I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Ashlee, if you're telling the truth I'm really very sorry - but I have no idea, on top of anything else, why your sister would, on hearing that you'd been taken to hospital, immediately go on to your laptop, which I assume is your personal property, find RYL quite by chance, then find your thread, again quite by chance , and then proceed to lambast the members for something which is outside our control.
It's really upsetting me, this - RYL is a very supportive community and I just want you to appreciate that.
I left it all in the screen in my laptop
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Once again ignoring posts, Ashlee...
Glad he likes you. Why are you crying now then? Isn't this what you wanted? Wasn't this going to cure all of your probelms?
No problem not solved, we r not going out, its not worth it yet
I was crying cos I was getting **** at school
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
So what? You'd go to peices? Hurt yourself? Try to kill yourself?
Say you succeed that's it for you. Game over. Your threw your life away and the story is over for you. Even if you don't and your parents put you in hospital, people will still know. They'll still try and put the blame somewhere.
What about Sean? If you love him so much then why the **** would you do that? Take all this "pain" you've got inside and then shove it on to him? Yeah, brilliant way to show someone how much you love them.
Vi Veri Veniversum Vivus Vici.
By the power of truth, I, while living, have conquered the universe.
So what? You'd go to peices? Hurt yourself? Try to kill yourself?
Say you succeed that's it for you. Game over. Your threw your life away and the story is over for you. Even if you don't and your parents put you in hospital, people will still know. They'll still try and put the blame somewhere.
What about Sean? If you love him so much then why the **** would you do that? Take all this "pain" you've got inside and then shove it on to him? Yeah, brilliant way to show someone how much you love them.
I never said id kill myself, couldn't do that to him
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
You haven't ever mentioned a sister before.... You've mentioned an uncle who asked if you wanted some razor blades, you've mentioned a dad who has tried to kill you, and a mum who has committed suicide.
Why do you feel the need to lie Ashleigh? You said before that you don't know the reasons why you lie, but I think it's an important thing to look in too. Did you want us to feel guilty, create more posts, write messages to make you feel better about yourself....? There is a reason for everything, but sometimes we have to work to find it out - I think it's important for you to work at finding out why you lie because it is going to impact on your life if you carry on.
1) - Why do you feel that you need to lie?
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Also, there is less than 4 hours between 'sister' and 'you' posting.... I very much doubt that they would have triaged, seen you, set up the checks, monitored you and discharged you within that time.... Obviously adding on the travel time there and back - and the fact that you'd have to have come in and out of your house....? The drink would still be in your system too, so I think they'd monitor you for longer if it could be dangerous?
Also, why did your 'sister' say this was our fault?
2) - What did they ACTUALLY do at the hospital, was it A&E?
3) - Why was it so quick?
4) - Why did your sister say it was our fault?
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Originally Posted by Alone and Scared
We have really tried to support you - and I think you really do need to tell the truth because people were very understanding with your previous lies - if it happens over and over people aren't going to respond to that so well.
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Originally Posted by OXashleeXO
i dunno, shes gone again now, meybe its cuz some of you are being mean or she doesnt like what shes reading
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Originally Posted by Alone and Scared
Who's gone?.... What?
Like, I'm literally a hundred miles away from confused now and am slightly losing the will the live.
Do you know what, I daren't post a thread because I am SO scared I won't get any replies. I have had a CRAP day and everything is falling apart and yet I am STILL replying because believe it or not, I care about your wellbeing. HOW-FRICKING-EVER.... I do NOT have the tolerance levels required to try to work out your nonsensical rambling shiz right now.
5) - 'Who' has gone?
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Originally Posted by Alone and Scared
Yup, she can go to the Dr with you, you said you didn't have anyone to go with - but she knows, so she can go with you.
6) - Your sister can go to the Dr with you, yes?
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Ashless, i'm going to try my very best to put this as nicely as I can...
I feel so, so sorry for you and this obsession about a boy, i've said this god knows how many times now but you YOU need to get over this obsession you have with Sena.
YOUneed to take the first step to getting help, no one else can do it for you, only YOU.
I gave you a step by step guide on how to make a phone call to the doctors (without thanks, might I add)...PLEASE TAKE SOME ADVICE
Ashlee.
Your Dad kicked you out.
You struggle with school.
You're in your final year of school.
You have anorexia.
You have pica.
You self-harm.
You have a heart condition.
And your biggest issue is this boy? (I find that hard to believe)
Let me tell you, these problems wont go away if he gets in a relationship with you. In fact, they will be worse because you spent so long obsessing over him. Your relationship wont last forever, you are 15. Your life will not revolve around him. Soon you will have to decide what you want to do for college, and you will struggle immensely as you spent more time running after a boy and not studying.
You need to sort out your priorities.
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Reason: forgot one
Best thing.you could do?
Make a r&v thread and move there or make a diary because you sure aren't going to take any advice or help that's offered you.
Then you can obsess and talk about Sean as much as you like without people having to waste time trying to help you.
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
