Place for us Oldies *possible triggers of all kinds*

[Merc]

oh noes...i scared everyone away...

[Wannabfree]

Hi ROmp :) how r u?

[Stellata]

Hello. :)

[Scarletdreamer]

Hiya Romp!! *hugs*

I hate myself for being so low all of the time. Gonna post in my venting spot... :(

[Wannabfree]

hi everyone...im about to try an earlier night (its 10.30pm)..have felt like awful all day since taking the antidepressent - headache, nausea, sweating heaps and drinking so much water...is that normal? gosh i dont feel like taking it tomorrow. My Psychologist is away till wednesday but she rang today to see how i was going and she has arranged someone from the acute care team to phone me every 2 days... i thought that was nice of her and wasnt expecting that...im feeling very up and down so its a good thing...

how is everyone else??

[mikey]

Hello.

Romp, I remember you from a few years ago! You seem well
I like some of those bands too (Slipknot, some old Metallica, Pink Floyd).

[Scarletdreamer]

I feel like I'm going mad.

Plus, I have cramps.

Bad combinations for the start of a day. :-S

[Stellata]

(((April)))

And hi everyone else.

I seem to having trouble staying awake.
I seem to be utterly exhausted.

[Scarletdreamer]

*hugs Katie* How're you doing? I get the "utterly exhausted" feeling... that's how I am now. I just want to go to sleep and sleep away all of my troubles... but I am physically exhausted too. This semester is so rough... :(

*squishes Irene* "Gurning"? interesting word... hehe. Do you know why you are all in a frazzle/tizzy? Hopefully you feel a bit better now as it's later in the day...

I'm really anxious. And I really want to purge. Damn eating disorders!!!! :(

I need to do something to get my mind off of everything... too bad I'm on campus & can't play WoW, as I think that that would work. Maybe. It didn't work too well this morning when I "had" to SI, though... but maybe that's because that was planned?

*hides*

[Merc]

*waves back*
Sorry to disappear. This comp got infected and spent 4 hours on the phone with the tech guy and he fixed it. $80 and if it comes back, no charge...so YAY! Our main one in is a friends shop, is fixed now too ($118 tho...but he spent a few days on it, backed everything up for us, etc etc...should have been closer to $250, but his shop is next door to H's shop...so H does 'favors' with tools for him so we get good deals on comp stuff.)
Sooo nice to have a comp back *strokes*

How are you feeling now Irene? Over your flu/cold? (mine is still about!! From bloody September and 2 courses of antibiotics...it likes me lol) YAY for Jane coming by...I REALLY need to move...much too far away (

Hope the med settles soon for you Kerry. The side effects can be so draining. Get as much rest and 'you' time as youcan.

Kim(s), how are you (both) doing??

How do you feel now Katie?? How has work been lately? Are all the changes implemented now? Has it been difficult learning the new stuff?

April, you said you would like to let all your prof's know...why not? Ask to meet each one when convenient? I know it would be easier to do all at once, but any port, right? Can you increase your sessiions with your T or NP? Even to over the phone/email?
I know one day at a time can seem so overwhelming still..try to take it hour by hour, hell, minutes if that works better. It was mentioned about a treat at the end...how about ones at the end of each due date? Simple things; new CD/DVD, yummy bath oils, out for coffee or a walk? Etc?

Becci, how have you been?? And Matt..and, and....anyone I missed (sorry)

Ive been ok. The IP thing is ...I can go now (as in riught now basically) or march. I cant go now. may sound a dumb reason but is H's 40th...have lots planned for it..it IS a special one...and march Im meant to start !_@_! OP. Sooo...I think it will be ok. Ive been told I can go for a few days/weeks at my TC if needed...so thats good.
We are in such amess financially....my benefit is cut now that D turned 18 and isnt going on to college...wonderful. It was already 1/3 of what my paycheques were...now its even less.
I really need to work again....but...I have to agree with my docs/and H...I'm 'stable' because I'm off.
Could I handle it? Would I break again? I know it sounds so melodramatic, but I truly do not believe I would survive another breakdown...it got prett dangerouys....
So, what do I do???
Going to talk to a friend who has her own business, see how she would feel about me helping out some days, and be paid under the table....all I can think of....
Hmmm...been told I have a nice voice...maybe a 1-800 number??!! Then I dont even have to leave home!!! LOL!!

Missed you guys! Its lonely with no comp...how sad
xx

[Scarletdreamer]

Glad you're back, Romp. *hugs* Don't know you too well (yet!! :D) but have missed seeing you about. Sorry your comp got infected. That sucks.

