Lyrics to how you're feeling right now.

[Buttons.]

The winner takes it all...

[forever_lost]

Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright but it's never enough.

[vonAppen]

I can’t remember anything
Can’t tell if this is true or dream
Deep down inside I feel to scream
This terrible silence stops me

Now that the war is through with me
I’m waking up, I cannot see
That there’s not much left of me
Nothing is real but pain now

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please, God, wake me

Back in the womb it’s much too real
In pumps life that I must feel
But can’t look forward to reveal
Look to the time when I’ll live

Fed through the tube that sticks in me
Just like a wartime novelty
Tied to machines that make me be
Cut this life off from me

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please, God, wake me

Now the world is gone, I’m just one
Oh God, help me Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please, God, help me

Darkness
Imprisoning me
All that I see
Absolute horror
I cannot live
I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell

[postoffice]

The clock moved a quarter of a turn
The time it took a cigarette to burn
She said you got a lot of things to learn
Going nowhere

[ThatJoshGuy]

Will I ever know how it feels to be home again?
I've been told that home is where the heart is
If that's the case, I've never been home

[vonAppen]

she hides all the pain inside
by filling up her arms with pretty little lines
she cuts with no intent to kill
this time she didn’t do it but someday she will

[[Luna]]

Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

******
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be impossible

*****

I tried to control my shaking
With just one sound
I tried to warm the ocean
By writing it down
I tried to tame my nightmare
Line by line
If I write a song about you
Does that make you mine?

******

The only thing that's certain
Is your indecision
I guess it must be working
Cause you hit me with such precision
Now the strings are breaking
Their fingers run with blood
But they keep on playing
The cycle never stops

Who's in control?
Who's playing who?

[forever_lost]

Self-hatred grows in me like cancer.
I can't locate its whereabouts but its feasting on its host.
Self-fullfilling prophecy, you're the only gaurenteed loyalty.

This hunger grows inside me like a tumor.
The dizziness just compliments this failire of a girl.
I'm settled now, this shell of mine consumes me.
Self-fullfilling prophecy, you're the only one that dare speak the truth about me.

[ThatJoshGuy]

And the bricks get laid
And they get torn up
And laid again
But the bricks always get torn up again

And your friends won't wait
So don't believe that ****
When they say they'll wait
Cause trust me; your friends will not wait for you

Then you'll be stoned in some park
Just nodding your head and pinching your arms
When a girl walks along
She's humming your song
With your t-shirt on
That's when you're done
Oh, that's when you're done

There's a cotton crush
In the southern states
But back up here, man
We've got so much thread and space
To waste, waste, waste

And there's a microphone
Picking every word up
And it shuts itself off
When it's sure that it's heard enough

The quiet can scrape
All the calm from your bones
But maybe it should
Maybe we need to be hollowed
To get up and grow
And stop ****ing around
To kick off our braces and start straightening out

Let's sift through the static
To find a simpler sound
Than the **** that's clouding our heads now

[vonAppen]

I was a living soul just like the rest of you
A normal guy working nine to five
Keeping up with the bills because my mother was ill
I lost track of time
She lost her ****ing mind
Eventually she died
I was broken and petrified
So I drank the medicine tonight
Bottoms up here’s to my shitty life

Where have all my morals gone?
Washed away with the bottle
How did this all go wrong (It all went wrong)
It wasn’t my intention but there’s no redemption
For those who take away the lives of innocent
I’m inebriated, I’m dangerous I can’t (I can’t live on)
So there’s one in the chamber just waiting for me to end it all

I drank my sorrows down and poisoned my soul to the core
I drove away that dreadful night, couldn’t take this life not anymore
Behind the wheel, the tunnel vision, I couldn’t see them
85 through the intersection
My sick transgression, I ****ing killed him

I saw the blood, what had I done?

