I want to burn again. Its been two weeks. I know it landed me in hospital last time... I still haven't started to heal... So why would I want to do it again?
I'm so fu*king stupid I make myself sick.
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Ha. Thought you could tempt me enough so that I would go crawling back to you, huh? Nice try, but that's not enough to get me caught up in your tangled web of lies once more. I'm a lot stronger than I used to be, a lot stronger than what you're used to.
Think you can drag me back down with you? Think again. C'mon, try me, give me your best shot. I won't go down without a fight.
I am winning... I am actually beating you at your sick game. I lost for 3 years- won for 6 years- lost for 2 years and now I am winning again. HA! I WILL win the war, not just the battle!
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
i wish i never met your stupid ugly self...i hate you but love you at the same time....you confuse me sometimes...i wish i had never touched that razor...
"I hate that I need you, I hate the scars you leave.
I hate how my life has been turned upside down because of you.
I hate the way people treat me because of you.
But...I still need you."
Self-harm,
I've made it. One whole month has gone by (and what a month), and I didn't turn to you once, no matter how much I wanted to. Today was hard, surgery not going well was hard, being judged by a doctor solely based on old scars was hard. But every time I wanted to turn to you, I remembered how you ruined me. I've taught myself that I can live without you, no matter how much I used to believe I couldn't. I never thought I'd last a day, but here I am: one month free. I miss you sometimes, but you're not worth it. You never were.
I hate you.
I love you.
You f*ck me up and YOU ENJOY IT. You feed off my insecurity, my fears and my strength to get what you want. You're nothing but evil and I don't really need you.
Just leave already, mkay?
Everything you need is around you.
The only danger is inside you.
So punch another pillow, to make the pain a little less.
And run another race, to make the pace a little faster.
Use another knife, to make the cut a little deeper.
Then shed another tear, to make reality a little truer.
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
