When the rare occassian occurs when I actually fall asleep as soon as I get into bed, it's more of a half sleep and I kind of keep waking up and when I do wake up it's like someone had made me jump and my whole body just jolts. It's horrible. Maybes it's somethine like this. Does anyone else get these? Or am I just extra freaky?
Sorry about this one it's quite boring really and not that creative. I had a small idea at 10pm and worked with it. I wish I got hom earlier on wednesday and had time so I can work on my 365 more. But Wednesday can be photo-fail day. :)
I'm actually so tired right now, my eyes are drooping and there is like a horror film on T.v, it's quite creepy really and I'm not one to be creeped out by things.
Thank you so much both of you. If you want any pointers or questions on photoshop, do not hesitate to ask. I don't know everything about it, but I'm fairly confident with it. And I'll help as much as I can. :)
I was kinda walking through the woods, and there is this tree that has fallen over that was in my way, it was such an effort to get past with my camera around me, my tripod and college bag, which was heavy! I was condemplating to go around, but I thought I would crimb over it. So I went with plan B. It was an effort. What a lame reason for a picture. I need a haircut?
But today, was okay, I've almost been in an emotionless state. I think I need a healthier realationship with food? I've not really allowed myself to be 'happy' today and small things really make me down. Urghh my depression is kicking in again. I wish I didn't have it. Meh.
I've also found out a few interesting fact, some better than others. I wish me and my very close friend could get alone more. She gets werid with me alot. But, maybe thats because she is my ex? Hmmm, I really can't stand smoking, I had to leave when we were in a group and this guy wanted a ciggarette. I think he was a little offended. :/
I use a tripod that can extend to 6ft tall. I then use a 10 second timer and run into place. It's amusing sometimes when I fail miserably. In this case I had to keep vaulting over the tree. (I almost fell on my face but I manage to save myself) ;)
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I know this is really heavily edditted but I quite like It I think. It's not great edditting but I tried. It's also quite creepy. This is kinda on the concept of me feeling stuck to where I am, looking for my roots and finding myself and creating who and what I want to be. Today has been better, I have food in my belly and lots of water so everything is great. What more could I ask for? I'm going with someones advice, Don't keep looking for the negative nothing will happen, keep my head up and it'll all turn out alright. Thats the plan anyway. I think my eyes stand out a little to much.
I'll probably have another play with it when I get more time. I actually took this yesterday but edditted it in the early hours. I know it's cheating a little bit but I have no time today. . College and all. Going to the beach tonight with a youth group! Woop woop. I may go for a swim. :D
Fun times ahead, sorry for this late update, my internet was working for 48 hours. -.-
This shot is kinda about the wrist band I wear all the time 'Purity' It means alot to me so I thought I'd share it with everyone. :) I have made mistakes in my past, who hasn't. . But a while ago, I decieded to not go out with lots of people like people my age do. (NOT everyone of course) But the place I live in, people find it weird that I'm not looking for anyone. In a way, I see it as I want it to be special with that one person and have something that i've never had with anyone else and with that person that really wows me. But i'm wierd, so ignore me. :) One more note, it is difficult. :)
Today was amazing, It was so so so fun. I saw my dad for like the 2nd time this year he took us to this massive lake and we took the canoe and 2 kayaks out. It was so much fun, and I didn't fall in the water so it's alll good. Gosh, being able to see my dad really does make me happy sometimes, and his wife didn't even make any arguments, it's amazing! We talked about the holiday we made as children he told us the day before to pack cause were going on a camping holiday up England to Scotland. It was the best holiday I have ever had! Even though I was young. I'd love to repeat it sometome.
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Today has been such a slow day, I don't know why it has just seemed to have lasted forever.. I felt like using my red ink today so I went for it in this over the top edit. I also actually have this bad habit of bitting my lips sometimes. Must stop doing that!
It's on the terms of rejection; my brother was bullied though out his school life, he was rejected by so many people beacuse he was different. His best friend at high school started to make fun of him to get popular. It was digusting. He is such a cool guy if people got to know him. All those people really hurt him emotionaly. He has next to 0 confidence in himself he looks to the floor if people talk to him, he jsut does it out of habit. I wish he could have my little confidence and I take his 0. So basicaly everyone (including me) needs to remember don't be so judgemental and pre judge people because they are different.
No one tell him I wrote all this. Okay? Thanks. :)
I may upload a self portrait I took today, If I decied if I like it or not, just got to look at them, I was mainly focusing on this picture today because I really love dragonflys there so pretty and look amazing.
This is the main one for this day, I'm very sure the title and above comment says it all. I've had so many friends break up with their partner, It's quite depressing really how none of them seem to last for more than a year. I've heard alot of times saying your the only one for me and I will wait for you. So this is my kind of version of that, I know it's bad. But, I tried. :)
I've been thinking alot recently, about my life. Mistakes. My parents splitting up all those years ago. Why my little brothers dad did what he did and whether I have forgiven him. My dads current wife who claims to have 'brought us up' though she played no part in my life. My mothers anxiety. But also, how It's all behind me and there is an amazing future to see and to see where it takes me and all possible fun I could have. :) So it's not all bad and depressing.
This Is kinda my love for the outside with my love for digital art combined. I quite like it, though I don't know. I have to apologise in advance. I'm unable to post a 365 on Saturday and Sunday. I'm at a big festival thing with obviously no internet connection. :( I'm very sorry. I'll make up all days missed at the end. Oh and also finished month one! My birthday next sunday, all I want for it is to go to Wales sometime during the holidays.
Here is random 10 facts about me. :)
1. I'm very lucky that my Grandad bought me my first ever camera last year, without it I could never afford such a thing.
2. I love my family although we fight alot. We like to annoy eachother. Siblings are fun. :D
3. My little brother Toby is Autistic, It's very challenging at times.
4. His Father put him in hospital when he was 6 months old. *rage*
5. I am in love with cheese cake, don't give me any if you want to share it.
6. I can eat an insane amount when I'm being competitive
7. I try to better myself alot
8. I'm addicted to Caramel Lattés from Starbucks.
9. I walk between 6-8 miles every week day.
10. I have a creepy imagination.
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