Now that I think about it, u get a lot if **** for liking him, but I still cling on to him, I just completely block every one else out that say stuff about him that I don't like. I guess I don't care what they say, I don't care what they do
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
My dad used to have a saying when we were little: "sometimes when it seems like the world is out to get you, maybe you're the one at fault." This means that sometimes when everyone around you says one thing, and you think something else, you're probably wrong, and they're probably right.
What would you like us to do or say Ashlee?
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
I don't know anything about Sean and nor do I wish to, I have no opinions about him, what I have an issue with is the fact that you're allowing your mental health to pivot on him.
Can I be REALLY blunt with you? I am very ill with depression and have been for over seven years. I am also scarred from self-harm. If when I had joined RYL I had had this much support I would have been bloody overwhelmed. And I would have respected the advice I'd been given. If you are going to consistently ignore everything we say and allow Sean to dictate the way you behave, then I agree that this thread should be closed because the help you are being given is clearly having no effect.
Again, I'm sorry to be harsh but I feel you are being selfish.
Non of it matters to me anyway, I'm sticking by my boi no matter what
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
what do you want from this thread? As it looks to me that you when you do not have an anwser or do not like what we are posting in replies you just reply with videos, song lyrics whichis rather confusing as there are other places on this forum for them kind of things
"pretty pretty please dont you ever ever feel like your less than less than perfect"
"Don't ever change, you're perfect the way you are" only a PM away for ANYONE
Gem [smurfette] is my little sister and my princess <3
R.I.P. Keith....31/10/12....forever missed
R.I.P. Lewis....18/01/13....forever I'll love you, forever missed
People keep calling me an emo cos u cut, sooooo me being me, I'm gunna show em an emo, scene hair and makeup
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Why do you need to 'show' people that you are emo? Just because people say things doesn't make them true, it just means that they're saying them for a reason that is theirs alone. Be yourself, Ashlee, it will help you more in the long-run.
Nonono, I'm going to show them what one is, so they know that I'm not one
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I am getting genuinely annoyed now.
I thought you had finally accepted the advice and left this thread to slowly die off...
But no.
Ashlee. Sean is NOT 'your boy'. We cannot help you with Sean. Quite frankly we do not care about Sean. We care about you harming yourself and your eating disorders. WE HAVE GIVEN YOU ALL THE HELP WE CAN. If you still wish to ignore all of our advice and complain about your 'biggest' problem, Sean, then please do so on R&V boards. We cannot help you anymore.
Maybe I'm going too far, and I'm sorry, but I genuinely don't believe you have these eating disorders Ashlee. If you truly did then I think they would be a much bigger concern than some 15 year old boy. Stop wasting your life obsessing over him and start living.
I am getting genuinely annoyed now.
I thought you had finally accepted the advice and left this thread to slowly die off...
But no.
Ashlee. Sean is NOT 'your boy'. We cannot help you with Sean. Quite frankly we do not care about Sean. We care about you harming yourself and your eating disorders. WE HAVE GIVEN YOU ALL THE HELP WE CAN. If you still wish to ignore all of our advice and complain about your 'biggest' problem, Sean, then please do so on R&V boards. We cannot help you anymore.
Maybe I'm going too far, and I'm sorry, but I genuinely don't believe you have these eating disorders Ashlee. If you truly did then I think they would be a much bigger concern than some 15 year old boy. Stop wasting your life obsessing over him and start living.
THANK YOU for posting this.
Honestly, I don't mind supporting although I've only posted a couple of times on here but it is so annoying to see a thread like this, that should've dropped off the page a long time ago, with so much ignored advice. Most people would be ecstatic with just 1 or 2 replies of really good advice. There have been literally HUNDREDS of posts with advice in. That speaks volumes. If you're not making changes now after all this then what more can people offer you? If you're not going to take the advice and are just going to pin all your hopes on the Sean guy and ignore everyone else, why bother to keep posting?
I think it's a real shame, I really do that a lot of people here would be so happy and thankful for this sort of advice and would actually use it to try and make things better and you're just ignoring it.
I'm too stunned for words. I thought we were getting somewhere with this thread.
Ashlee, you have asked us for our help and continue to ignore it.
If you do not want this advise I suggest you ask for this thread to be closed and create a RV where you can rant about sean and stuff. As half the things you post about have nothing to do with what you apparently want from this thread.
To be quite blunt Ashleigh, I hope when Shawn talks to you on Wednesday, he tells you to leave him alone. If I were him, I would be putting a restraining order out.
I agree with everyone above. You have hundreds of replies, dozens of people trying/tried to help you, and you are being very selfish and ungrateful. As said, you haven't even said thank you or been appreciative for the support and advice. All you've done is 1) go round in circles b) create more drama/problems c) hurl abuse/attitude at people or/and d) ignore/throw it all back in peoples faces.[another popular saying.]
Your life cannot revolve around a 15 year old boy, who, from the sounds of it, doesn't even like you or want to have you in their life, and he may be meeting you to tell you as much.
I don't think you're telling the whole truth about certain parts of your "story", and your current situation, but of course, I may be wrong and if so, I apologize, but I get the feeling you're not being honest, or are making things more dramatic than they are for attention.
Which brings me to my next point, I honestly think you're just posting over and over to keep this thread from dying for attention. Like I've said, craving attention isn't always a bad thing, we all do it, all in different ways and forms of attention we crave, but if it is what you are craving from this thread, there are much better ways to do that.
I think maybe this thread should be closed because while Ashlee does need support, despite offering her hundreds of replies with exactly that, she ignores it or twists it around or is rude and many other "ors", and while this thread is getting massive attention, others are not, where even a few replies would be greatly appreciated, let alone hundreds that have been given here and utterly ungrateful for them.
We can't exactly help you Ashlee if you keep going round in circles and behaving in the way you are, or ignoring us, changing the subject, etc etc.
I am not going to condone this any further though, and I think others shouldn't either, but it's up to them, I just think we're wasting our time and effort when it could be directed elsewhere which would be more appreciated and used, so I really hope you sort your life out Ashlee.
