I know how you mean with regards to uni, just take it a day at a time and hopefully it wont get on top of you too much.
Its up to you to decide if you want to try dbt, its not for everyone, but what would you have to lose for trying it?
Good luck anyway
I am going to bed, took my meds about 30 mins ago and I can hardly keep my eyes open now
Much love to all xxxxxxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
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my thoughts are of doing a going to the nearist train station and jump on the lines
my husband knows that am thinking about this but i cant seem to get it out my head
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Hi Hollz, how you doing today? I hope your psych appt goes well.
I'm trying to get some of my course done but so behind. I've got to meet my SW at 12 to visit the Wellbeing Centre but I really don't want to go. I'm hoping I'll manage to go to the gym afterwards.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Everyones prob still in bed, wish I was lol. I had to get up this morning, as I couldn't tell my mum I wasn't going into work (she don't understand - so I need to hide it) and since my shift today is meant to be 8-6, I had to get up and go out this morning around 7.30, so I drove around in a few circles, dropped my dad off at the train station and headed back home, safe in the knowledge that neith ermum or dad will be back till 6ish - my wee brother is upstairs, but he won't let on, coz he knows I been in the last few days, although as I was on 9am last few days, so I didn't need to do the whole get up and go routine
See this is why I need my own flat, so I don't need to pretend and justify myself.
I was going to back to bed when I came in but then I thought, well I will just stay up, sit on the couch with my blanket, catch up on a bit of television and few other things to do.
I am going to phone OU later today and see if I can resist courses etc, as I haven't been doing the work. I think if on one of them, if they gave me a few weeks for 2 essays I've missed, and a week extension for the next, I could maybe catch up on that one, its the last presentation of that course, and having already completed part one, I just want to complete it - acheive something
Other course is a 60 pointer, I am going to try and defer it to the next sitting of the course, and since I have all the material, I will be able to work at it at my own pace, and do the assigments hopefully anyway, in theory which will mean, well the questions may be different in next presentation, but least I'd be able to be clued up on the coursework
Of course, I may phone the OU today and they might not be able to accomodate me, but I am going to try, and fingers crossed I will get somewhere.
Other plans for today. Well I might go to the gym and for a swim, and cinema perhaps in the afternoon and then I am going to the football tonight.
I'm glad I didn't go back to bed, get the most out of the day eh :)
Thurs/Fri are my rota days off this week, so least I can have a lie in then, although Friday is potentially going to be a busy day, could get the keys to my flat which will ensure a morning flit, afternoon gym session with my personal trainer, in which I hope my legs will not make me collapse and then birthday dinner with Mari (if you still wanna)
Check me with all these plans, I bet I fall asleep soon and wake up just in time to go back out again :P
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Hi Hollz, how you doing today? I hope your psych appt goes well.
I'm trying to get some of my course done but so behind. I've got to meet my SW at 12 to visit the Wellbeing Centre but I really don't want to go. I'm hoping I'll manage to go to the gym afterwards.
Pysch appt not till Thursday morning hunni. Hopefully the appt with your SW goes well, I know you don't wanna go, but on Monday night you didn't want to go to the TC, but you enjoyed it when you were there - please just go and see what they have to say, nothing to lose Carrie.
Gym sounds good though, I am going to go to gym early afternoon :)
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
morning everyone.
how are you all?
I've got an essay to write but just cant do it.
xxx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
no motivation!
I caqn always do it tonight because i've been signed off work for two weeks but the essay is due in tmrw.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Do it when you are ready hunni, can you not get an extension if need be?
I couldn't cope with Uni/College in the end, thats why I opted on OU and turns out I can't even do that, but I think I definately tried to do too much, too soon.
Im signed off work too, so I may as well and try and be productive :S
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
i'm going to ask today if i can have till friday then it's half term so i'll see what she say's today. All i want to do is sleep.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
its the fact that i make ppl uncomfortable apparently with my arms i try and wear long sleeves alot of the time and in certain situations but sometimes u cant without over heating. and they were like just talk to us about stuff so u dont have to hurt urself. i dont like talking at the best of times. its soo frustrating cus everyone has been saying how well ive been doing. n they cum around n just crush me. it feels like everyone is constantly having ago and judging me. ive sat down with one of my friends. and she was like i dont know how u do it. and she asked a few questions and think she undestands better now. but how can i explain when i take ods at the mo most of the time its not to kill myself. im finding it very difficult knowing ppl r talking about me.
