Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?
I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words
We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow
I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go
We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand until you hold my hand
Until you hold my hand
I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words
We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
Not feeling, not nothing.
Good intentions but jealousy takes over all.
Excuses, abuses.
This time I know it's not over
So why take all my pride
And I shove it back down inside.
This time harassment's gone too far.
Get away from me! Stay the **** away from me!
He wanted more, wanted a silenced whore.
You were my life, kill me now and burn my soul.
Get away from me! Stay the **** away from me!
What is it me? You can't go out at night.
Answer me. Tell me about your others, I've started to like that
Answer me. What about all those times you looked me in the eyes and said you lied.
You know it's over, it's over.
What do you see in me? I can't go out at night.
Answer me. Tell me about your others, would you like that.
Answer me. What about all those times you looked me in the eyes and said you lied.
You know it's over, it's over. What do you see in me?
I can't go out at night.
Answer me. Tell me about your other stories like that.
Answer me. What about all those times you looked me in the eyes and said you lied.
You know it's over, it's over. I'm through...
Get away from me! Stay the **** away from me!
You, sold your soul to me!
Tired arms
Sweaty palms
Yeah, I still keep my fingers crossed
I hope you're okay
I hope you're okay
****
I gotta go somewhere far enough away
I've made mistakes
And I am constantly afraid
I think I think too much
I think I think too much
Your hill's too hard to climb
I wish I had the guts
I wish I had the guts
Just enough to get over it
Yeah, i still keep my fingers crossed
I hope youre okay
A smile can only bend so far
Before it breaks
And your comfort falls apart
I though i had another chance last year when you left
Well i was wrong
It's all gone
I was wrong
I think I think too much
I wish I had the guts
Just enough to get over it
Getting stoned in the back of a car
You have no idea where you are
But you're satisfied with life
And you dont think twice of it
Every day you celebrate, celebrate
Like its your birthday, your birthday
Well happy birthday
Celebrate
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be, me
I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
I see this future full of prosperity,
And I won't let, I won't let this city get to me.
I may be alone but at least I'm still standing on my feet
I feel this failure creeping it's way to me
And I wont let, I won't let these people get to me
I may be alone but at least I'm still standing on my feet
So it looks like the next time you see my face
That you'll find me in a better place
And you need to know that I'm letting you go
And it feels so good from here
Everyday is getting hard, everything is adding up
and I know, one day I'll push through
I may be alone but at least I'm still standing on my feet
I won't let it get to me
This path I chose, I chose for me.
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Heaven bend to take my hand and lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer to a long and painful fight
Truth be told I tried my best
But somewhere long the way, I got caught up in all there was to offer
But the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried, I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come 'round here and
Tell me I told you so
We all begin with good intent
When love was raw and young
We believe that we can change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our back the burdens time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I've held so dear
Though I've tried, I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come 'round here and
Tell me I told you so
Ohh
Heaven bend to take my hand
I've nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads, embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see
That it's one miss step, one slip, before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed
Though I've tried, I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come 'round here and
Tell me I told you so
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
Last night I dreamt
That somebody loved me
No hope, no harm
Just another false alarm
Last night I felt
Real arms around me
No hope, no harm
Just another false alarm
So, tell me how long
Before the last one?
And tell me how long
Before the right one?
The story is old, I know
But it goes on
The story is old, I know
But it goes on
Oh, goes on
And on
Oh, goes on
And on
It goes to show, that no matter how bad things get for me, there is still always one thing which brings me happiness. I must cling to this for it is the making of me, the beginning of my resurgance and the fightback epitomised. I will defeat my demons.