Where have all my morals gone?
Washed away with the bottle
How did this all go wrong (It all went wrong)
It wasn’t my intention but there’s no redemption
For those who take away the lives of innocent
I’m inebriated, I’m dangerous I can’t (I can’t live on)
So there’s one in the chamber just waiting for me to end it all

It’s come to this
A pen and paper, a loaded gun
I can’t live on another day with everything that I’ve done

Dark has taken all control
The accident had consequence, I took a father from his girl
And god can’t even save my soul
This life I live is barely living hollow man I have no feelings
Burn in fires down below
It’s just what I deserve cause I am evil and despicable
One shot ready to let go
I put my finger on the trigger
Life I want mine to be over

Where have all my morals gone?
Washed away with the bottle
How did this all go wrong (It all went wrong)
It wasn’t my intention but there’s no redemption
For those who take away the lives of innocent
I’m inebriated, I’m dangerous I can’t (I can’t live on)
So there’s one in the chamber just waiting for me to end it all

There’s one in the chamber
Waiting for me just to end it all
End it all

My mother is gone, so I guess I’ll just leave this is for whoever finds me
All I can really say is I’m sorry
I can’t live with myself with what I’ve done
I can’t take the guilt, and the pain, the emptiness
It’s all just too much
I’m hollow
I can’t take life anymore

[ThatJoshGuy]

I got a car loaded up with gas and parked right outside
I got a city map and a mission in my mind
I just need someone riding with me, I need a lover to my right
To keep me company in that big old car outside

Cause I don't wanna think about the world right now
I wanna go from bar to bar, I wanna drink the taste clean out
I wanna feel the way I felt back when I was a kid just messin' around
Before I thought about the world like I do now

[Buttons.]

"Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

[forever_lost]

And I wanna believe you when you tell me that it'll be okay.
Yea I try to believe you,
But I don't.

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way.
I try to believe you,
Not today.

I don't know how I'll feel tomorrow.
And I don't know what to say.
Tomorrow is a different day.

Give me a little time.
Leave me alone a little while.
Maybe it's not too late.
Not today.

I don't know how I'll feel tomorrow.
I don't know what to say.
Tomorrow is a different day.

And I know I'm not ready.
Maybe tomorrow.

[Buttons.]

I changed my color for you
I shed my coat with caution
I lack the beauty you display
See here there are the bruises
And some were self-inflicted
And some showed up along the way
So i nod my head
Im ready for the world to see
The secret i kept here inside the man you thought id be
Slip into coma calm
The coma where i calm myself down
Here comes excuses why i let you down

Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy i swore i wouldnt become
Chameleon boy
Chameleon boy

So now weve come upon the hardest thing ive ever done
Its telling you that im a mess
What sort of mess i mean
Is self-destructive gasoline
The kind that strips you of your best
And while i play insteadthe way that most would end up dead
You sleep alone at home and wish that i was in our bed
With this im telling you
My color changes back to blue
How do i ask you this
Will you help me through

Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy i swore i wouldnt become
Stand by for another breakdown
Sound off the alarm
Is this the chameleon boy i swore i wouldnt become
Chameleon boy
Chameleon boy

I try to think of all the people i look up to
Or growing up who would i be
Now the twisted part
Whered all my idols end up
They all passed away
Passed away

Stand by
Its chameleon boy
Stand by
Its chameleon boy
Chameleon Boy
I'm chameleon boy...
Chameleon boy..

[ThatJoshGuy]

A good man doesn't drink
but I've been drinking alone
So what does that make me?

My hands they always shake
And no one's calling my phone
So what does that make me?

And I know the kid with his guitar
So drunk and anxious
It got done to death
But show me what hadn't
I'd tried it

Because I'm selfish enough
To wanna get better
But I'm backwards enough
Not to take every step to get there

So when you realize it's a pattern
And not a phase
It's what you've become
And it's what you will stay
That's ballgame

See I can't make room in my life
For anyone else like me
So I've been driving away
all of the people who help me before they can leave.

And I still don't even know what I
need to do to fix myself, you see.
But I'm trying now, I'm trying now, for the first time
to get and stay free.

And there's a clamp across my chest
that tightens every time I lapse into
Another sorry story

About some miserable collapse
A bronze box I keep encased in glass
And dust off whenever I sing in your city

But lately I've had to come to grips
With scope and figure
How my problems stack up in a world
Two steps from ruin
I do not believe in the rapture.

But either way, I realize that my troubles are as small as they could be
which makes me feel bad for even feeling this bad in the first place, most days.

