Hunny please dont od things well get better in time!
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" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Yeah Rowie, please do not take anything. I know your husband may find it easier to block it out, but can you maybe talk to him, just that you are a wee bit low and need his support tonight?
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Oh least I aint the only one, I am update with Eastenders, Corrie and Doctors - its just neighbours and river city I need to catch up with (Y)
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Have your spoken to your hubby at all Rowie, what else has your therapist said?
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Okay. I know that you have taken a break from seeing your gp and therapist, but maybe you should make an appointment to see one of them in the morning, I know that the break may have seemed beneficial at the time, but you are struggling hunni without speaking to them, and we don't wanna see you struggle - you need t do what you need to do to feel better, and if thats contacting your gp in the morning, then thats what you need to do.
Giving up is definately not an option and your a fighter, what about phoning the crisis team, even for a chat, just to maybe make you feel a bit better?
What you going to do hun?
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I dont see what the ****ing point it. My friends arguing with me because i said i needed the money back she owes me, she just told me to take back the birthday present i got her as she doesnt want to do presents because shes skint - which is pretty shitty to say weeks after i bought it and i cant return it, i didnt even keep the receipt and jewlreey is non refundabe.
I have no money, my laptops ****ed and i have to fix it, my second laptops ****ed complelty so i cant even use that, i cant practise piano or pro tools because of my back, there are alot more serious things going on i dont want to talk about, and my heads fuzzy from all the drugs i cant even read its too fuzzy and making me sick.
So what is the point, i may as well just take the whole whatever i have and be done with it.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
sorry ive not been much gd with support today.
im off to bed so night everyone.
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" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Mari things may seem bad tonight, but it will not stay like that forever. Your friend is out of order for saying that IMO, and there is little you can do about your laptop. I was without mine for a few months, I know its different circumstances but you just got to try and adapt in the meantime, until you can get it fixed.
With regards to your back, you shouldn't be taking the medicines that you are taking. Those painkillers you take are not preswcribed to you and may be making you worse.
What you need to do if phone the gp in the morning, make an emergency appointment and get your back sorted at least - don't self medicate, you are not doing yourself any favours.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
sorry ive not been much gd with support today.
im off to bed so night everyone.
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Night Daniella, hope your okay petal, will give you a text tomoz xxxxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Things take time, you need to give it time, don't give up
AND you really need to go to the GP
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
isnt nikki around? maybe you could do something to take you mind off things.
I know, but i cant go right now for everything ive said and for another reason i cant talk about, but right now i cant make much sence because of how the meds mking me feel.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
Okay. Nikki is here yeh but she is in bed, she needs to leave at 5am, so...
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Ive been diagnosed for a year now..
i was confussed at first , cause i always knew something was wrong with me ,
and why i would loose everything around me
im still trying to understand , i do , but i just hate it , it consumes me.. it sucks , and explaining it to other people? now thats hard...
Sorry, I think I have hit a brick wall now tonight. Everything has been fine all day, now all of a sudden - I aint doing too great.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
