When I took an OD a few months ago, my support worker at the time came round to the house unexpected to tell me about how her son had done the same and how she would be upset if it had worked with me even though she'd only known me a couple of months. She said as well that I could ring her if I ever felt like doing it again, even if it was stupid times in the morning and she'd come straight down to the house to talk to me and take my mind off it. I didn't even think that any of the support workers would actually ever say or do anything like that, especially since apparently one of them apparently said they're paid to work, not to care about us.
Also, I was having a bad night a few weeks ago and one of my best friends rang me and was trying to talk me out of it, telling me about how much she cares about me and how other people care about me. It's not something I believe at the best of times but she was the only person who bothered to ring me and check I was ok and listen to me ranting and crying down the phone at her. It's made me think twice every time I feel like that now because I don't want to upset her.
My ultimate best friend always tells me when I'm having a bad day that she doesn't want to live without me because I'm one of the few people that keeps her going. We've been through so much together and every time she says that, it makes me think of her and how I don't want to be the reason why she has to go through whatever else life has to throw at her on her own.
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