I've got an appointment with a different Pysch on the 27th. Will find out if I do have BPD, or if its C-PTSD or something else. Will hopefully be able to stick with this Pysch, I don't get on with mine. Can't trust someone who doesn't believe that alcoholism, overeating or compulsive skin picking are pyschologica problems.
Its all or nothing
And nothings all I ever get
Every time I turn it on
I burn it up and burn it out
Just because I haven't seen him since March and a lot has changed, I'm scared I will forget everything I want to say or he won't give me chance to explain everything fully... I'm not assertive at the best of times, especially with someone that scares me as much as he does! Plus part of the reason I'm seeing him is they want to change my medication and I've had some pretty bad reactions to certain meds in the past, I'm so wobbly at the moment I can't risk something that makes me even a little bit worse, it will just push me right over the edge =/
"You might say its self-inflicted but you see that's contradictive - why on earth would anyone practice self destruction?"
Thanks, it didn't go too badly. Had to go on my own at the last minute though so freaking out before I got there! As I expected really - I've been having hallucinations which are getting worse so they're trying me on anti-psychotics and they're trying to push me up the waiting list for psychotherapy at the hospital... They've decided I'm "serious enough" a case to bother doing that with, why is it they hardly ever do anything til you're about to jump off the edge?!
"You might say its self-inflicted but you see that's contradictive - why on earth would anyone practice self destruction?"
Psychotherapy is an important part of managing/recovering from the 'worst' of borderline symptoms. It's frustrating they see things kind of back to front, but at least you've moved up the list now, and are on meds to ease things..
Yup I hope so, I'm always scared of new meds esp new types I've only been on anti-depressants and mood stabilisers before and have had some pretty nasty reactions... I can't even remember the name of the anti-psychotic to look it up (my GP is going to give me the prescription once I'm off my current meds in a few weeks)..
"You might say its self-inflicted but you see that's contradictive - why on earth would anyone practice self destruction?"
i was just diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, well they told me i don't meet the full criteria, but im closest to the borderline PD, thats why they diagnosed me with this. but i don't understand. if i don't meet the full criteria, then why did they diagnose me with that? but they haven't asked me questions about it, you know, to see if i have it, they just assumed from a general personality test i did with 500 questions. how can they be sure about it?? they didn't check all my answers.
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i think i've understood this whole thing wrong... my doc said BPD means you have problems talking about feelings.. i thought it was about self harm and relationships and stuff?
~~I'm FINE...on the outside~~
~~Beneath the surface lies a shattered heart and an exhausted soul, simply longing... just longing to be whole~~
I understand BPD to involve a whole variety of problems, like you said Ems, such as relationship difficulties. Also, things like our ability to regulate our own emotions, seeing things in black/white terms & using self-destructive behaviours to cope with things. BPD I think does make it hard to talk about feelings. Perhaps your Doctor doesn't understand it properly rather than it being you? I think what you said sounds quite familiar!
Irene, I don't meet the full criteria either so I can relate to your frustration. Try not to worry too much about the diagnosis, it's mostly for their benefit so they know how best to treat you. xx
i was diagnosed with it formally a couple pf months ago, although i have found out i was diagnosed at 15 with it and no-one told me.
I read the link in the first post about treatment and it has made me so freaking angry, mostly because i have been through all those therapies etc and nothing worked.
Also, in my area, the mental health proffessionals really do not know how to deal with BPD, do not recognise it as a mental illness and do not offer ANY support with it.
"Has anyone seen my contact lens? It may be stuckto a tree or a rock or something. Oh boy, I am so grounded" Family Guy
if everyone cared and nobody cried, if everyone loved and nobody lied, if everyone shared and swallowed their pride, we'd see the day that nobody died
i was diagnosed with it formally a couple pf months ago, although i have found out i was diagnosed at 15 with it and no-one told me.
I read the link in the first post about treatment and it has made me so freaking angry, mostly because i have been through all those therapies etc and nothing worked.
Also, in my area, the mental health proffessionals really do not know how to deal with BPD, do not recognise it as a mental illness and do not offer ANY support with it.
I have found that in my area as a BPD sufferer that there is little help when things get too much, as they have of late, and so I just go through crisis to crisis being dismisssed by anyone that might be able to help, it is so frustrating. So I think I can relate to your post here.
"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same too so we are not that different you and I.
You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.
i feel like theyve just said oh its borderline, cant do anything, go away and see your therapist next month. great lot thats gunna do when i cant talk about things.
~~I'm FINE...on the outside~~
~~Beneath the surface lies a shattered heart and an exhausted soul, simply longing... just longing to be whole~~
i feel like theyve just said oh its borderline, cant do anything, go away and see your therapist next month. great lot thats gunna do when i cant talk about things.
Seems all to familiar. I sometimes think BPD is the central zone of illness too powerful for standard weekly therapy, yet too insignificant for psychiatry. Oh yes I have difficulty in expressing feelings to my therapist who finds me frustrating but I like her.
"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same too so we are not that different you and I.
You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.
My Pysch won't give me any treatment. I can't take medication any more, and no therapy or counselling is available to me. Suppose this is just one of those things I've got to fix myself :)
Its all or nothing
And nothings all I ever get
Every time I turn it on
I burn it up and burn it out
is it those people who are saying not to take the meds anymore? the people who said you couldn't have therapy or counselling? or do you feel you can't take meds anymore?
i wish i could help. this is so unfair. quote to them "Personality Disorder: No Longer A Diagnosis Of Exclusion". i don't even know if being offered nothing is legal.
My Pysch won't give me any treatment. I can't take medication any more, and no therapy or counselling is available to me. Suppose this is just one of those things I've got to fix myself :)
How the hell are you managing to cope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same too so we are not that different you and I.
You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end.
How the hell are you managing to cope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I really don't know. I'm still quite up and down, but the situation (having a baby!) is helping. Its bloomin' hard - I feel like I can't self-harm because I'm pregnant, so I'm just sort of trying to deal with things without doing anything.
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is it those people who are saying not to take the meds anymore? the people who said you couldn't have therapy or counselling? or do you feel you can't take meds anymore?
i wish i could help. this is so unfair. quote to them "Personality Disorder: No Longer A Diagnosis Of Exclusion". i don't even know if being offered nothing is legal.
I'm pregnant, and its too risky to carry on with the anti-pyschotics and anti-depressants. There are safer things, but most (if not all) are SSRI's and I've had a few delusional/manic episodes triggered by ADs before, so not worth the risk.
Its all or nothing
And nothings all I ever get
Every time I turn it on
I burn it up and burn it out
