Say here what you can't say to someone/Get something off your chest-new rules post 1 - Page 434

meepmeep · 02-08-2009, 08:38 PM

you're driving me crazy when i'm really really not so stable right now.
yet you're doing it on purpose.

and i don't understand myself.
i've cheated on you, and i hate myself more for it than you ever could. but the thought of you doing it to me is absolutely killing me. i'm such a fucking hipocrit. but i love you.

[Awakening] · 02-08-2009, 09:40 PM

I'm so scared right now mummy. I havent been telling u everything and ive been living life wastefully and now im very stuck and need your help very much. But im gonna do this myself. Im gonna have to sort it out myself.

tonightXweXfall · 02-08-2009, 10:58 PM

I need your help. . .I need your love. . .but I dont even know if it's me you want. . .I want to talk to you right now. . .It's killing me not knowing. . .I'ts killing me to not talk to you. . .And yes. . .I DO think you're only telling me what you think I want to hear. . .What you think will keep me safe. . .I DO think you're lying to me just to keep me happy. . .I don't know what to think anymore. . .All I know is that I love you. . .That's it. . .

tonightXweXfall · 02-08-2009, 10:59 PM

As much as I hate you for hurting me like that. . .for S/Aing me. . .You give amazing advice, and that's the only reason I talk to you on IM the only reason I e-mail you. . .for a r*pist. . .you're blind as fuck. . .

havealittlefaith · 02-08-2009, 11:04 PM

why does this have to happen? i love you both mummy/grandad plz be okai i need you so much right now mummy but you need me more so im not gonna be selfish i'll pretend im happy i'll do it for you

Gone. · 02-08-2009, 11:09 PM

Pleaseeeee stop it. Stop tormenting me. I can do this perfectly well on my own. Dont you see? Dont you see? Stop trying to help me... leave me alone. I should be left alone, I dont deserve any help. I dont deserve your feigned, feigned pity. Stop trying to catch me out and be clever. Yes, if it were my friend in this situation then I wouldnt tell them they were useless. But its me, and I am useless. If you knew that it was actually my fault I was in this mess then you may think a little differently. You wouldnt pity me and you wouldnt bother or waste your precious time helping me because I am the problem. It is all my fault. Leave me alone.

Second Chance · 02-08-2009, 11:10 PM

Why can't you just love me back?

tonightXweXfall · 03-08-2009, 06:21 AM

am i really yours again?? do you really love me?? you dont know how hard this is for me to believe. . .i love you ♥

Damaged Goods · 03-08-2009, 10:05 AM

I want to come with you.

tonightXweXfall · 03-08-2009, 12:10 PM

wow. i loved staying up and talking to you this morning until like 3am. it was great. and now we both got up between 6-630 and we're talking again. god, i missed this SO much this weekend. i love you and thank you for being mine again =]

Damaged Goods · 03-08-2009, 12:12 PM

B - Why are you doing this? You're worrying me.
First taking my money and giving my clothes away...Now you're hoarding lighters, burning toys and cutting my dresses up. What's going on? What's happening? I can help, I want to help you.

Catharsis · 03-08-2009, 05:01 PM

You make me feel special.
I shouldn't be special.

You make me feel loved.
I shouldn't be loved.

You want me forever...
But i dont want to be around for that long.

Damaged Goods · 03-08-2009, 05:23 PM

Look at me. It will get better.
You deserve happiness, peace and fulfilment.
When I see tears roll down your face, it tugs at me and I want to hold you until the pain goes away.
I prayed for you. My very own prayer, first one in years and I spoke to Jesus from the bottom of my heart. I asked him to help you and look after you, I asked him to give me the strength and the wisdom to be there for you. I asked him to guide me in what to do to help you.
I don't know if he heard.
I love you so much. so so much and I don't tell you because you won't believe me but I should, I try to express it. There is so much I want to say to you.

Behind the Smile · 03-08-2009, 05:34 PM

I drink to forget.
Every time I drink, I end up passing out.
I have no self control.

Ardea · 03-08-2009, 05:41 PM

Is so happy that the person you were talking about was me was about me. I was wishing it was, but I kept telling myself it wasn't...

Sunshine · 03-08-2009, 07:27 PM

i want to tell you something that i have never told anyone before do you have to put it in my notes or tell anyone? its nothing to do with my current saftey it was about a year ago but not anymore! its probably nothing and it was probably guessed at but it makes me feel like an evil, horrible, terrible person. please can i tell you?

Zedebee · 03-08-2009, 07:32 PM

It's really very hard to keep biting my tongue about this. I want to get it out of my system 'cause it's still affecting me but I refuse to admit that I still care. Hypocrite? Liar? Smack me across the head with several large rocks why don't you. Don't get me wrong, I'm not bitter, I'm pleased for you, but the circumstance is just ridiculous. I want to say it. I badly want to. But I won't. You don't need that right now. Screw you.

tonightXweXfall · 03-08-2009, 08:42 PM

j- I'm an anorexic, like you were a bulemic. I've been raped, like you were raped. you know im a cutter. . .and i just weish i could tell you everything about me that i havent told you. youre my best friend, and one of my favorite people. im glad to be related to you. i'm glad to call you my sister. . .i just wish i could tell you the rest of my life that you dont know. . .

forever_lost · 03-08-2009, 10:29 PM

You are such a NERD!
ugh!!
shut up.

Damaged Goods · 03-08-2009, 10:37 PM

Thank you. Thank you for answering the phone.
Thank you for talking honestly with me.
Thank you for laughing when I went a bit weird, made me feel less of a freak.
I'm glad you didn't see through me this time because I want to be there for you. It's your time now. I'm going to be okay for you.