It's late at night the worlds asleep
And I'm trying not to think
I take some pills cuz my mind bleeds
I'm thinking what is wrong with me
Because the only thing i know
About honesty
Is every lie i told
That you believed
I'm afraid, To be alone
I'm afraid, That one day you'll find out
And you'll be amazed
At the secrets i keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards
I told another lie today
And i got through this day no one saw through my games
I know the right words to say like 'i don't feel well'
or 'i ate before i come'
then someone tell me how good i look
and for a moment , for a moment i am happy..
but when i'm alone
no one hears me cry
A little angel fell into my arms at the 7th of december 2010
back when
we used to talk about anything
now it seems you're not listening
when the nights are colder than usual
and summer time is just no the same
what happened to the love back when
[center]" I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside."
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to waste Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below When you're too in love to let it go But if you never try, you'll never know Just what you're worth
I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go
Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you
If you don't expect too much from me
You might not be let down
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Do you remember me
Lost for so long?
Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me
I'm dying praying bleeding and screaming Am i too lost to be saved
Am i too lost?
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All my efforts to clean me
Leave me putrid and filthy And how can you look at me
When I can't stand myself
I'm tired to be honest
I'm nobody
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end There's no place to go You know I won't give in
No I won't give in
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
So far away
I wish you were here Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah
Hear me when I say, when I say I believe Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
maybe today, you could put the past away
i wish you would step out from that ledge my friend
you could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
and if you do not want to see me again
i would understand
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
Suffering from something we're not sure of
In a world there is no cure for
These lives we live test negative for happiness
Flat line, no pulse, but eyes open
Single file like soldiers on a mission
If there's no war outside our heads
Why are we losing?
I don't ask for much
The truth betold I'd settle
For a life less frightening, a life less frightening
I don't ask for much
The truth betold I'd settle
For a life less frightening, a life less frightening
Hang me out to dry I'm soaking
With the sins of knowing
What's gone wrong but doing nothing I still run
Time again I have found myself stuttering
Foundations pulled out from under me
This breath is wasted on them all
Will someone answer me?
I don't ask for much
The truth betold I'd settle
For a life less frightening, a life less frightening
I don't ask for much
The truth betold i'd settle
For a life less frightening, a life less frightening
Is there a God tonight?
Up in the sky or is it empty just like me (Just like me)
A place where we can hide out from the night
Where you are all I see (Where you are all I see)
So blow a kiss goodbye, close your eyes
Tell me what you see (Tell me what you see)
A life that's set inside this dream of mine
Where you are all I see
I don't ask for much
The truth betold I'd settle
For a life less frightening, a life less frightening
I don't ask for much
The truth betold I'd settle
For a life less frightening, a life less frightening
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
Location: second star to the right and straight on til morning (USA)
I am currently:
I don't know how to fight
but I'll draw blood tonight
if somebody tries hurting you
...she stands hard as a stone, in a world she can't rise above...concrete angel
Laura is my big sister~Abbey's my sister~Miste's my fishbowl~Chrissy's my mummy~Daisy is my twin sister~Katy is my purple heart-shaped smiley face
~Zeddy's my invisible protector~Ruth's my auntie~Ollie's my little brother~Kate's my guitar lullaby~Caz is my box of hugs~Kate & Chloe are my sisters
I built my life like my bike on a rigid frame
So nothing bends it only breaks into pieces and pieces
I waited for hope to arrive but it never came Leaving me with only pain inside
I'm going off the deep end
[Chorus:] Holding on is harder than it seems
When you're reaching for so much more Seems so much easier to just give in
When you're reaching for so much more
Another wasted Saturday so here I stay
Where nothing seems to ever change anyway hey
All this hype about life bein' great Where's the love for me these days
I'm goin off the deep end
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
