"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
its 4 years tuesday-since i was abused. i should be over it by now. but i'm worse! the other anniversaries have been hard, but i've gotten through them, but this year its different. i feel sick when i realise how close it is, i've been crying constantly and not being able to concentrate on anything. i dont know how to deal with these new feelings, because even self harm isnt enough for this. i'm scared of myself.
*curls up and cries*
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
*cuddles close* me sort of worthless at advice. Me try to help however I can though. It's good to accept feelings like that, but if it's too much maybe you could find ways to distract yourself by thinking of happy things.
| Sarah|
i Miss you.o7.11.o8
♥♥♥♥♥♥"It has been said that time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain.
In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone."
*clings* thats ok, i just dont know how to deal with this. i've never felt this bad before. they said DBT would make it all better, but since i started i've just gone rapidly downhill. i need help.
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
it will stop. Just say no. stop. go away. remember he's not there. you are safe. touch something tangible, like the wall, or the carpet, something real with texture. that is real. he is not. you are safe.
*discovers ambs is under the bed too and crawls up to her* cuddles?
Last edited by katnovia : 01-05-2010 at 10:45 PM.
Reason: needs spacing!
You are talking to: Kat The Others are: Annabell (Belle), Rosie, Lotty, Kate, Amy, Jessica (Jess), Sarah, Ramiel(Miel), Elizabeth (Liz), Shadow
everything, flashbacks, that im not sure of, its hruting, im hungover its making me feel sick its makign it worse its all worse *cries* im scared, i dont know where tracie is i have to go to bed baby ambs is getting angry :'( i just dont want to :'(
*cuddles tightly* you're safe sweetie. I don't know where tracie is either, but i'm sure she's ok and will be back soon. Meanwhile, your cuddle is right here. Flashbacks are nasty arn't they, but remember that they are fleeting memories and that you are safe. Is there any way in which you can calm baby ambs down? why is she angry? *strokes your hair*
You are talking to: Kat The Others are: Annabell (Belle), Rosie, Lotty, Kate, Amy, Jessica (Jess), Sarah, Ramiel(Miel), Elizabeth (Liz), Shadow
shes tired, i made her poorley, and shes mad i let people hurt her, shes really mad, i feel sick :'( i want to talk to her i havent spoke to her in ages but im so tired there horrible there horrible *hides under bed with big duvet* :'(