Don't work if it's going to make you have another breakdown... I know what those are like and they ARE dangerous... so please try & take care of yourself the best you can. :)

I could ask to talk to my profs I suppose, but first I'd like to talk with my therapist and NP and see what they think. I don't think I could do another session with my therapist a week as I've not got the time and I don't think she does either. She's rubbish over the phone. Gahhhh!!!! I don't even know what to tell my professors... that I'm having a really rough time and don't know if I will be able to make it through the semester? how many details do I give? what do I do if they suggest I withdraw from their courses? So many questions that I'd rather not think about...

*hides some more*

[Merc]

I gjhuess ho wmuch to sdiclose is how youfeel it ewould be received? Is there one you feel closer/safer to?
Your couns or? could maybne help with a hletter? You could then decide how much you wanted revealed?

[Scarletdreamer]

I'm most comfortable with the prof that's my advisor & also senior sem instructor. But he's awfully busy as he's the head of the department, has meetings and deadlines and all, I dunno. I'm just dragging my heels because I don't want to be a "problem student" for anyone. :(

I'm sure that my NP/therapist could come up with a letter of some sort about my condition, but at the same time, they both are so elated at how close I am to being done... I don't know if they'd be willing to do that for me. Probably. I don't know. I don't even know what they'd say.

[Wannabfree]

hi guys :)

just popping in to see how everyone is.

I feel like crap with these meds. Im not sure if i can handle taking them anymore..i feel more stressed and sick taking them then when i dont take anything

[Merc]

do yuo minmd asying what it is you have steted?
have you spoken to whoever prescriberd? SDid they discuss SE's wi thouy?

[Wannabfree]

Yes i have discussed the side effects...the drug is called lexapro

I cant seem function on it and the side effects dont appear to be getting any less...my husband is telling me to stop taking them cause im not able to do much and he is rather annoyed..but i have been told it will get better...ive never taken these types of drugs before so im not sure

[mikey]

Hellllo a ll.
Wwannabefree, i thnk you eneed to talk to the doctor whoh prescribeed thse meds before you decid e to comne off the m yourself, let htem know hwat's going on. some side-fefects are normal but bbbes tto let someone know.

I'm drunk. Really pissed aas a fart . tomorrmwo i will pay for this, heh. don't care.

[Stellata]

I'll catch up here later. Right now I have a long sleeved thermal vest and plenty of woolies on ready for work!

[Merc]

sorry your friend was upset, but you know best what youyare up to. Hope you ca ,eet up soon.
I wouldn't mid doing some 'backyard mechanics. I enjoy it...so anothe avenue to consider. Im sure our landlord would eb fine with it; at one point we had 3 skid steers (bobcats), a mini ex, our trailer, a friends car, another friends monster 4x4, plus anothe rfriends van (we have a larger lot/driveway.)
I miss the old house when we have machines here; iot was completely paved and was great for 'playing' with various equipmrnt. H taight me how to run them all and D..she loved it! Best way to get rid of blackberry bushes; attach the thumb buckey, 'grab' hold and swing and yank.
Considering asking his boss for part time grunt work...but i need off the books..and that isnt a good situation to put someone in...

was hoping wth what i had taken, I ouewl sleep all night...niope..is 4 am...grrr...

anyways, hope you can stay warm Katie.
Kerry, mayber call your doc ansd see what he/she says? I can be awful for th eifrst few days tho...hopefully yoy can wait it out.

How is everyone else???

[Merc]

These ones work quite well...but i shut off for the day at around 4:30..and slept near theru till 4AM..so i cant realyy cmplain. But i had hope to sleep till this afternoon. Maybe in abit, illg o back, a bit fuzzy headed.
Do you take Vit C, irene? All of us have found it helps so vcery mcu.
I still have my cough/heavy chest from near the end of september. Did two courses of AB...and its back. Was pneumonia, seemed to go after second round of AB's...now i creeping back.
But to be honest, H and I ususaly het bronchitris around November-ish and it hangs on till march...so guess is just that....
Least the nasty cough hasnt started again (yet)..god does that kill the stomach and throat. makes keeping meald down quite a challenge too..sorry TMI, me things.
Have you been to the doc? Any herbal stuff that helps you?
Just lots of rest adn lovely soup
*fluffs your pillows and sends soup*
xx

Have thought of calling to see if I can work any paid hours...but because of type of benefit, i don tit. And im a little worried if i do, they may question my need for benefits etc...not sure..maybe they have a ewbsite to explain it...will have to look.

Oh and sorry for typing, sint same prob sa last night, H is asleep on couch and trying to ty[pe by candle light ;lol