how can God do this to me? why would he take my best friend away i need her....she is not talking to me....bc "we need to get better...apart" how am i supposed to do this without her? why?
am i that horrible?
Leave out all the Rest:
[Dreamer&Believer and netsirkylime are my bubbly amigos]
[shakespeare's strumpet is my big sis]
<3[absi is my girlfriend]<3
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
hi guys!! im new here... but jst wanted to ask something christian/ sh related...
im finding it reli hard to open up about my problems because i have such a strong faith and i feel like im hurting god each time... i feel so ashamed because i have god in my life but im still dealing with things like this...
feel like i shud go to confession or something (im catholic btw) but i know i cant stop overnight either... so it defeats the point of going to confession...
does anyone get what i mean??
hi claire :) i'm a catholic too and some time after i started SHing i mentioned it in confession. i asked if it was a sin and what he said to me was "it's the wrong answer to the right question." it's not ideal and it does hurt God, but it's not really a mortal sin, when it's something we 'need' to do in order to keep ourselves safe/sane/alive. for myself, i usually mention it at confession before christmas and easter, and make an effort to confess it at other times if i've SHed in a suicide attempt, or if an incident has caused particular upset or difficulties for people around me.
confession is a safe place to talk about things like this and everyone has some fault that comes up again and again. reconciliation isn't about saying "i'm never going to mess up again", it's coming back to God and saying that he's what you want. we don't have to be perfect to receive the sacrament, we need it precisely because we aren't perfect and need God's help. in the act of contrition (My God, I am sorry for my sins with all my heart. In choosing to do wrong and failing to do good, I have sinned against you whom I should love above all things. I firmly intend, with your help, to do penance, to sin no more, and to avoid whatever leads me to sin. Our Saviour Jesus Christ suffered and died for us. In his name, my God, have mercy) we admit we've done wrong, we say sorry, we say we want to change and we ask for his help and forgiveness.
from your post it seems those are all things you want to say. you would never be in the wrong for going to confession, stating plainly what is wrong in your life and behaviour and asking for forgiveness. i don't know if maybe you're also worried about how the priest may react (i was), but if so, remember that it doesn't matter what understanding he has of SI - through the Church he gives absolution from God, and God does understand.
claire,
I don't know if you have though about this and I don't know how others will react, but there is something I would like to share with you. I don't know if it will help you, I only know how much it helped me.
"But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed." Isaiah 53:5
Maybe you hurt yourself because you feel a need to punish yourself. Maybe you hurt yourself because you are in pain, looking for some kind of peace. Maybe you hurt yourself for some other reason. Whatever your reason is, YOUR blood is not the answer.
It is His blood that frees us. It is His blood that brings us peace. It is His blood that washes away our guilt and makes us clean, worthy to stand before God. our own blood cannot and never will be able to do that. oly His can. You have the right idea, in a way. The things you seek can only be bought at a high cost, and they must be payed for with blood.
But it is not your blood.
It's HIS.
You said that you feel like you are hurting God. I don't think that's true i exactly the way you are thinking it, but you should know that watching you hurt yourself DOES hurt Him. It hurts Him because He loves you and doesn't want to see you hurting like this. In fact, He loves you so much that He DIED for you. He gave His blood so you wouldn't have to give yours--because yours wouldn't have worked anyway. Only He could be the perfect sacrifice.
So yes, He hurts--but He hurts for you.
The blood that your soul has been secretly craving all your life is a special blood that only comes from one source. JESUS.
I want to share with you all some poetry that really touched me, that talks about God and self-harm. I didn't write it. I can't write this well.
Could, possibly, be triggering. It wasn't for me, but you never know.,
could I troule you for your prayers please? I'm in a really bad place at the moment and feeling like God is fairly against me. Deep down I know He isn't, but it really does feel like it at the moment.
hi guys!! im new here... but jst wanted to ask something christian/ sh related...
im finding it reli hard to open up about my problems because i have such a strong faith and i feel like im hurting god each time... i feel so ashamed because i have god in my life but im still dealing with things like this...
feel like i shud go to confession or something (im catholic btw) but i know i cant stop overnight either... so it defeats the point of going to confession...
does anyone get what i mean??
I agree that it's pointless to confess if you're planning on committing that same sin again. Confession is worthless without repentance.
but, this I don't understand...
Why do you think you can't stop overnight?
Nothing is impossible with God!