An ode to joy
A road to love
A note to keep your head above
The rising tide's not yet a flood on this shore
More how I Want to feel but:
And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
When you get older, plainer, saner
When you remember all the danger we came from
Burning like embers, falling, tender
Long before the days of no surrender
Years ago and well you know
Smoke 'em if you got 'em
'Cause it's going down
All I ever wanted was you
I'll never get to heaven
'Cause I don't know how
Let's raise a glass or two
To all the things I lost on you
Nothing’s ever good enough
Nothing’s ever good enough
Nothing’s ever good enough
The weather’s never cold enough
To drive me out
Chapter one needs to come
I have complained all morning
Now I can barely speak
There’s a message inside that tells me
I will shed this skin I’ll break free again
I’ve been searching for something
To keep me warm
To help me sleep at night
Come on
Is that a reward or a necessity?
Unplug the cord
Shuffle the cards
These ties have been tied too tightly
And I can barely breathe
Igloo mountains built high in the backyard
But all I see is melting
There’s blood on my flannel
Courage in my flask
If we move onward
We’ll never look back
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
I wish I never touched the surface of the sun
Suddenly I'm burning brightly, burning too bright
Falling faster to the deep
And I'm anchored to the ocean floor below
Sleeping softly on and on
Between my daydreams and my nightmares of the sun
I'm anchored to the ocean floor (I'm anchored)
The words were there but I had never heard them
Not like this
I'm anchored to the ocean floor (I'm anchored)
I stood at the bottom
While I watched as lovers share first kiss
I remember it like it happened only moments ago
In November this will be the only thing I have left to hold
These creatures stare at me while passing on their way
Can I touch them now or when they sleep
Or will they try to stop me if I do
And I'm angry at the waves from far below
Can they see me I am trying
I am like them, reaching for anything else
My arms are reaching out
But I was always trying to cure what I could never cure before
And my love isn't over now
I can still feel the cold, I can see that I'm still alone
My arms are reaching out
But I was always trying to cure what I could never cure before
And my love isn't over now
I can still feel the cold, I can see that I'm still alone
I caught them swimming down below
I found them running
My friends were there but I had never seen them not like this
I caught them swimming down below
I felt their running
I lay at the bottom
While I wait for my lover's last kiss
I remember it like it happened only moments ago
In November this will be the only thing I have left to hold
I remember it like it happened only moments ago
In November this will be the only thing I have left to hold
To hold onto
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Hello sunshine it's been too long
since I felt your warmth upon my face
And how much have I missed
'Cause I've been focused on everything wrong
This road just felt so long
I forgot to lift my head to see you
Oh my lovely shining for me
Let my eyes see all the beauty
Oh-oh
Hello sunshine since the moment
That I felt your beautiful warmth
I knew that I'd do anything
To keep this feeling of you
My heart comes alive
Oh who could add a day to this life
By drowning every dark sky
Oh my lovely shining for me
Let my eyes see all the beauty
Oh-oh
Fill my dark skies
Make me see the light
Life is fine so bring in the sunshine
Oh-oh
Whoa-oh let in the sunshine
Whoa-oh let in the sunshine
Whoa-oh let in the sunshine
Let in the sunshine
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
I feel like you wouldn't like me if you met me.
Don't you worry, there's still time.
Don't you worry, there's still time.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
And it was then, that I felt the breeze
Over my head and through my hands
Are you sorry? Are you sad?
