Yes they would. If I knew you were gone, I would miss you. I'm so sad that you are feelin so lonely and in pain. Want to share some more? Hugs. Are you safe?
Hey Jen... Just to let you know i'm thinking of you and you're not alone. I don't believe we've spoken but i know Jenna certainly does not think you're a failure? Please don't give up...
Kia, <3
And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears. And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears...
Being paranoid, si, him, ocd, school, family, life in general... feels like too much! Not tired, exhausted from everything, not tired though. I was doing pretty good the last three days, not feeling suicidal I mean and then it comes back to this!
I wanna be done! Nothing is getiing better and starting to hate when people say it takes time. How much time is time?
I dont know what to do? Sometimes I think I just make this up and all the other problems! Cant be real, none of it can! Hate it soo much. Have to be making up, no other reason or explanation! I wanna give up.
What if I do do something? I dont wanna! Cant do it! Not yet, not ever. Wanna say I wont but am becoming unsure. Nothing seems right because it isnt. Dont wanna do anything to hurt others. Dont want to or like hurting others. Kind of wanna get through this and over it, but nothings going in the right direction. I dont know what to do! When is too laye too late? Dont wanna think about that.
(sorry about the rambling)
These kicks take me far away my dear; Far away from myself Far away from my troubles
Far away from heaven
I'm a waste of human tissue. No friends, life, meaning to my existence. And yes I know it would hurt my daughter but she hurts seeing me like this so its get it all out the way. The only people to miss me would be work cos of the disruption it would cause getting someone to cover me!
SERENITY is my RYL mum.
SOLO is my RYL auntie.
SEFKA is my RYL daughter.
DAYS GONE BYE is my RYL sister.
JEFFERSON.MERIWETHER is my RYL son.
OLINESS is my RYL son.
Tifflehan.... It wouldn't just hurt your daughter, it would kill her. I've had to face this too. I have 4 kids and went through hell with depression. Please don't do this. There is hope. If you are on meds, there are other meds. If you aren't seeing a doctor, please do so. Please hold on and do not give up. You have to live if not for your sake for hers. Though I think you deserve to live for YOU. Hugs. I know how much pain it is believe me. But it can change. It really can. Hugs
Snickers... People would notice. :( how are you doing now?
Libz... Keep fighting. Hugs. I'm sorry things are so hard. Please don't give up. Ive been there. It sucks. Can you turn to a counsellor or anyone for help?
SERENITY is my RYL mum.
SOLO is my RYL auntie.
SEFKA is my RYL daughter.
DAYS GONE BYE is my RYL sister.
JEFFERSON.MERIWETHER is my RYL son.
OLINESS is my RYL son.
mum24 ... I'm about to fail a course. No matter how well I do on my exam in an hour, I fail the course. I feel terrible. The worst part is that I may get kicked out of school because my marks are so low due to me not being able to focus because I found out I'm bipolar recently.. my mind honestly keeps thinking that if I get kicked out of school it's all over and I should just end my life.
Snickers, I'm so sorry you are going through this. School pressures are awful aren't they? I'm with you there. I can't wait to be done. Okay, about the exam, I hope you were able to get through it. It doesn't matter the outcome. What matters is what comes next. For you. At my school there is an office called disability services or something like that and because I've been diagnosed with depression/bipolar I got academic accommodations. That means There are all sorts of helps that I am entitled to... Extra time on tests, a student who takes notes for me in class, an more. You need to look into this. Also it may make a difference in terms of how they view your academic standing and whether you get kicked out or not. They need to know what you're dealing with. Please don't think you are worthless and should kill yourself. I am in your shoes. We are Not worthless. You are precious and this is a difficult and painful time but we can get through this. Please don't give up.
.gif "rose")
