That reminds me I need to go get my flat tyre fixed, got the spare on atm and my dads cracking up, as its his car I am driving at the moment (until he buys me my new car) - so heis moaning about me driving with spare wheel but its only been a few days, and I did forget the other day, or more to the point didn't get up...
Might not have time tomoz, might not even leave the flat tomoz mmmm
My CPN should be back at work tomoz, I wanna talk to her and see her, but dont know if I will be able to see her this week, guess it just depends if she has any time free, will deffo need to phone her tomoz, but I got a feeling she might phone me, providing she is back at work after being sick, coz the crisis team told me they were going to leave a message with cpn after I phoned them and left a message, and the hosp pysch also phoner her to leave a message, so...yeh...I do want to talk to her though.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I hope so too,it really unsettled me last week when I went for my appointment and she wasn't there, still this is a new week, yes, so I hope she will be there tomoz deffo.
Good luck with your hospital appointment x
ETA....I think I am coming down with the cold. I started sneezing earlier and I thought it was just my dust allergies, as I had been in some of my boxes and putting some books away, but it hasnt relented at all, my nose is now red raw and will not stop running ahhhh, its so fukkin sore.....
I know, I know - shut up Holly, do your work..........
Last edited by Hollz : 01-03-2010 at 01:00 AM.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
morning everyone, its strange i've woken up in a brilliant mood, i think it might be because its my day off so im going into town to get a few bits and bobs. also i managed to beat my urges last night. mainly because one of the foundation dogs slept in my cabin last night and i couldnt cut in front of a dog it wouldnt be fair on her (does that sound really strange?) but either way i didnt cut so im happy with that. its also a lovely sunny day so i think that always helps this place looks so beautiful when the sun is shining we are surronded by mountains and amazing 'african' scenery.
sorry if this post is a bit self centered but i dont usually feel this way.
how is everyone today? hope the studying goes well hollz and good luck with your essay.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
I know I planned to get up for 8, but 10.30 is just going to need to suffice, its still way better than my usual 12 hours in bed, sooo on with it I go...
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
ugh jobcenter, well they are passing me on to the dissability advisor, but i nearly had a fit when the guy was like "oh we want to get you off jobseekers and dla, reduce your payments til you come off it" **** that, no way in hell am i comming off dla, if i dont have dla i cant afford uni, simple as (of course i aint said about uni to them, and i cant). The problem is they are just thinking about the money rather than why i actuly get it or need it.
Anyway i need to phone and see if my laptops ready and book accom, im not looking forward to the latter.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
I am playing mind games with myself. I have finished my notes, just need to do an essay plan, before I start and then write essay.
Just phoned BT to take out line rental, and phoned sky to try and get my broadband working, but I need to wait until the telephone line is active, so realistically, it could be another 2 weeks before I have working broadband. I mean atm I am using my mobile to connect to the net, mobile is plugged into the laptop, but it basically equates to a dial up connection, its okay looking at sites, but you cant watch any videos or that, as it is too slow for such things....
Just now I am going to get dressed, go out to my car as my printer is in there, come in and set it up, print off all these damn notes that I have typed, and then try and work out what I am going to write about, have about 11 hours to do this.
Problem I have though is I will write essay, leave references, bibliography and correct format to submit essays till last, I think write the essay and leave myself a few hours to tidy it up.....
Okay, on I go...
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Do the DLA peeps not reassess it? I thought it was separate from other benefits Mari.
Well, I went and it seemed it didn't matter as they would take me on regardless. My first day is a week on Thurs 10-2 and I am dreading it. Apparently the things she thought that I could get involved with are quite boring but what if I'm not capable?
Hollz, stop coming on ryl and go and do your essay :P
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Okay, printer installed, 10 pages of notes I have typed for this essay printed, aim to start writing essay by 2pm, but I need to do a plan before I start, so it reads okay...
I know its only 1000 words and I only need 40% to pass, but wanna do my best obviously and this essay is only worth 4% of the course....
Carrie - I am sure you will do great, remember its a day at a time, or an hour at a time, whatever helps you best, but it will be a good distraction and hopefully will give you a bit of confidence back.
Cheryl/ Rowie - hope you both doing okays today xxxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
well done carrie, i agree with hollz, im sure you will do great,
well done on starting hollz,
hope they sort your money out mari,
well im about to go out for another annoying benefits app :/ such joy, still havent thought of a significant object to take to group tomorrow, i just dont place significance in objects like that esp at the moment.
done 11 squares of my blanket for my friends baby, the colours are so cool, anyway love to all x
hi everyone.
how are you?
I'm home doing coursework but i just can't think and don't have a clue where to start with it, it's sooo stressful and it's due in wednesday!
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Yeah the Dla is compltely seperate so i dont know what the guy was on about, he cant acess my situation and i got awarded Dla for 3 years (still 2 years and a few months left) so im not exactly going to turn around ad say i dont need it anymore. Il see what the disibillity advisor has to say then decide if i want to switch over to that. I get the whole idea of stoping benifits and going itno work, but the way he sounded was about reducing my jobseekers and dla.
But i finally have my laptop back, although they could have cleaned it rather than leaving bits all over my screen, but at least thats done now. It feels nice just to lay on my bed with the laptop. But i cant waste the rest of the day i need to do pro tools stuff soon.
I still need to call up and book but i just cant do it, i just cant call.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
I'm glad you have your laptop hunny, i remember when mine broke i felt lost without it.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