You're just a little bit tired
You didn't even mean to leave, nothing more
I won't remember what it's like to be young again
I'm just a little bit tired
And anyone would feel the same
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink
I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink
I wonder should I get up and fix myself a drink
No, no, no
I'm so tired I don't know what to do
I'm so tired my mind is set on you
I wonder should I call you but I know what you would do
You'd say I'm putting you on
But it's no joke, it's doing me harm
You know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brain
You know it's three weeks, I'm going insane
You know I'd give you everything I've got
For a little peace of mind
I'm so tired, I'm feeling so upset
Although I'm so tired I'll have another cigarette
And curse Sir Walter Raleigh
He was such a stupid git
You'd say I'm putting you on
But it's no joke, it's doing me harm
You know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brain
You know it's three weeks, I'm going insane
You know I'd give you everything I've got
For a little peace of mind
I'd give you everything I've got
For a little peace of mind
I'd give you everything I've got
For a little peace of mind
Sitting in a big white room alone
Tilt my head back, feel the tears fall down
Close my eyes to see in the dark
I feel young, broken, so, so scared
I don't wanna be here anymore
I wanna be somewhere else
Normal and free, like I used to be
But I have to stay in this big white room
With little old me
I'm going crazy
I'm losing my mind
I'm going crazy
In this big white room of mine
I'm going crazy
I'm losing my mind
I'm going crazy
In this big white room of mine
Sitting in a big white room alone
Close the door
Don't want the pain to come in
I clench my fist
And try to stay strong
I cry, feel sick
My heart is beating out of control
Can I run run faster than you
I wanna feel my body again
Feel the wind in my hair
But I have to stay in this big white room
'Cause no one else cares, no
I'm going crazy
I'm losing my mind
I'm going crazy
In this big white room of mine
I'm going crazy
I'm losing my mind
I'm going crazy
In this big white room of mine
Everybody's looking at me
Everybody's staring at me
What do I do now
Smile, yeah
Everybody's looking at me
Everybody's staring at me
What do I do now
Smile, yeah
I'm going crazy
I'm losing my mind
I'm going crazy
In this big white room of mine
I'm going crazy
I'm losing my mind
I'm going crazy
In this big white room of mine
I'm going crazy
I'm losing my mind
I'm going crazy
In this big white room of mine
I'm going crazy
I'm losing my mind
I'm going crazy
In this big white room of mine
You are the hole in my head
You are the space in my bed
You are the silence in between
What I thought and what I said
You are the night time fear
You are the morning when it's clear
When it's over you're the start
You're my head, you're my heart
No light, no light in your bright blue eyes
I never knew daylight could be so violent
A revelation in the light of day
You can't choose what stays and what fades away
And I'd do anything to make you stay
No light, no light
No light
Tell me what you want me to say
Through the crowd, I was crying out
And in your place there were a thousand other faces
I was disappearing in plain sight
Heaven help me, I need to make it right
You want a revelation,
You wanna get it right
But it's a conversation,
I just can't have tonight
You want a revelation
Some kind of resolution
You want a revelation
No light, no light in your bright blue eyes
I never knew daylight could be so violent
A revelation in the light of day,
You can't choose what stays and what fades away
And I'd do anything to make you stay
No light, no light
No light
Tell me what you want me to say
Would you leave me,
If I told you what I've done?
And would you need me,
If I told you what I've become?
'Cause it's so easy,
To say it to a crowd
But it's so hard, my love,
To say it to you out loud
No light, no light in your bright blue eyes
I never knew daylight could be so violent
A revelation in the light of day,
You can't choose what stays and what fades away
And I'd do anything to make you stay
No light, no light
No light
Tell me what you want me to say
You want a revelation,
You wanna get it right
But it's a conversation,
I just can't have tonight
You want a revelation
Some kind of resolution
You want a revelation
You want a revelation,
You wanna get it right
But it's a conversation,
I just can't have tonight
You want a revelation, some kind of resolution
Tell me what you want me to say.
I feel you
Deeper when you're further from my arms
And it burns inside my heart
So, "come home", she says to me
Everything, everything that I could say
Won't change that or anything
I chose a way and I can't take it back
But your face, I have in my head
Is what keeps me from losing my steps
And it's your voice, that tells me that I've got
A place to come home in the end
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Sometimes quiet is violent
I find it hard to hide it
My pride is no longer inside
It's on my sleeve
My skin will scream
Reminding me of
Who I killed inside my dream
I hate this car that I'm driving
There's no hiding for me
I'm forced to deal with what I feel
There is no distraction to mask what is real
I could pull the steering wheel
Have I become the man that I hated once
Or have my thoughts become clouded
By things I used to fear the most?
And is my heart full of the ashes I heard about?
Have I become the missing person
I've been trying to get you all to forget?
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
