Ashlee why do you feel you can't get help? Is it because you don't want to go by yourself?
well yeah..
and the only thing about self harm on that site is child line
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
A big, BIG well done for telling the truth Ashlee! I think I speak for everyone when I say we are all so proud of you. Very brave :)
As said above I think you really need to speak to a professional hun. I know it probably sounds scary and since you are young like me, out of your control, but you do have control over this. You have a few options:
. Tell your Mum that you are struggling with the anorexia again
. Talk to the teacher who knows and admit you'd like some help
. Go to the doctors by yourself
I know it's very hard, and if you struggle to say could you maybe write it down and show whoever it is you want to tell?
I still think that the reason you love Sean and lied about all those things is because you want somebody to care about you... I think maybe since your Dad kicked you out you have felt a little unloved, and so you crave for somebody to love and care for you. Does this sound about right Ashlee?
Please answer this :) ^
i loved sean b4 that btw
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
So have you not got anyone nearby who could go with you to get help or something?
not exacly
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Ashlee you need to go and see someone hun... We've given all the help we can give you online. If you really can't tell ANYONE (excluding Sean) then I suppose the next best thing are support call centres / online counsellors. Childline is good, I really recommend them
Relate don't say they only deal with parental breakups,they may be worth a try,or email one of the other contacts on there.
There is only so much people on here can do,at the end of the day you have to help yourself,whether that be by speaking to a teacher,gp or one of the services on the link.
Relate don't say they only deal with parental breakups,they may be worth a try,or email one of the other contacts on there.
There is only so much people on here can do,at the end of the day you have to help yourself,whether that be by speaking to a teacher,gp or one of the services on the link.
ok
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
They have a chat function so you can have a one to one talk with one of their helpers - it might be a place to start? They can direct you towards help and support. x
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i dont like all the links, i cant find anything in them
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Ashlee, I really doubt people would be giving you links if they didn't contain useful/helpful information.
People can only do so much for you, you have to do some stuff for yourself.
People can give you the links, you need to search out this information.
You give short answers and very rarely elaborate on thing which means people can't help you any more than they do
I can't believe this thread is still going. Other than attention I can't see what else you're possibly getting from this
Ashlee, I really doubt people would be giving you links if they didn't contain useful/helpful information.
People can only do so much for you, you have to do some stuff for yourself.
People can give you the links, you need to search out this information.
You give short answers and very rarely elaborate on thing which means people can't help you any more than they do
I can't believe this thread is still going. Other than attention I can't see what else you're possibly getting from this
i cant inderstand the words on the websites
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
People have offered advice that is constructive and helpful, links targeting the specific problems you have talked about and personal stories to help you feel less alone with these issues.
These do not seem to be the types of help you would like as you seem dismissive and uninterested in them.
What kind of help and support would you like?
You see a mouse trap
I see free cheese
And a ****ing challenge
Sometimes we have to do things for ourselves, and I understand that you may have difficulty understanding some words on those sites, but try to read what is on them very slowly and if you don't understand a word, maybe go onto google.com and put the word in and then what it means will come up, would that help at all?
I know you're very young, and probably frightened to talk to people in real life about these things, maybe speaking to us online is easier because we don't know you, we are just strangers, and we physically are not with you or in your real life, so I understand you wanting to speak to us rather than people in the outside world, but you really do need to try and speak to someone.
Is your mum someone who you feel close to? Do you trust her? Do you get on with her? Maybe if you talk to her about this, it could help you, she could try and get you the help you need.
If you can't speak about it verbally, perhaps writing stuff down or printing some pages from here and giving them to someone in real life would be easier?
I'm proud of you for telling us the truth, and we are not mad at you for lying, but we can only do so much, you have to try and help yourself, we are trying to give you the tools and resources to do that, could you try and look at one of the links that you've been given and as I said above, try to read the site very slowly and see if it can be of any help to you?
I really do think you need to speak to an adult in real life, but I understand your fears and hesitations to do so, but it really is a must, you really need to get some help, we can't do much else for you love.
I also do understand that you may have trouble trusting people in real life, and maybe you're scared of being hurt or opening up to someone? Is that a reason why you don't want to talk to an adult? If it isn't, could you tell us in detail why you think you don't want to tell an adult? As best as you can explain?
Please do try to answer the questions people give you, as much as you can, that way we can try and figure out your situation more, and find out how to help you with the answers you give us.
Is your mum someone who you feel close to? Do you trust her? Do you get on with her? Maybe if you talk to her about this, it could help you, she could try and get you the help you need.
If you can't speak about it verbally, perhaps writing stuff down or printing some pages from here and giving them to someone in real life would be easier?
I also do understand that you may have trouble trusting people in real life, and maybe you're scared of being hurt or opening up to someone? Is that a reason why you don't want to talk to an adult? If it isn't, could you tell us in detail why you think you don't want to tell an adult? As best as you can explain?
Please do try to answer the questions people give you, as much as you can, that way we can try and figure out your situation more, and find out how to help you with the answers you give us.
no, no and no to the mum questions
scared of both
yess and its awkward
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
on my hand right now i have ' i'll do anything for you <3' and 'fake smile'
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
i hate that ill think of what to say to sean and how to tell him stuff, but when it atually comes to doing it i freeze i can say or do anything exept cry, run away. and other times i talk myself out if it, i over think things way too much
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
What is your relationship like with your mum, if I can ask? Are things bad between you two, or do you just not talk much, or are you just not close to her?
I understand being scared of being hurt, and opening up to someone, but it could really help you.
Sometimes we have to take a leap of faith[a figure of speech], and try to trust someone, even though your mind tells you that you can't, you have to try and ignore those thoughts as much as you can and try to open up to an adult about this.
Have you tried to look at the links yet? They could be of really good help Ashlee.
