It's been a year today, since you left.
I've not forgotten, I never will forget.
I love you, Gad.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
What would you think of me now.
So lucky
So strong
So proud
I feel so guilty mum for worrying about stupid little things when really all that matters is that you are gone. I wish I had been a better daughter and showed you I loved you when I had the chance.
Can't believe it will be four years in April. You were not perfect but I am older now and understand how much you struggled to hide your depression from us. And how hard it must have been for you. I forgive you for your adultery,though it was a shock finding out, and love Joe just as much as always, it makes no difference that he is only my half brother. And I understand why you couldn't tell us when he was born. I know you always tried your best and I am sorry for all the stress and worry I must have caused you.
its so close to christmas now, and i still can't believe you won't be with us. i miss you so much. its not the same without you. i haven't told them but i think thats why i always get worse at christmas. i wish you were still here and would give anything to have you here just one more day. i miss you and i love you both.
Life Is Like A Beautiful Melody Only The Lyrics Are Messed Up
Thank you for all you did for me and for the group. Thank you for being so kind and warm. You are deeply missed.
Love. xx
The Mole was bewitched, entranced, fascinated. By the side of the river he trotted as one trots, when very small, by the side of a man who holds one spell-bound by exciting stories; and when tired at last, he sat on the bank, while the river still chattered on to him, a babbling procession of the best stories in the world, sent from the heart of the earth to be told at last to the insatiable sea.
Wind in the Willows.
I love both of you, too.
My beautiful, beautiful angels.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
I miss you terribly, but you'd be disgusted if you knew what I was doing to myself. Maybe it's better that you don't see.
I'm glad that you no longer suffer. I hope that you're out there somewhere smiling down at me, but I don't hold out a lot of hope.
We all miss you, but love is something that can't be taken away like a life can be. I might sometimes forget the way you smelt, the way you laughed, the way you held my hand; but I'll never forget that you loved me, and I love you.
Death is nothing at all
I have only slipped away into the next room
I am I and you are you
Whatever we were to each other
That we are still
Call me by my old familiar name
Speak to me in the easy way you always used
Put no difference into your tone
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow
Laugh as we always laughed
At the little jokes we always enjoyed together
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was
Let it be spoken without effort
Without the ghost of a shadow in it
Life means all that it ever meant
It is the same as it ever was
There is absolute unbroken continuity
What is death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind
Because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you for an interval
Somewhere very near
Just around the corner
All is well.
Grampy, I love you.
There are remarkable things all the time, right in front of us,
but our eyes have like the clouds over the sun
and our lives are paler and poorer if we do not
see them for what they are. If nobody speaks of
remarkable things, how can they be called remarkable?"
R.I.P Grandad MIss you and love you so much xxxxxx
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. ~ Girl Interrupted
When you dont want to feel, death seems like a dream. ~ Girl Interrupted
Hey nanny.
It's Christmas Eve now. This time last year you were at our house. You were supposed to be coming to ours for Christmas, but we changed it when we found out you were ill. We didn't know you'd only be here 13 days after this though.
There's one of your decorations on the tree - the one I got. My mum says it's like you can be with us. :)
Let's hope this Christmas is good hey? Last Christmas morning they woke me up at 4am, doing whispered shouting. Stressful times I guess. But then, they split us last week, he ended up in hospital, and he's going abroad next month. I'm worried about everyone at the moment, I just want everything to be ok. I think we've had enough bad stuff in 2009, let's have some good stuff happen in 2010. You'd have hated all this.
Grandad.
You would of been 70 yesterday. This is our 5th year without you and it never gets easier. Christmas is especially hard. You loved this time of the year, remember when you came and picked me and Kasey up when we were singing and Sainsburys and you stood with out choir and sung and danced? You always were the life and soul of the party.
I'm sorry if I have let you down with the way I have been these last 5 years but I am trying to change. And I hope you are proud of that. :). We will meet again some day. But until then look after yourself. And look after Uncle Brett, and Sandra, and look after Tommy especially.
Oh, and please tell Kasey to behave herself tomorrow. I know how hard she finds things and I know she misses you more than she allows people to know.
I love you!!!
xxxx
my 2nd christmas without you and here I am all alone in hospital
everything is just falling apart and I just cant do it anymore grandpa I just cant
aunty liz didnt even come down for christmas... the whole family is breaking in two
I have already lost my other grandparents (with good reasons) but I dont wana lose the one family I have left also
but how do I do it?
grandpa how do I make them like me?
you always saw me grandpa, even the times when I was in a bad mood and didnt wana be seen/found by anyone
I miss you, and your voice
I miss the fact that every christmas the family ALWAYS came together... but now look at us
look at what we have become
its meant to be tragedies that bring people closer together isnt it... not further break us up
I just cant do it anymore, I really cant
I love you and I am sorry
sometimes being strong means not holding back the tears but letting them fall
~˙·٠•●♥Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥●•٠·˙~
my fur baby girls are my life <3
r.i.p my beautiful girl jackie. i will love you always no matter what - 6/5/10
i loved to see you smile, even though there wasn't much to smile about
dressed head to toe in red, anything you could find.
i've been through a few years without you now, it seems quite strange... nothing makes me miss you less...
sometimes my heart, my soul, my body and my mind ache so very deeply, sometimes i feel like i will actually break.
but, just so you know, i'm doing ok now, much better at least.
for you...
but then, you're with me anyway.
every day
i carry you in my heart
Nan, come back, i need you. im sitting here thinking of dying, and how to do it. i cant take the pain. please, comfort me nanny. wrap your arms around me and comfort me. i miss you, i need you. christmas wasnt the same without you this year.