Cause there's ten wars going on and all the flags are still wavin'
Daniel's 20-year-old friend are now 30
willing, and serving
They're marines and they showed me

And it makes me sad
it makes me really ****ing sad
But at least they act

Me I bite my tongue and tell my brother "You wish them luck"
I pray that they come back
to a God I make and I used to drink those thoughts away
but I got too drunk for that.

So when you realize it's a pattern
And not a phase
It's what you've become
And it's what you will stay
That's ballgame
No no

Yeah when you realize it's a pattern
And not a phase
It's what you've become
And it's what you will stay
That's ballgame

Yeah when I realize I'm a pattern
I am not a phase
It's what I've become
And it's what I can stay
that's ballgame

She says "I want to get free"
I said "Free from what?"
She took her kid by the arm, said "you piss away the things you love."

You'll go auditioning replacements, from church pew, to backyard, to basement
but in the back of your mind, you hope that your true love is waiting.
and it's a gift if she waited
She's just not gonna come digging for you anymore, so wake up
Wake up, cause you're not done
We can fix ourselves up, kids.
We can learn how to love, the way we're wired to love
But let's start with ourselves for once, and mean something for more than six months
there's work to be done.

[ThatJoshGuy]

I quit the carnival and moved next door
I thought I had enough but I want more
So now I'm sneaking out at night
I paint my face and shine my shoes
Go where I'm not supposed to

I tamed a lion once, I stole his roar
I stripped his pride away, but he found more
So now he's back to take what's his and shove my future in my face,
scare me back in my place

So soon so soon
you've got it beat sweetheart 'til it beats you

I left my flaming sword beside your bed
I woke to find it pressed against my neck
You wept "suggestion, it just never works
So now I'm trying something else"
I shut my eyes ho hum... oh well

Felt a feather fall, a tree trunk split
Inside my lion laughed, he played violin
He said "HEY! you should just give up on your voice
Before we both end up destroyed"
I quit alright, he purred "good boy."

Said "you'd believe anything" so he went and copped
"You fall for anyone." and I said "that's not exactly true,
I only fell for you, I did whatever you ask me to."

You wake in the hospital in a thrift store suit
Hear your lover's voice ("****!") from the waiting room
You shut your eyes, you pray for peace
I'm not here, this isn't me
This isn't something I would do
See I know the complicated truth
It was a make up mask and then a lion's roar
And a big top tent, a firey sword
They're not real, they never were
And soon she won't be real either
This is the life you went and earned
Because you never ****ing learn
And you could waste all of your years
Fixing the mess you make in here
So as her nervous breath draws close
Her dress heels click off their approach
You clutch your chest, you whisper
"Oh no, what will i do? What will I do?
My love, my love, what will i do?"

Ooh-oh-uh-ohhh oh whoa oh oh oh oh
Ooh-oh-uh-ohhh oh whoa oh oh oh oh
No, no, no, no
No, no, no
You say don't leave me here
Don't leave me here
Don't go!
Don't go, oh oh oh oh oh
No no no no no no

[Buttons.]

I'm going under.

[ThatJoshGuy]

You used to make me feel like I could walk on water
Now, most nights, I'm just sinking down, and down
You're the reason why I can't listen to the same songs I used to

I write songs about you all the time
I bet I don't run through your mind

I've given up on you
But it still hurts to know you're not alone
Don't worry
I'll keep out of your life, and stay awake at night

It's 4 AM and you're keeping me from closing these sleepy eyes
Does the thought of me keep you up at night?
Like the light on the ceiling of your bedroom?
Lately, my dog's the only one around that listens to my problems
It's been a lonely year
It's been a lonely year
It's been a lonely year
It's been a lonely year

I write songs about you all the time
I bet I don't run through your mind

I've given up on you
But it still hurts to know you're not alone
Don't worry
I'll keep out of your life, and stay awake at night
With just my skin and bones
It hurts to know you're not alone
I've given up on you, and my skin, and my bones

[faithgrl33]

"I turned and ran
To save a life I didn't have"


from "in the woods somewhere" by hozier

[Buttons.]

One foot wrong, I'm gonna fall.