Thats okay Carrie, you stay safe too and enjoy your dvds, will text you in the morn (((hugs))) xxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
honestly i am watching the oscars and after so many blood adverts, i could really go a bottle of moet chandon mmmmm anyone wanna share...
I'm sad I do know.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
HaHa Hollz.. not sad hon! I could go a bottle of Moet right now )
managed to stay relatively safe last night - just cut a bit, but really it's nothing.
been printing out maps for my master plan
not so drugged up this morning so I can see things more clearly
got cpn coming at 2pm with crisis team to talk about what happens next.
think will just be a case of more crisis team
doubt it'll be mergency docs appt as they are all so bloody busy and as am a lost cause is not much point.
take care chicks.
im worried that with soo many big events such as glasto my mums weddin my 21st im not gonna cope i want them all to be perfect im not sure if im gonna b safe enough im really trying but this isnt making much sense. sorry hope ur all ok
Im really worried. I ended up in a and e last night with some cuts, the doctor i saw was lovely. But he asked me if i had anything on me like blades..i didnt but i told him i had my pills, the ones i saved ( i keep them with me). he asked me to show him which i did and then he went away. I had to see a member of the crisis team......she said she has a duty of care to me and that she will be telling my doctor about the pills...i begged her not to tell. If he finds out he will def stop seeing me.
Ive started to take my iron( have been taking them for a week now) and my meds again but i feel its too late. Im such a fool and i can see that now, but thats only because i have my sensible head on and that never lasts for long.
Im supposed to be seeing my doctor on thursday which would have given the crisis team plenty of time to contact him....so i may just cancel that appointment rather than facing him.
The only thing you can do is to take them as prescribed between now and then so that you are showing willing to take responsibility for your health.
I've just failed - called the people who arranged my work placement and said I want to do just 10-12 on Thurs instead of 10-2 as I just can't see myself being able to manage 4 hours straight off. I could tell that the Right2Work advisor was really disappointed. He must think I am a fraud, faking it.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
You havent failed carrie, you have taken control of a situation which was stressful for you....
4 hours is a long time hun and i think gradually building up your hours is a sensible thing to do xx
Thanks Rowie, even 2 hours seems alot. Next week I am supposed to do Thurs & Fri 10-2 but maybe I can cut one of those down to 2 hours aswell. I want to be able to cope with these things like a normal person.
I called my SW this morning when I was really struggling and she actually called me back. I think it was helpful and I am seeing her again on Wed. I did the right thing, didn't I? She wants me to flush the tablets but I need them to be there.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Not long up, pretty low today, thought my cpn might of phoned me considering both the crisis team and dutty pysch said they would be informing her of events over the weekend, or maybe she thinks as I have an appt at 9am tomoz that will be sufficient, crisis team said they would phone as well and nobody has as yet
carri facebook status - I have never felt so let down
I wasn't honest with her to protect her, wasnt honest with my mum as I was too ashamed to admit she didnt want to live with me, so well its all out now and just makes me look like a stupid liar, ugh I love her so much and I hate myself
Soz x
Carrie - 2 hours is still a big acheivement and you can always work up till longer, you just got to do whats right for you xxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I've been hoarding pills too, many of them though I don't think I would be able to swallow, but there is a comfort in them being there, but I bought more in asda last night that I could take, and they are sitting in the kitchen :S
I need food but all I seem to wanna is eat is calorific take away mmm
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
thing is, i my body wont allow me to take otc type pills, so i hoard my meds as i can easily take those. I know i shouldnt do it but its the only way i can get a stock pile for my just in case moments
Im not going to do it anymore as i really need to keep my doctor
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