feeling.
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I guess convenience
because when I started it was just my arms but now its here there and bloody everywhere so I don't know now I guess its just cause of familiarity
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You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.
I've cut my thighs since I left school because I'd absolutley DIE if anyone at work found out.
Before then, it was always my arms, which I prefer, but I can't risk my job.
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They say that promises sweeten the blow, But I don't need them, No, I don't need them...
for me it was just because it was easier.... like i could just roll my sleeve up but now i do it on my legs so it makes me think for a second longer... doesnt work normally but hey...
I know that I am in a bad place mentally wise when I cut my arms. I preffare my arms an such, but I think that I personally find it more self destuctive when destroy them. Arms are harer to hide an such which makes work difficult. Perhpas this is why it feels more destructive to me.
That's a really good question. Probably because they're the easiest place to get to – you only need to roll up a sleeve, it's easier than rolling up a pant leg or pulling off your shirt. I only did my arms in the very beginning before I realized it's way too hard to hide (I like wearing tee shirts and rolling up my sleeves :) ). Now I mostly just do my shoulders/torso and legs.
dunno why the arms... i wondered the same thing... To start with mine were all on my legs, - easier to hide.. untill i 'did' my wrists. Now both wrists um...have no normal skin, just scar tissue, and it kinda spread up a bit from there just cos of easy access... i've been in hospital the past few months, so i have to be quick about it. I can't go about my old ritual type thing. I've also tried my stomach, but it doesnt have many blood vessels near the surface.. for me now.. its where ever's easiest to get blood from.
I have only ever done it when I felt too weak to bother cutting anywhere else, and even then it was only light scratches, something that I could easily explain as a cat scratch.
When many people think of cutting they often think of only doing it on your arms, and that would be the typical place for most people to look for cuts or scars. I consider my cuts and scars to be something very personal, so I would rather not flaunt them, because I mostly wear short sleeved t-shirts.
I think that the first few times I did it was on my arms bc it was just the "typical" place to do so.. or the most obvious place cause I did it for a cry for help and also like everyone else said easier access. But then it turned into a habit instead attention-seeking and started to realise the obviousness of it and as i got older i was really concious of it, so i turned to my upper legs and if I was in a hurry on my shoulder, or places with creases in your skin like the inner bit of your arm or leg.. i guess i gave up bc I was self-conscious more than anything - but I still get urges and almost crave the feeling of it! hopefully those urges will disapear some day :/
Probaly coz with your arms they are right there and easier to get to. Al;so for me i guess this sounds kinda weird but i seem to get a better release when i do it there
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